J'dore : Aviation

2010-09-03T21:39:00.001+07:00

i will be moving here.. its my studio blog but its gonna include all my experience in USM...enjoy
http://youshengfoong.blogspot.com/

2010-08-28T22:18:00.002+07:00

i guess architecture won't be as easy as i thought...browsing through my senior's blogs i am like super impressed..our creation is a product of creativity, direction, determination...having talent alone does not count...

i love the creativity process of the whole studio and seriously, im kinda missing the crazy(no bamboo pls) assignments..i want my creativity to flow again...i have to stop FB-ing so much...start to focus on a whole new direction..can i make it?? yes..

i realise how blessed i am to have such a great family...amazing seniors..i mean..i was like walao...i want to improve, grow, and metamorphose throught this Journey...Apex or not, guess what? i dun care...its my journey and im gonna live and enjoy it to teh fullest..

Yousheng..think Blake Lively! think Evelyn Salt!!! Kris Allen!!!! haha....LAdy GAGA...think BIG!!!!!

Uni life..2 months..

2010-08-27T08:30:00.005+07:00

its been 2 months since i am in USM and i am loving every second of it...nevertheless, i gotta have more self control..have been radiating too much lately...well..let the pictures tell the story of my USM life so far..life is great!!!! thank u GOD!!!! let me grow more within!

met loads of great people...i need 2 learn more..learn faster but keep to my own principles..haha

trauma

2010-04-30T14:28:00.003+07:00

traumatized.
Never intended for that to take place. Please forgive me.
I should have prayed for that but i prayed for other things.
Its just not a good feeling.
Its like a worm eating your heart out.
Helpless...all i can do now is to pray.
I intended today to be a day of a fresh start, a new beginning-Genesis.
I guess its still a beginning, a lesson learnt.
I ought to be more careful.
When will i have the confidence again?

the last chapter

2010-03-26T16:21:00.002+07:00

its been a long time and it seems its gonna be the end of the road. Somehow, i feel relieved that its all gonna come to an end. This odyssey as i call it has broken and mended me at the same time, moulding me into a person i vision myself of.

Things have been different-the way i act, they way i speak to others, my perception to others. Somehow, i still feel the naive child in me has not left but has only been exposed more to the outside world. There are many times that i felt like giving up, breaking down, letting destiny go by its way, but somehow, i mustered enough courage to go through it all. Bonds have been made, some strengthened, some lost its sparkle. Yet, i feel so grateful for all that God has made me go through.

i wonder what would happen if the circle of exotic of friends remained the same as i could clearly remember. Things may have gone to a different direction as i wished it would, but i still cherish the moments i went through with you all.

to a friend of mine:
There is something i wanted to tell you all along but i just don't know how to open up to you. I just wished that you were the down to earth friend whom i knew. i really wished so.

yet, there has been light and rejoice as my friendship with others blossomed. they have been a breath of fresh air for me, and i thank them very much for all the joy they brought to my life.

Who knew an exhibition could somehow relight the fire inside me to express myself creativity. creatively. It was my fuel that kept me inspired and gave me a vision. Viewing those photo albums, gave me some sort of accomplishment that we together had managed to go through all obstacles and visualized our dream. It was a success i do agree-something that is hard to hear from my mouth.

now its the final struggle , all i have to do is to have more faith and i will be able to make it through. I have to convince myself to believe in myself. i have to. will succeed. i know i will. What lies ahead my future is still an unknown . yet, i have to renew my doubt with hope and faith. I can ...

thanks Pn Shariza for giving me a word of encouragement the other day, what you said, really meant mountains to me, and for those who broke me down unintentionally, its alright, you won;t be able to knock me down.

2010-01-23T21:27:00.001+07:00

oohoo..heading back to Pahang tomorrow. whats on my mind nw?? -vacancy...

awaiting the CNy hols..can't want to get back to Ipoh as soon as possible...i really like staying at Ipoh , at Ipoh, even though it means doing nothing..

ah ohya..the homework and studies i put aside. Oh well...there's still tomorrow...this hols was spent nice-went KL with the exotic circle of friends, went visit old school, met 2 crazy people..

i love holidays...

knock you down

2010-01-11T22:13:00.002+07:00

Gonna keep my heads up high, gonna be strong, gonna prepare myself as tougher roads await me. This is a chance for me to prove to myself that i am able to overcome myself, the barriers, the shells confining me. Though knocked down, i am gonna fight back with full throttle, giving my very best. this is not gonna stop me from reaching my dreams.

I am gonna knockMUET down...!

a metamorphing journey.

2009-12-31T21:29:00.010+07:00

times has changed, methamorphosis is taking place. without prior notice, much have passed, loads have cherished, many lessons were learnt, many changes has taken place. From the beginning, there was i, a tuition teacher, then a scholarship wannabe. appleboy to finally reverting back to my old self-the true me.

Recalling this year, time really flew. recalling the good and bad made me realised how far i have travelled. life is after all a journey, one that have ups and downs, just like a ferris wheel ride. At times, i wish i could reach the peak, the highest point, but when i reached that pivotal point, i realise that i have to start the journey all over again. Just like a ferris wheel ride, the wheel rotates , from the lowest point to the highest point and this process continues until the time your ride is finished-the time you leave the ride to embark a new journey.

Life at Kmph is a learning process, a journey, an odyssey, a flight that really strenghtens me and morphes me to learn more about myself and creating myself. Quoted from a dear friend of mine, "Life is not about finding yourself, but its a process of creating yourself." through these 7 months so far, much have veen learnt and experienced visually, emotionally, physicaaly and spiritually. i see growth, metamorphosis, radical changes. I think i now know the person i want to be, the somebody i can picture myself to be.

At Kmph, i learnt to 'make things work'. complaining is a form of releasing dissatisfaction and stress but continuous of complaints is a sign of weakness, an irritation to ones ears. I have complained much, from my dissatisfaction to my maths teaches to the 'lack of interest or senstivity' to maths which ultimately leads to the lacklustre performace of mine in maths. Yet, it was a fellow Ipoh based teacher-pn Shariza who slapped me on my face and made me realized that giving excuses and complaining is just an excuse of being a spoiled brat and laziness, All i have to do is to make it WORK!!!!

There was a so called Appleboy mania at kmph where i was labelled as this apple eating boy at lecture guy. that was a period of fun, joy, of excitement. Those were some of my golden days where i felt i received illumination, enlightment, blessing. I felt like a phoenix reborn from ashes. i was new in a new environment, totally fresh in an exotic place, ready to explore all boudaries, every corner, ready to create a new me, met new people, ready to embark a journey, That was a point in life where i was filled with confidence where my jar of confidence is sligtly over-filled resulting in a change of persona within me, which i slightly noticed. I was starting to change to something that i would not like, unnoticed, unintentionally. I was turning Ugly. Yet, at the right point, i reverted, God's blessings made me change. Here i am now.

Blessed. Blessed to meet these new friends whom accepted me, whom i accept and care for. i respect them for their individuality and qualities which i learnt a lot from. And then was when i quetioned Him for sending them away , one by one from me. Yet, i received new blessings , new friendships were created, existed bonds were strengthed.

i met great roommates, good friends, future leaders, yet, at this point, i feel people around me have been changing, in a manner that makes me realise and rethink who they really are, their true colors. At some times, what i see is not what i like. It is an eyesore, yet i still care deeply and sincrely for them. i am confused by the persona i am facing. Do people change? or does it take time before one reveals his true colors. As far as i am concerned, these changes can be seen as thorns to others. Yet, this is a time i stay firm with my integrity, my principles. all i want and have to do now is to save me from myself. these thoughts can and must no longer change or effect me emotionally. i need to stay strong. true friends do not tolerate,they accept.

As various memories refreshes through my mind, i feel more grown up. but i know i have much more to learn, much more to explore and see. I like being myself-crazy, a lunatic, an ambassador, talkative, always smilling. i realise i talk as a person, a true human-vulnerable and all bariers broken down., and i like it.

this year, i feel even more connected to my family that i have ever felt in a long time. I thank you, Lord. for a blessed year.

UPS is next year, 3days ahead, and next year , 2010, a better, blessed year is 20 minutes ahead, awaiting for me as i embark on a different flight. As a passenger, now , i await my destionation. Time is not the main factor, it is the journey and the destination that truly matters.

Mastering my Body

2009-11-28T20:50:00.003+07:00

class photo..

back to Ipoh for Haji hols. loads had happened in Kmph...No more dinamika kemahiran and Moral class and guess what?? We hav coco and sains informatics this sem!!!! yahoo!!! btw, did i clarrify i gt silat!!! Silat, the Malay version of self defence, requires agilty, swift, skill, discipline, all qualities which i severly lack!!! regardless of all adversities, i guess i have to use this chance to experience another persona and discover a new me..haha..

apparently, coordinating these long limbs and arms of mine has been a great adversity. And i even 'saw the stars' on my first silat practice, i guess i have to really toughen up!!!

and Biro Pameran is going to officially start operating soon.. and guess what? watching "beyond the realms of conscience" or in short " Gong sam gai' has some sort really inspired me to create this grand, majestic exhibition that showcasses the beauty of the Chinese culture. Its all in my mind now, and hopefully, with the help of the rest of the biro, we can make this dream a reality!..

Apparently, "gong sam gai" is bringing out the crazy side of me, believe me, i am possessed by the characters from this epic TVB classic, bringing ancient China back to Kmph. haha...hope this eventually wears off!!!

going back to watch New Moon!!! excited!! and Happy Bday! SHobana...

Speed clubbing or poo poo tree??

2009-11-05T20:35:00.005+07:00

this hols was truly a roller coaster ride for me. went out a couple of times with my friends and also an eye opener Penang trip.even learnt taichi and visited Little india!!!For the Penang trip, there was Fann, Yennee, Yash, Young , MIn Huey and me..and it was unexpectedly fun! Though i did not eat much as i would like to, i had a great deal of fun with these guys.

I went skating(QUeensbay) for the first time, speed clubbing and posing with the 'poo poo tree'...that was really crazy..haha..

CLubbing is something people usually ever in a million years associate it with me. Well, to tell you the truth, i never believed that i would ever go into a club! But OMG..i did it!!! well, to give more detailed info, this club is at Auto city, Butterworth and its called ' Dream'!! there were these staircases up to this high profile club. I was nervous, afraid, yet i had to hide all my fears and wear a mask of calmness. This was a time to experience a life i never though i would even come close to.

We hesitated before going in. we were unsure. well at least i was a 'virgin' in this case. We did not even know if we needed to pay to enter...but as i went in. i felt like transformed into another planet. It was like totally different. It was dark and the deco was inspired by modern meets ancient China . I heard loud music, there was a band . There were lounges, ppl were hanging out. and to my surprise, i saw a middle aged lady wearing skimpy outfits dancing to the beat of the music like theres no tomorrow and i had only one word in my mind- Gross.

i felt uneasy , uncomfortable and i looked at Yashini. And from those big wide opened eyes of hers, i knew we were on the same page. We hadenough of this 'experience' this clubbing life. We were like raising out voices (the music was too loud) " i don't really like this place!!! " "Lets leave" and in a couple of seconds, we left the so called "dream-land"

well, this is what me and Yashini calls 'speed clubbing' ..we experienced it visually at least...and maybe its just not my cup of tea!!! i rather pose with the 'poo poo tree' (see my Facebook photos-crazy i tell you)!!!! that was more fun and at least in my comfort zone!!! haha..

thanks yash, fann, min huey, Queen K and Young, really enjoyed this trip...learnt more about my friends and this lesson will never end!

2009-10-30T21:10:00.002+07:00

Life changes, quoted from Madonna's hit single 'Hung up' ,'time goes by..so slowly...so slowly'...distancing from Ipoh for my pre U studies opened my eyes that so much has remained, yet so many changes. So different, so vague. In this case, time and distance played a key role in these changes.

i see personalities evolving, friends feeling more comfortable under their skins, level of conversations brought to a new level, people maturing before my own eyes wheres others escaping into think air, distancing themselves from our lives, like smoke.

The portrait of our life has changed. Some used to smile so cheerfully, radiating light into our life, now yet fading into the darkness. Some remain there, playing significance.

the road not taken keeps blurring my thoughts, what if i took the other path? what if?...choices are made, paths has been taken. There is no turning back, only looking into the future could propel you forward.

i know why i was the only one chosen for this path. For God knows that i could handle it.
All i can do is to be thankful for be blessed.

Concrete jungle awaits me!

2009-10-21T09:02:00.003+07:00

MUETS just over...and i am glad..well i have no idea how i scored but i had fun with my group..like we interacted...we helped each other..it was PURE discussion...eye contact was there...GREAT

i was candidate C and we had to discuss on how food manufacturers could increase the sales of locally food. My point was through promoting our food overseas.(via campaigns, Internet, food fair, ambassadors...)

haha..thanks 4 d wishes...thanks ZEE!!! ELIN!!!! and also Pn Norsiah, Miss Cheong for the wonderful tips...

unfortunately Candidate A kinda broke down ...she was too nervous..we all tried to help her but i hope that i wasn't misintepreted as overdominating bythe examiner..oh well...

byebye Sem 1..coz i am leaving the JUNGLE 2day!!!! heading to another jungle only that its made of concrete(KL)..haha...

Jungle meltdown

2009-10-20T09:22:00.004+07:00

exam was officially over yesterday and since i have my speaking test on 21 Oct(7.30 am) i have to camp in the jungle(thats what Yash calls KMPh ...the jungle).

These exam period could be said as a turning point of my life-it made me stronger, tougher, more mature. Its very well said that it takes a total emotional breakdown to see the beauty in someone and i totally experienced it. Breaking down was something i never thought i could ever experience in a Giga-zillion years...but...who knew that a few sums could lead to a basket full of 'won tons'. I felt vulnerable, open to attack, i felt i had nobody i could trust , i wanted to talk to sumbody. It was 3 am in the morning-but i had my family standing by me.

Now, i feel great, its like a baggage, a burden, an evil spell being cast out off me. Believing in yourself makes you strong, knowing others believe in you makes you feel secure, beautiful, safe. Now, i take life as a journey that i can learn and enjoy at the same time-enriching myself.

My personal message to Maths & Chem & Physics:

I may not personally like the 3 of you but YO!!!! i am stronger and i can overcome you guys...so bring it on...coz i m gonna fight back in full throttle. Chem, i am gonna be like a buffer solution, add strong acid, add super strong base, I am gona remain the same! Maths, you can differentiate or intergrate as much as possible but yo....i'm gonna persevere as you cant change my perseverance. Yo Physics,..i love you ...so let it be conservation of angular momentum or isothermal, i am gonna overcome it all...as i have to believe..haha..

yo,,4 PSPM, i did my all..like i gave all i could and no matter what the end point(point where indicator changes color) its OK...haha...Nasib le!!!

gonna go to Kl on the 21st and reunite with my parents...
anyway, Happy Birthday to the empress!!! (Yen nee) and thanks Fan and Young for yesterday.

Ohya!!!!!! b4 signing off..Speaking test tomorrow...calm down,, speak slowly, intelligently, wisely and confidently and speak with your eyes !!!! haha....

Don't complain...itu NASIB!!!

2009-09-20T16:43:00.006+07:00

its been a very long time like ages since i last blogged. Part of the reason is that i was like as busy as hell and partially because of the sloth inside me kinda took over. Well, all i must say is that life at KMPh was super-hell crazy. Like what i told Young, i have to find equilibrium-hectic studies+ crazy timetable, PRD responsibilities, Biro Pameran for CNY thingy, and my entertainment.

Lets talk about studies, imagine yourself attending classes daily from 8-around 5...and thats not all, you have to attend extra lectures daily that starts from 9.30-11.00. Don't forget the fact that you are living in a hostel, thus your laundry has to become a daily priority. Thats basically my daily life for about 2 weeks. Well, all i can say that for the past 2 weeks at Kmph i has been like hell busy

PSPM(final exam for this sem) is coming like really soon and i have to like study real hard for it..its like a MUST score exam. People there just expect "us" to excel. Sometimes can't we just be viewed at the same level? its like not every Chinese is amazing in Maths...come on...i still remember Pn Shariza(maths tutorial) once said " This is the first time a Chinese ask me this type of quetion"...i was like..ok...just for your information, i don't really like Maths and ...i don't usually score for Maths...so..take notice, ok??

nevertherless, Pn Shariza taught me alot about life. Well, she has these 'golden phrases' which are kinda amusing and true at the same time:

1. To do Maths, you have to hav 3 criteria. no.1, you need to have a brain. 'you have brains right?" no.2 , you need to have the knowledge, the skill. no.3, you need to have the speed, " To gain the speed, you need alot of practice."

2. If you don't study now i can assure you that you are gonna MAMPUS (suffer)!!MAMPUS!!(she says this in a scary tone)

3. I tell you, if you can't even do this, you tak layak masuk U!!!! Kamu tak LAYAK!!!!!(huh...???)

4. I never trust counsellors!!!! NEVER!!!! if you want counselling , ask it from your parents!!! NEVER trust those counsellors!!!!

5. Bukan saya tak mau ajar kamu, but if i teach you everything and show you all the steps, you are not thinking!!!! SAYA YANG jadi PANDAI, bukan kamu...saya yang kekal pandai..kamu kekal tak sama...use your brain and think , try solving it..!!!!

6. YOU are not thinking!!!! you cannot depend on me!!! saya tak mau pelajar macam itu.!!!! think!!!!

7. Don't keep complaining!! do something about it!!! kalau kata lecturer tak baik, itu NASIB lar,, NASIB...

Thats typical Pn Shariza whom i deeply respect. She may be harsh but what she says its like super true. Despite my dislike for Maths, i will have to prove her wrong....NO pain, no gain, i can no longer wish for my fairy god mother to sprinkle magic dust on me nor i can no longer ask for my Genie in the bottle to grant every wish....i gotta work hard!!!! for maths..hehe

During this brief and short holidays, i have to work very hard on my studies, its my only option to score 4 flat. Its everything for me. Despite all the stress and fuly-pack timetable, Thank the Lord that i have Gossip Girls to accompany my hollidays...haha

GOSSIP GIRLS IS AMAZING!!!! love it SUPER..haha...BLAir...serena..chuck..nate,...dan..small J..haha...

XOXO i know you love me

2009-08-21T20:40:00.002+07:00

i thank those who were there for me. May those cloudy days pass by as a new day approaches. May i find that happiness and joy that once filled my soul. I have to persevere, thats what i can do. Things do happen for a reason as for that, i will stay strong as this is a world of the survival of teh fittest.

h1n1 strikes!

2009-08-06T19:10:00.006+07:00

KMPh quarantined for 1 week!!!!..before this i thought i wanted a longer holiday, well it seems that tinkerbell must had sprinkled some pixie dust or maybe i made my wish as a meteor rain passed by...my prayers were answered somehow-an extra week of holidays.yo!!! Som, what how did i spend these holidays??

hmmm...really did nothing much aside from slacking and slothing around.studied a little...and a movie every day, so far, i have re-watched 3 Harry Potter movies and completed one of the X-men trilogy. Watched alot of TV also..somehow, i know that not before long, i have to click myself into study mode again and i bet my timetable will be flooded!well...enjoy life first lar..

i still rember last Sat at around 12.00 while i was watching One Million Star and i received a call from Young about KMPh being quarantined. Did not believe it at first . Suddenly, my phone was flooded with messages like"Kmph quarantined , kena H1N1, balik pada 9-Ogos"...wow...and i kept ringing my fellow college mates...kept receiving SMS...really kinda crazy la..

"Pn Sharaizah, KMPh kena quarantined 1 minggu kah?? H1n1??"
"ya, kah? cikgu tak tau ar."
"yalar..menakutkan lar...ada banyak kawan call lar..cikgu tak tau kah?"
"cikgu call office lar..nanti beritahu Foong.."

later..

"Cikgu, benarlah..sidah disahkan memang quarantined la!!!!"
"yalar...saya pun baru tahu..haha"
"cikgu kesian lar..1 minggu lar..macam itu,,saya dah sedia banyak maths nak tanya cikgu lar..sudah bersiap sedia ...after they cut our holidays or give extra class..kesian la.."
"kesian..hahaha...tak apa lar..hahaha...(she kept lauging)"

oh well...i guess i'm going back the next SUnday instead. Well, btw, this is my beauty maths project..thanks to May, i kinda got the idea of stealing ideas from Monopoly and convert it into a maths board game! well i may not be creative..but this is call innovative right?

this game is kinda not that complicated..kinda like if you landed on the yellow, pink and red papers, u have to answer simple maths quetions..(wanna play??)

i also got news that my art piece i sent to CHina for a competition has won a prize..(thats inner news)..haha...dunno la..fingers crossed.

ps: Jin: u har...bahagia jor pun tak tau kongsikan..syabas
KMM: Good luck oh!!! add oil
fellow KMPhians-gonna see you guys soon...
Sk&BJ: Happy belated bday !!!yo!!!

Ipoh-my home

2009-07-29T18:32:00.003+07:00

its gonna be the end of my 2 weeks sem break at ipoh. Sadly, i have to pack my bags and head to Pahang on Sunday....2 weeks is just not enough..

Kmph..haiz..i gotta go back and eat 'nasi goreng belacan...nasi goreng cina...curry..curry again.."..i gotta do my own laundry again...need to wake up early again..need to do assignments again..need to go back to my room again...haiz...picturing myself walking past the corridor of my hostel..haiz..the smell...the bathroom...will never be the same ...Ipoh...is the true place i can call home.

well, the bright side is that i can meet with my friends again. It's been a long time that i haven't heard and seen Ravi, Zhen Hong, Shoba...and many others.. I can picture my tutor assignments pilling up...OMG...its well quoted that 'Homework leh..can never finish geh"

Going back...Malam Dinamika is coming soon..kinda excited about my tea giving ceremony..haha..and ohya! haven't even completed my maths tutorial..all the Matrix: Cramers Rule ..ERO...driving me crazy..and Beauty Maths...OMG...

Ipoh..the place i call home...i will really cherish the time i am here..Ipoh food memang best!..gonna cherish the time i spend with my family members..

gonna go yumcha with May, Ruo Chien and others at Foh San tomorrow, +sis is coming back tomorrow..kinda looking forward to that.

Why must SEM break be so short..

UPS break!!!

2009-07-20T21:27:00.002+07:00

back in Ipoh for 2 weeks for UPS break..

alot to do:
1. Maths assignment: Beauty maths(create a game or model about maths)
2. Studies(loads of tutorial work+maths)
3. finding 'samfu' for malam dinamika(a cultural night)

aside from that, hope to enjoy as much as possible..watching loads of One Million Star and TVB dramas...need 2 refresh myself ..btw Harry Potter is OUT!!!! its a gotta/must watch movie..haha..

went visit Miss Thomasz today and she seems healthy.so..i'm happy for her and she kept telling us about the poor English standard of Malaysia's education system and we dicussed about teaching Maths and Science in BM.(that was a silly move)..haiz..speechless..

anyway, Shobana did not get a placing at KARKOm..haiz..she may have not win..but shes still a winner at KMPH..just hope she gets and feels better..

Nak cari apple?

2009-07-15T13:56:00.003+07:00

UPS this week.

English-loved the feeling of writing again.
Chemistry-did fairly ok!
Maths-Careless like Crazy!
Physics-i felt the best!

i remember Bing jian telling me that my fate is still the same like f5- i have no 'jodoh' with Maths...and i am starting to believe it. Its not that the Maths Quetions were like tough..but its because of my carelessness that led me to make a fatal mistake. and because of that, its kinda frustrating! After realizing those fatal mistakes, i stormed to the cubicle...to like consult my Maths tutorial teacher and what happened was...

" Foong cari apple kah?"

Yar...mr K saw me and that was what i first heard. That kinda cheered me..haha..i'm apple boy...then i kinda like consulted him and he managed to like " Tak apa..foong...kalau cikgu itu baik hati , dia tutup satu mata sahaja"(what if they that teacher open 2 eyes?? then sure die lor)
but he kinda helped me to lik release my stress.

Here, i gotta thank Pn Noraida (physics tutorial teacher) who have been helping me alot. I love the way she teaches...the way she wants us to understand physics concepts instead of memorizing the solutionsand this is what se told me.

" foong, dari awal-awal lagi, saya sudah perhatikan bahawa anda memang careless lar."
" cikgu, saya memang careless lar..dan saya tahu saya tak clever"
"tidak lar...kau juga bijak tapi careless sahaja."

THOSE WERE conforting WORDS! Thanks!( i hoped my Physics UPS was more than enough to make her proud!)

btw people here are crazy competitive..all aiming to get full marks its like...huh???...just do your best lar..and somehow their competitveness is kinda bothering+affecting me..oh well going backto Ipoh this Sat..

ST Prize giving ceromony

2009-07-04T15:47:00.004+07:00

went back to Ipoh this week to attend Prize giving ceremony...met alot of friends there..haha,..alot people say i kurus jor..haiz..just take that as a compliment! and we saw Transformers!! Bumble bee, shia, , Optimus Prime....the twins are like so AMAZING!!!!AMAZING!!! i gav a fricking standing ovation.hehe...i still dun undestand why the KMM people arent back..so kiasu 4 UPS meh..haiz..relax lar..k?

going to visit Pn chaw later with Jin and Yinleng.

Kmph electric breakdown: hope the others are OK..

No Jodoh with carcom

2009-06-26T19:54:00.002+07:00

i din get it. Though i managed to get into top 4 for Public speaking CARCOM..i lost to fellow Ipoh gal Shobana for a spot to compete in CARCOM. If only they chose 2 speakers like previous years, i would be chosen...but...i am very happy for Shoba!!! and i hope she makes KMPh proud...i know she will..she is the calm and collected girl after all.

God is always fair and has His plan.

Instead of getting CARCOM. i gt PRD(pembimbing rakan dinamik)!!! and i am vice president for PRD!!!..haha...i hope via PRD i can learn more and help others at the same time. its after all much better to give than to receive!...

Being a PRD can be tough lar...i get teased....if i say something not PRD..Shoba will be like " Seriously, Foong, what you just said is not PRD at all"...haiz.,...but its trains me to be a better person! so i gotta think and speak with wisdom. btw: Maggie, Mei Xuan, yashini, May are among the lucky ones who got PRD

english speaking test was amazing..though i was dissapointed for not getting CARCOM..after my speaking test, Miss Zarina told us..after so many groups..this is the only group that is good!!!! YAY!!!..thanks miss Z!! she made my day so special!!

loads of work this week and UPS coming soon...and i did not do 2 well in Quiz and test ...even my Maths teacher is saying..U MeManG CARELESS LA!.gotta work harder ...that means i have to sacrifice Transformers!!! haiz..oh well...

oh ya..going back to Ipoh next week for Prize giving ceremony. and i have Fiziks day 2moro and fiziks exhibition next sat!!!..OMG right?

(p.s.: hope Jin enjoys tropical M'sia, Carmen gets teacher course, KMM and ST ppl have fun......and KMph ROCKS at all time)

u changed your mind??

2009-06-19T15:38:00.004+07:00

i find myself talking too much in Kmph..being here is like breaking out of the shell that use to be keeping me fron expressing me from who i truly am. here i get to be crazy...unlike in ST where being crazy is a 'sin'..haha

Known as the apple boy, i am full of joy and i tell others " you know what,I am crazy!"

At Kmph i seem to be talking with maximum velocity! haha...

Two nights ago, MX told me that she is leaving to Aimst because she cannot get to Hayat and she wants to being a doctor. thus, even getting 4 flat in Matrix may not guarantee you to a spot in doctor. we were in the library at that time..and we chatted for like an hour..

and after that, she is still confused or whether to leave or to stay...

honestly, i thought that this girl will leave(its just a hunch or wild guess) even yan ling agreed!..

two days later, she told me "you know what..because what u said, i changed my mind and I am staying!!!"..OMG..really shocked..and some people are asking me"what did you tell her..??""what made her change her mind?"...guys, i was also shocked by her decision but i respect her 100% for thinking carefully of her next step.

i remember telling her "to succeed in life, we have to take risks..maybe this is a risk you should take". This could be a gamble for her and i wish the best for her. know i realise how much impact just a few words can make to 1's life. So i better be careful with my words.

i really did not expect to convince her to stay at KMPh..she seemed that she wants to leave. Even yanling and her friends were kinda shocked!..

maybe i am a good counsellor??..haha...anyway PRD results are gonna be out next week....fingers crossed!..

(Ravi, Vincent, Trophy,Pokok Christams,REn, P2, P3.. Yang, Shorbana, Roseline, yanLing, Yannie, Jason is making my life at KMPH so interesting!!!!!)

deepest condolences to Leow and his family.May God bless you and your family.
Calvin, i hope you recover from your measles.

Robot ..humaniz-ing

2009-06-19T15:20:00.007+07:00

Let me intro you guys to Ying Ying...a former tutorial classmate of mine. for your info, she received the JPA offer(U.K-dentistry). I have known her for about 1 month now and she's leaving.

We actually had a small farewell for her. This is a true Taiping gal and i use to tease her being too robotic by calling her "ROBOt"(sounds mean right?) ...but this girl has truly changed alot since i met her..shes being so much more human ...i mean expression wise at least she shows her laughter....i will actually miss her..

last night when i was resting at the field....i kinda felt lonely as Ying used to jog around the track like every day!!!(she is an athlete!)...i still remember after the farwell we had, i listened to this song " First Love" by Utada Hikaru and that song nearly brought me to tears..haha..i will miss you gal...she will always be a friend of mine. and she promised to take me around Taiping to makan+play if we came down.

"you know what , when you tried to appeal to get Hayat, i actualy prayed that you won't get it , hoping you stay in Fiziks with us"

"jahat lar u"

"yala..i was kinda glad u did not get Hayat and stayed in Fz..."

"haiz..."

"and i did not expect you to get JPA ..coz alot of the bright students did not get it after apealing. so when you got JPA..i was like OMG..well....you are leaving after all"

i knew that i was selfish for hoping that she would not change class to Hayat..but you see, God has a plan. and he has HIS way of doing things.

all the best in MARA Banting...Ying Ying, sincerly, i wish you the best...seriously...and you are 100%human.

the APPLE boy...again..

2009-06-12T15:26:00.003+07:00

After "the history of the apple" anothe incident in lecture happened involving me.

The history of te apple 2
Our tutorial ended at 3.00p.m. and the Muslims had Islam class so that means that i have 1 hour of free time and another lecture at 4.00p.m...

Tired and ;azy, i opted to head back to my room instead of the library to take a short nap. I originally set my phone alarm to 3/45p.m. I did sleep and the alarm did ring ..but i was just termenung in my room....i was still in my dream world until i suddenly realised..

I was 4.05p.m.!!!!!!!

I am late!!!!!!!...Quickly, i rushed, ran...and just hurried to my lecture hall as fast as possible. (btw: i was having Maths lecture at that time..ohya..same lecture where the history of the apple happened")..

I opened the door..smilling blindly+sillyly...I was damn late..

" Foong dari mana kamu datang?"
"bilik"
"buat apa?"
"hal sendiri"(wanted to say sleeping)
"oo...meditasi nampaknya..."(whole class giggled)...(they surely know i feel asleep)...my hair was a mess..

Oh well..continued lecture...

Since that incident..i was refered in my maths lecture as PCK of KMph..(weird lar)....and my lecture mates keep saying and calling " foong....foong...foong" at all times...blimey, i have just been upgraded as a celeb in my lecture..oh well..all thanks to the 'history of an apple and the history of being late". and some Ipoh girls call me the APPLE BOY

I was so lucky that the Maths lecturer this time was En. Khairulnizam(the good lecture)..if it was the previous maths lecture that kinda XXX-ed me for eating an apple...i am like FINISHED!!!...oh well..who knoww popularity can be such a liabliity..ppl just call 'foong at all times"..well, i am fearless lar...haha...embrace the joke lor..i am kinda crazy after all

This is my life at KMPh...(interesting right??)

Went for P.S and PRD interview:
Public speaking auditon1:u were given 1 million ringgit..what would you do with it?
Public spealing audition 2: if you were a leader, how would you help spread peace?

i hope i get it...hehe..than i can say' CARCOM here i come.."

leaving

2009-06-03T18:21:00.002+07:00

Alot people leaving KMPh..either get JPA pr canot tukar HAyat and have to remain in Fiziks. So sad lar...even i dun really know them but them have grown to be a part of KMPh....KMPh will be less vibrant, colorful without you guys....really miss you all but all the best to SInYi and Kanchana..haiz....

KMPh will always welcome you back. i am really gonne miss you all...haha...I do hope the Ipoh gang will not shrink any more...haiz..

The Apple

2009-06-01T17:07:00.003+07:00

"today i am teaching about inequalities, quadratic eauations..new chapter"
"crunch"
...
"whats your name?"(pointing at me)
"foong"
" you wanna eat or learn?"
"learn"(i wanted to say both)
"den simpan lar "

quickly, i kept my apple out from sight. OMG...i was like so malu in class..oh well...i dun really care. Actually, dun think i am that berani lar...its just because i was sick ...sakit kerongkong like mad...no more water coz the water machine was like rosak.....my throat was so dry and i was just rushing from 1 class to another...and all i had w as an apple to quench my thirst....furthermore,some girls eat apple in class also tak apa...

this is the story of "the apple"..btw..i still love eating apples.

Anyway, being ketua tutor for my fiziks tutorial..i hav to help like organize a dance performance where this dance is counted into our Dinamika Kemahiran(living science) marks. hmmm....not being an avid dancer, i have to like figure out what works and what does not work. I have to just like MAke a ZERo to a hero...i plan to like organize my class to dance the kuda kepang..??? tarian cina?? and maybe an umbrella dance...haha..RIHANNA!!!!

btw: leow phoned that day and i am so happy to hear about the N.N.O....but u guys please kurangkan drama...KMPH is fun...hope the dance goes on well, hope i get PRD and Carcom 4 public speaking..

alll d best!!!!

Lin dan again...

2009-05-27T14:23:00.002+07:00

From yesterday till today , there was a total of like 2 groups of people approached me and called me"Lin Dan"..haiz...i look like Lin Dan meh...first was the Roti Canai guy..now my peers..whats next lar??..haiz....Lin Dan..i look nothing like him..maybe we share the same kening but...we are so different lar.."You mirip Lin Dan...comel"...hai

you guys remain speechless right???

z...OMG..haha..

2009-05-23T20:17:00.007+07:00

going back to Ipoh 2moro at 9.a.m. i guess its gonna be another long journey..but i need to keep reminding myself to start studying hard. After today's chat with Kolej Matrikulasi Melaka(KMM) friends, i discovered that KMPh is like way better(in my opinion).haha..no offence...its like i feel like i actually enjoy matrix life better, meeting new people...learning new things daily. KMPh seems to offer better facilities..haha..

beautiful flower at Block C

my tutorial( i love that place..like studying in a forest)

flower itu cantik kan>>

my room..isn't it neat?? my KMM friends say beter den KMM rooms wor..hehe

this is actually a card for our facilitators(abang tea, joo, jia jia, andrew, vincent, william)..it is like messages from all the non muslim students...it took me and some friends almost 3 hours to do it...+ we were interupted by a fire drill..hah..

( result)

(presenting the card)

this card may not cost RM 1 million but its full of sincerity..hope you faci's appreciate it.

KMM people finally timbul !!!!

2009-05-21T14:42:00.003+07:00

wow..it seems KMM people not living under the rock..haha..got timbul pula..

Met some new friends daily...i feel being the ketua tutor memang burden lar..(kidding) unlike shao kang, i have to keep collect money and go to cubicle to pay the lecturers..so far like i said..my fav lesson is English where i am more known as Big bang..haha..

er...i wonder how mnay people going back this week wor..i mean from Matrix to Ipoh..hmm...duno lar..but i am so far having like a great time here...the library got open at night lar...but 25th only mula...

yesterday my friends told me that Public speaking NOT included in CARCOM ...i was like so sad ..bt....i phoned Miss Zarina and the auditions next week lar...haha..though i haven't get selected..but i see this opportunity as a chance of redeeming myself from my previous almost fatal mistake..haha..

Hope i get it lar...

KMM guys: u guys joining CARCOM??? anyone else selected as Ketua?? wat COCO u guys joined??? i wan PRD!!!!!!...haha..

btw in lab..i watchin ANTM..finale..haha

SYOK SENDIRI!!!!

2009-05-20T16:18:00.003+07:00

yo!!! coming back this Fri ....will reach Ipoh at around 12.00+ (at night) and will be going back to KMPh at...Sun(9.00 a.m.)..hha..gonna leave my friends here at KMPh...bt i just feel so excited to go back 2 Ipoh..dad bought some delicious beef balls...hmm..what to eat..i feel like eating Nga CHoi Gai..even the Kmph guys keep call me to pack some food for the,..they even plan to camp at my house..reali sweat lor..

the ticket is not cheap but..oh well..around RM 80+ for through and fro. I am gonna be able to wacth AI!!!! yeppe....haha...

met alot of new friends daily...alot Ipoh friends also...KmPh has been an amazing blessing to me..i wonder how KMM is...hmm..Melaka..should be fun..right???...

btw..this week our topic of discussion has all been about our ..'droppings'...gt what color, shape , solubility....hahaha....very funny lar...even gt girls talk abt tat too..haha...tak segan right?

went cycling yesterday ...boy!!!! it was fun..when i cycle lar..gt 3 Malay girls keep laughing at me..really speechless liao...

so IPOH watch out for me!!!!..need to take alot STPM books back with me to KMPh...need 2 start revising jor...anyway...wish me luck for my audition 2moro for CARCOM (public speaking)...

HEY>>KMM guys...how are you guys>?> when come back>>>??? ...hows life??? f6 ppl keep undating me with stuff..u KMM guys like udang di bawah batu...haha...
btw: KKC...Adrian hope u guys get 2nd intake 4 matrix..coz KMPh..is SS...SYOK SENDIRI!!!!..haha..

ei,...dun malas BLOG ar..!!!!

Big band+ Lolipop+ LinDan

2009-05-18T16:13:00.003+07:00

hey yo!!! Blogging right from KMPH...well...read well...

My first impression on KMph is that i am gonna be lonely...i am gonna be labelled as the only Ipoh Guy...haiz...but..things turned out fine indeed!!!

Day 1
arrived at KMph is my formal wear..susahlah..wear baju berlengan panjang den need to carry this carry that luggage....susahlar....but than Thank Lord i have great roommates: Haikal, Hamidi and Hatim(the 3H i met)...haha..

as for my chinese friends..i met lots of Perak guys also..
Vincent who reminds me of a combination of loh kok wan and calvin nga(personality x 10)...
theres ah Phang(Sleeping buddha) ..the Pangkor guy who cannot swim...
theres Zhen Hong(the Prada guy who hails from Johor and likes to 'chuan' me with his LV, Baleno, Giordano, Prada)..
Jason..the KL guy who has a real athletic spirit and never been to Mid Valley)..OMG
..theirs KaiJie the Chung Ling taoist. and also
Gary the Penang lonewolf..haha..ohyar..
God (the KL guy) whos always carefull with his belanjawan.

okok...how to start..orientation week should be tough but thank lord of faci's(facilitators were leniant on us).((vincent, Abg tea, JiaJia, Joo, Andrew)..we average lar..whole week slept at 12.00+ and wake up at ard 3.50 to avoid bathroom traffic jam.

There were lots of taklimat ...boring...and HOT lar..like mad...HOT HOT HOT...stuffy...haha...me and my friends even slept at the halls..nonetherless...the experience was amazing...

Day 2
Jungle trekking day...we had this riadah like for the week and...we had JUNGLE trekking..cool right? Thats what you should ex[ect from Pahang right..the lush greenery which makes it ideal to experience life as a jungleman...haha..the experience was MORE than amazing..so fun...like SYOK HABIS HABIS...haha....

we had a mudbath(even the girls )..and there is like this stream of mud where we guys have to swim across....and if we are 'clean' lar..the faci's will like rendam us in mud..cool!!!!!! many people were like.."yerrrrrr" but to me its like a dream come true..i like kembara and stuff...not being ascout..this is my time to have a blast...i volunteerily like swam totally and rendam completely into the mud..haha..i am crazy lar..though i smell like DUNg but it was simple like SYOKKKK!!!!!

Day 3, 4
nothing much...met new friends lor..

Day 5
orientation over..free at last..no more timetable to follow..like..free betul lor..

Day 6
cleard my room den sleep.i chose not to follow my friends to Kuantan...haha

Day 7
went to church and had like a gathering. again..the guys are outnumbered. i was the only guy out if 17 girls...haiz....girl power????

Day 8
start classes today..all the lectures were slo far so good..the best so far was English where we had Miss Zabrina to be our lecturer. She is like a ball of laughter like...mad crazy..i love her...love..sayang ...love english lar

she called us to ask her a Quetion den i asked her
" whos yr fav singer"
"you guys dunno wan lar...girls will noe"
"tell me lar"
"ok alr..BIg Bang.."
"big band??? u must have like the oldies.."
"excuse me...u think iam old?? u think i am old?? u think i like the Bettles???"
"er..."
"NO!!!! Big band is like a korean band ...i like their song lolipop!"
"errr..."
"hey...Big Band..is that okay i call u that to remmeber you easily?"

thats how i got my nickname BIg Band...haiz..
...had chemistry, maths, fiziks lecture and maths tutorial...everythings fine.

btw..i am the ketua for my tutorial..haiz....OMG...

well..KMPH is like amazing..dunoo hows KMM..like..i enjoyed my life..hope they enjoy too..
for my coco, i plan to join Public speaking for CARCOM( a matrix competition amg other matrix)
and for sports..either Kayak or Kembara..or maybe squash..haha...and i wanna be a PRD(kaunseling)

anyway..something very weird happen lar..the roti canani guy at my kafetaria called me Lindan..haiz..he say i look like that China genius wor..haha..i take that as a compliment..blurr..

2009-05-09T21:42:00.002+07:00

Going to Pahang tomorrow. This is gonna be my last post until a very long time.(unless i am back). Yet thanks to LZC's reminder, i cannot blog but i can write my own diary....byes lar...miss you guys!!! ALOT!!!!!

take care!!!!

New strength

2009-05-09T03:26:00.005+07:00

May 8th:
3.00 p.m.
Everyone waiting anxiously for the JPA results(including me). It postponed to 5 pm.

5.00 p.m.
Tried to get into esila JPA but failed.

6.00 p.m.
Tried again...but still failed getting into esila JPA.

6.20p.m.
took a rest and took Waggie for a walk.

6.50 p.m.
Went to fetch Shao Kang to MP.

7.30p.m.
Digging in at MP

11.15 p.m.
Results of JPA out...everyone had butterflies in their tummies. There were 3 lucky ones.(leow, kah wai, Yik Hoe)

11.40 p.m.
I checked esila JPA.(before that Pn chaw sms-ed me, thanks)

_i did not get the scholarship_

May 9th(my sister's bday)
4.30 a.m.
I broke down suddenly during sleep. Cried . Tears just ran down my cheeks. I felt terrible, miserable.

I feel terrible now. I feel like a bundle of emotions trying to drown me down. It seems that i am no longer able to control myself. I feel like a lunatic. I feel like being beaten down. I am not strong enough. I can no longer hold the tears. I just feel weak. I don't wanna lose these all. I can't bear to miss this!!!

I feel so weak and vulnerable now. Tears are still flooding my eyes. I already feel homesick without even leaving the footsteps of my house. I will miss everything: bathing my dog, having dinner with my family, sending soup to my grandparents, calling my friends. I feel like i am about to leave my family.I miss my bed, Ipoh. I cannot believe it, this may be the very last nights that i am going to sleep in my bed in Ipoh. I suddenly feel the urge to stay. i tend to appreciate every single moment. I just could not tend to leave my family and friends as i love them and care for them so deeply that i am not capable of losing them. I cannot bear with the thoughts of leaving with my family.

This is the first time i am leaving my family for such a long period of time and without noticing it, i actually miss them more than i know. These tears keep streaming down my cheeks.

i feel weak. Am i not as strong as i thought?

Guys and gals:
Yes , JPA would give me the chance of a life time to study abroad but it seems that i have already acepted God's decision no matter whether i get to study overseas anot. I was not nervous when the results were announced. My heartbeat did not even pace up.( i have no regrets of my interview)

Maybe i did not want this as much as i seem i wanted it. Maybe i just did not really care for JPA, maybe i have prepared myself 100% that i would be heading off to Pahang, but i have to say that the thoughts of leaving Ipoh is just killing me.

There is none like my family and friends. Thank you Lord for your mighty love.
They are my tower of love, my pillar of strength, my essence of joy.

Nothing compares to the love i have for my family and friends.

It seems ironic that i would even shed a tear for something like leaving my family and friends. But it just came naturally. Never i have thought of imagining myself in this awkward position.

So...GOOD Luck to you all!!!! I will cherish the last day i am in Ipoh!!! Wait for my calls and smses!!!

visit me in Gambang!! as this is going to be a new chapter in my life!!!! i wanna invite you guys into the pages of my life. You guys are like ink in a diary: irreplaceable.

In tour: wonderland

2009-05-07T14:03:00.009+07:00

My baby flower growing beautifully..haha...

But unfortunately..some flowers wilted!!! so sad...but its beautiful.isn't it...not completely blossomed though...

i love my garden. In fact, i like gardening. I hate that people have stereotypes that Males have to be a sports fan or have to be a football fan, be an expert in engineering and maths to be considered masculine. This is nonsense and ridiculous. Every single one of us is special and different in our very own way and we deserve the right to be respected for our own interests...haha..

Gotta go 2 Pahang gelor..starting to pack today...and almost all done...haha...in total: 1 big luggage, 3 small ones. Will really miss Ipoh and i will really value these days in my hometown. Btw: When isJPA results gonna be out??????haiz...confused, speechless...

I have everything gua....bible...books..snacks....clothes...haha..rags...toothbrush..anythings to remind me?? and LZC called me in accident today!!! so great to hear from you!!! can't wait to cya 2moro.haha

Come rain, come shine!!!

2009-05-06T05:28:00.004+07:00

its 6.05 in the morning...it rained....and guess what? i intended to go to Kledang Hill with a couple of friends. Apa lar...now i can just wait for the rain to stop.

Yesterday was a total mess, now the rain. Is everything trying to pour down my spirit? Well, this just come to the fact that in really...not everything planned will go as planned.

Life is like a bed of roses.(in my mind). Roses smell amazing, look lovely..but don't forget about the thorns...they may prick you to your death. Oh well, i ca only pray and wait. laws of attraction: think positive!!!!

Come rain , come shine!

SPot and correct!!!

2009-05-04T13:43:00.005+07:00

Finally, my job as a tuition teacher has officially ended. Though i was not able to complete their exam week with them but i did alot of revision for them before i leave. Sounds dedicated right? And you know what? I am a genius in spotting questions!!!!

apparently, for the boy's making sentences segment, Alot of sentences were done before. there was 1 about the butcher, and ostrich, cheetah....and also about a cat. All these sentences i discussed before..HOORAY!!!! but leh..unfortunately..the boy made some silly mistakes..the " a" " an" "the" ..he forgot again..and lost marks unnecessarily, never mind la..he did his best and sudah banyak improved..and ohya..the boy din know wat a cheetah is!!!! OMG..lucky he guessed correctly..given a picture of a cheetah to guide him.haha..wacth more ANIMAL PLANET!

They have another exam to go this week..wish them the best of luck! Tomorrow going to wacth Wolverine: the origins!!! Great!!! i love X-men!!!! and wed going to climb hill...Fri going to farewell...sat going yumcha with old librarian gang...and this week will be a week full of simply delicious IPOH delicacy before i head off to Pahang!!

btw..reading the Devil wears Prada!!! so amazing.. haha..

A raise in Pay

2009-04-30T13:18:00.003+07:00

last night was my 2nd last day as a tuition teacher. Its been 4 long months and a tiring time. But i have to say that i'm proud and happy to be able to help the children. In 2 weeks, i taught the girl from Kata Ganda, kata hubung, kata dasar, kata majmuk, kata tunggal ....so much to teach. teaching them, i have to ride a rocket instead of a roller coaster. I have to fast forward everything and summarize it so that can fair well in their exams.

Well, this week is exam week and its a crazy week for me. I have to give them tests and make the boy make over 30 sentences to prep him for the english paper tat he wil be sitting today. I hope he fairs well and does not repeat the mistakes i taught over and over again a zillion times. I told them:" 我把人家四五年學的英文在短短四個月傳教給你們, hope u can zap sang lar."

actually as their teacher i am happy that they improved . I saw from a 0 to a 55 improvement. But i'm happy that i changed their study 'budaya'. meaning that from a chinese cartoon couch potato, i kinda forced them to switch to be an English cartoon kid. and i kinda make them watch at least an hour of Animal Planet(my friends say that i am crazy) per week..haha...+they know how to check the dictionary now! gonna miss them!

and the best thing is that their mum actually raised my pay RM 50 as they kinda appreciated what i had done to help them. The money was not the best deal, its the appreciation you earn from your hard work that really counts for me! really satisfied.....haah...all the best to Yong Zhi Fong and Yong Siew Ling. You guys better work hard and do well in your exams!

Celebrity Hunt in Penang!

2009-04-26T15:26:00.005+07:00

Just back from Penang, primarily

to help my sis pindah balik ke Ipoh for her 2 week sem break.
to prep for my KMPH life(buy clothes etc..........)
to makan-makan

In Penang, walau...makan really banyak. Believe it or not for only 1 day(Saturday) we had 6 stops at diff places for our meal. 2 stops for breakfast, 2 stops for lunch and another 2 more stops more for DINNER!!!! Feeling the sence of OMG??? duned worry, everything is in small portions...so that we can share share.haha

For breakfast, we ate Char Kuey Teow(my fav) at Sisters(along Maclister road). We arrived Penang around 8 and by the time we help my sister pindah pindah around 9 jor la...den eat my favorite...Char kuey teow. There was crab meat and it was spicy, but delicious like always. But leh..a little to oily lor..wanted to tell the auntie:"在今天的這 moderen 的 society人很注意健康的.每天說要減肥,瘦身..so oily..not good after all lar.." haha...(joking la). Later also went to ate Prawn mee and had Lo Bak. I just love the prawn type of Lo Bak...really delicious leh...but prawn mee is not for me...wan me 2 cirit birit meh!

Next stop: Queensbay Mall. There, we first went to Dragon -I( famous for the Small dragon pau).Ate 小龍包 (may favorite). While we were at Dragon-I, i found out that there was actually a charity fashion show+modelling contest contest going on later that day and in the afternoon, they were rehearsing!!!! and guess what? i saw Miss Deborah Henry(Miss M'sia 2008), Elaine Daly(former miss m'sia, tv host, tv personality) and also Henry(8tv Quickie)!!!! They were working the runway, strutting down, following their cheorography. For the first time in my life, i saw a LIVE fashion show(though rehearsel sahaja) but it was so cool.haha...

when we left Dragon-I, i saw a lot of those models walking infront of us. They were tall...but leh..they 'seemed' tall sahaja. I told my sis" Actually leh, they not very tall jek..you see their hair? All poofed up jek and they are wearing high heels mar...ceh"..haha..After shopping for my matrix stuff(i bought 2 pair of slacks, 3 ties, 3 Shirt,6 new T shirts)..we even went to Canton-I for some tea.(cantonese cuisine)

oh and by the way..when i came out from Canton-I, i was suddenlystrucked by an amazing voice. The voice seemed familiar...Misha Omar???hmm..no..and i looked to my right and for goodness sake, i saw Dina !!!(1st runner up from M'sian Idol 1)...she was fantastic! this girl has BIG pipes and her voice can blow me away just like a kite! Her performance was totally a breath of fresh air!!! Her power pack vocals and bubbly personality is such a wonderful act to behold. This powerhouse is just damn remarkable, leaving me just asking me for more!! Apparently, Dina was performing for the Anugerah Industri Muzik roadshow. Regardess of whatever , i give this girl a 9/10!!

my hp camera v. cha sahaja..but Dina was amazing!

For dinner, we went to have Oo-jien(fried oysters) and had a wonderful dinner at a seaside restaurant for some authentic Penang cuisine.

The best is left for the last..presented my Dad his B'day present(frm me and my sis) which i wrapped!..haha.wish him the best of health and also prosperity for being half a decade old!

nice kan??haha.

looks like after this day of heavy meals..in gotta burn these calories in the gym..haha

Blue Sky

2009-04-24T20:16:00.008+07:00

before reading this post, have a cup of sky juice first!

My daily routine goes like this. Every evening, i would sure take Waggie for a walk around the field and somewhere near the neighborhood. Kesian lar..always terperangkap in my house. And i have to say that this is the happiest time of the day. Not mainly because i get to stroll or spend time with Waggie . But the main reason is that i get the chance to look right up into the sky and just be marvelled by the beauty of nature.

Sometimes, its Okay to stop and lift your heads up high. Yet, when i look up high in the sky ...its not completely clear, in other words, the lovely sky is blocked by houses or by telephone wires...spoiling my view. I feel that many people today never learn when to stop . Most just bother to go ahead and climb their way to the top. Others rather cuddle and are too afraid to move forward and instead back off. Well, its okay to take a pause and just relax.

Some idle realistic guy may say:" Look at the sky see what wor...cloud and blue only mar". Well, that true! Bingo ! but looking at the endless sky seems to be like looking into a new world without boundaries, restrictions. Try it yourself. you see, people of my generation are just trapped in a world where internet and TV exist. Look right up into the crystal cerulean sky and you will feel the sparkle that i feel daily. Sometimes looking at the sky reminds me that ANYTHing is possible and all you have to do is to believe. Dreams can be powerful. Never ignore that. Its just relaxing, feeling the unlimited space, the glory of God's creation.

The world is round and thus everyone is looking at the same sky right? I guess that i am gonna leave in around 2 weeks and be away from home. I guess i won't get the chance to enjoy such a view in Pahang. Maybe i will be too tired or maybe my view will be blocked by the concrete jungle. I just hope that whenever i look up into the sky, i get the same feeling that my loved ones are under the same sky too. This might make me feel closer to them. This world is after all a small world.

At days, the sky could be this calm blue with cloud like cotton wool floating endlessly in different shapes and sizes, on other days ,the rays of light would be radiating effortlessly on the lining of clouds creating this amazing blend of colors, sparkling my light-its almost like a glimpse of heaven!(it looks like there's a silver lining in every cloud) (I am not making this up!!!!!!!! its really frickkin amazing!!!!). However on some days, the sky maybe filled with shades of grey indicating that its gonna time to sing "ELLA ELLA, Under my....ELLA".

I hope i can always be in cloud 9. I remember that in my secondary days, i studied about this Malay literature piece" Syair keindahan Alam " (something like that). And i truly understand it now. Based on only nature, you can learn the virtues of life!

Cheer up, to those who are facing difficulties. Let GO...

Avoid myself dying 9 times!

2009-04-20T11:37:00.009+07:00

A cat is said to have nine lives. Do i have 9 lives to survive the much scared F6?? i guess i am more vulnerable than invincible.

Starting to pack to Pahang jor. Need to bring a lot of clothes(formal alot lor) ...toothbursh, all those..and maybe some snacks!...what else ar? i want to bring my own pillow..haha. This is no camp, this is gonna be my home for the next year, so must bersiap sedia bagi menghadapi pelbagai situasi berlainan. i guess Matrix is the best choice for me personally. Lets say if i go f6 and die 9 times and get okay results for STPm , in the end also same destiny-balik ke local U. matrix leh...is kinda like prep-ing me for the Uni life jor..haha...

So, at KMPh need to adapt to a completely new environment. The sad thing is that, none of my friends were sent to Pahang. The great news is that i can start over all again. So new and first impression ge lo. How to intro myself ar??" Yoyoyo!!! wasup...DAWG!!!! "haha....or " A very good morning to all of my fellow new friends." haha....aiya watever lar... I am a fighter+ chameleon mar. Must adapt ge ma.

Matrix....haha...kinda excited to go. Seeing the new and cool facilities makes me like go ..WA WA WA...haha...aiya...go there need to start studying again. I guess i will be taking up FZ. haha...need to study backk MAths and Chemistry. Haiz....never mind la..another step closer to ARchitecture.

At matrix need to always formal wear leh...long sleeve..panas lar...and v. "guk" ...need to wear tie also..haiya...bussiness conference meh!..aiya...adapt, adapt.I can do it!. The food there also new culture jor. Though i may give up Chinese cuisine but i can't really take too much spices. My tummy may turn from butterflies to peanut butter lar..haiya..but i have to say the makmal komputer looks like so COOL. at least more high tech than my pc la(it won't be windows 98 hor??)

Pahang leh...if can leh i wanna go Taman Negara. nature..love nature..greens..haha...i wanna go mountain trekking those also...aiya...must have fun also mar...the quiet fun...hehe.. To my fellow friends staying in Ipoh pursuing F6 in ST...good luck! Hope you guys can enjoy your f6 life too...Bon Jour!!!!

Hey....i just found out that May 11 is the third week of May, that means by then can know JPA results jor ...dunno leh..of course i hope i get JPA lar..architecture still my first priority. In other words i feel studying Chemistry, Bio , Maths those are kinda like EXTRA for me sahaja. I hope lar..can fly away and study architecture and i am gonna design frickin AMAZING avant garde buildings!!!!

btw: I am gonna miss alot of shows lor in Matrix...American IDOL!!!! ANTM!!!!! Project Runway!!!!! desperate Housewives!!!! Ugly Betty!!!!!!!!...haiz...and the much awaited "Goong Sam Gai" where Sister Guk and Aunty Red gt act ge leh..I wanna watch the finale of AI and ANTM before i go ar!!!! haha..

Tour inside KMPh(kem matrikulasi Pahang)

2009-04-19T20:21:00.009+07:00

KMPH!!!!

KMPH at Gambang. Gambang is near Kuantan.kinda d east (near the ocean)..far from Ipoh..

welcome to my future campus(unless get JPA)haha

makmal pc..why the moniter in the desk geh??so HIGH TECH ar..

bangunan tutorial wor

this is my wash cloths place lar

makmal bahasa..pro

squash court

tennis court

this is the bangunan pentadbiran...looks like a mansion lor..i tot asrama like tat jiu shuang!

bilik tutorial.

tikus ar..hate..hate

the lab lagi new then ST ge la..haha

wad exercise lai de...???senaman pagi ar

the lecture hall so COOL!!!!! I LIKE

library

ada bas wor

this is bilik rekreasi inside asrama

Asrama leh...v. new lor (looks lar) haha...kinda new..

like a new town lor

new..buildings..

Matrix

2009-04-18T10:05:00.002+07:00

well, i got an offer by Matriculation and is accepted to Kolej Matrikulasi Pahang (KMP). Pahang wor...and i'm the only 1 among my friends. As far as i am concered, the others are sent to Malacca. well, i searced many forums and they also indicate that alot ppl get Malacca lor...

Pahang ....Taman Negara...tanjung titiwangsa....Cameron....Genting...thats what i know about Pahang...haha...so should i go to Pahang? I use to be like a big NONO to matrix but...it seems alot people like encourage me to go to matrix(more secure in local U wor). haha...actually, I'm ok with local U geh but leh going to f6 might open more doors for my further studies eg.overseas . But thinking over it, if i finish matrix, get acepted to local U then can apply scholarship to overseas ge ma. Post U also can apply scholarship geh. So..still can consider.

Furthermore f6 really creeps the hell out of me! Went to Maths tuition yestrerday at Assam House there and the teacher was as fast as a rocket. Indices sahaja...also cannot take a breath meh. I also forgot all the log things and functions. OMG..+ alot homework tim. That really scares me and maybe Matrix more suits me.

JPA leh...some people say, dapat Matrix means fail jor JPA. dunno lar..haiz...now between f6 and matrix stil 50:50. Both starts school at May 11..

The alien wannabe

2009-04-12T17:12:00.008+07:00

Stitch is the ideal alien i wanna be like..haha...hes cool..cute, adorable..and AMAZING!!!! he is highly intelligent. Who doesn't love Stitch?

Stitch along with my favorite Disney stars.

my fav 6 or 4 hand alien that zaps people!

Its cool to be like Stitch right? he may have 6 hands...but he s adorable and so cute..intelligent also!he is such a cool friend....i want to be like stitch" goofy, weirdo, cool, ". We also share a similarity" crazy, big mouth, love to talk!!!". Kinda like identical twins.! +i relate to Stitch. being that uniquely different, he is able to fit into the Disney family. I hope i do fit in also.

btw..just back from gym with Calvin. 2nd encounter jor...it was ok..alot BIG muscle(scary) uncles and i am not jealous at all. Its okay to build lean , atletic muscles...not bodybuilder type..haha and me and calvin were the only goof balls. We brought such laughter and JOY!..haha..tomorrow going with Ding ..then go yumcha + chat chat.

I WANNA be a cool ALIEN!

A cool Alien.

2009-04-12T13:37:00.007+07:00

Kinda feel strange sometimes. I feel alienated at times. I feel like a weirdo. it seems that among my peers, I am the only one that don't really like to go out to 'wek'. Is this weird for a teenager? Seeing that my friends enjoy sleepovers, hangouts, and movie times makes me feel like " why do they like those activities so much?".

Don't get me wrong. I am not a hermit crab but i prefer staying at home , enjoying doing activities that i like, playing with my dog, taking walks at the garden or field. I like going Yumcha at a nearby kopitiam, enjoying my drink , being in an atmosphere that calms me and chat non stop .Its just a laid back life i prefer rather a crazy-fun life. Its not also that i don't like outdoor activities but i prefer like walks at the park? haha..or maybe mountain climbing(mostly nature related).

I miss alot of my friends. Some are away from me , others are drifting further from my life. I do really miss the days where i get the opportunity to chat with them and just talk crazy stuff with them. Like i said: Those were the days!. It seems that i feel drained. There seems nobody for me to like go "hey....!!! or YO YO YO, wats up dude..".I really like walking to tuition. though its a long and hot journey, but i get to chat with my friend(non-stop). I don't get easily excited over things but i do always try to find out more of my friends updates. Everything seems to be drifting away, further from me.

It seems studying life is gonna start ....and all of them are seem drifting away. Why do i suddenly feel that way? Its not lonely but kinda empty? how to say....its like seeing how colorful my friends life are but my life seems dull and grey which i kinda enjoy. And this makes me think " am i that different??" Sometimes i feel being myself can get myself alienated. Well, if i am seen as an alien. i want to be a COOL alien!

like cj7 i wanna zap people..haha..

what up with me? sometimes i kinda want to take up my handphone and give them a call and go like" YO!!!!..whats up ". But....haiz...haha..sometimes either no cash or tak ada guts to do so. Am i actually shutting myself from the outside world?

Inspired and inspire

2009-04-10T13:24:00.005+07:00

I can manage to survive and i do hope i can fight till the very end. Now, it seems that my future is uncertain. Its kinda like the sky is in shades of grey and the sight of a mere glimpse of a ray of light seems blocked by the opaque clouds. My future is like holding sand using my fists. I just can't seem to grasp hold over it.

Now it seems that i have only 1 road left-form 6( a path that i had always rejected). haiz...but it just seems that i have to accept fate as it is. So, Bio stream or Fz stream. Architecture is kinda more related to FZ but i seem to have more confidence in taking up BIO. Studying in F6 means i have to face Maths and its gonna be a tough time for me. I feel that i will get tonnes of headaches. And on the top, i have to balance my studies with my co-curricular activities. Can't i just relax and catch a breath for a minute longer? but if i have to study BIO means i have to 'cut' a rat. haiz...i HATE rats.

I feel studying Biology won't break my chances of being an architect. Maybe i can be an architect inspired bt life, eg: the sperm cell, the heart, vessels, exoskeletons, hydrostatic skeleton?. and i could make a fortune because of my unique inspirations..haha. I guess i wil start taking tuition for both BIO and FZ and find which interests me more. I can't afford to take both . Not that ambitious.

i was accepted to Ktar studying architecture but i think i will pass as it seems that the course is still new there. I am just afraid that it may not be recognized. Furthermore, a friend whom i though will be with me if i study in Ktar has changed his mind. Oh well, life goes on.

Architecture: the balance of science and arts. Its so easy to say that but it seems so hard to find the right path to study. the only one word that is making my education harder than ever is -CASH. if only i had the cash.haiz...oh well, i just have to Fight for my passion.

GOD, i just want to stop studying about Maths, or anything not related. I just want to start designing buildings, making leaps and bounds in the world of architecture! i want to be inspired and inspire others! GOSH....i pray i get the JPA scholarship but i know chances are slim, so i'm not really expecting much.

After all, there's nothing wrong to dream.

A dog to remember

2009-04-09T10:42:00.004+07:00

Waggie! sounds familiar? Shes my pet dog. Well, shes a mix-breed(should be a shih tzu mixed breed) and shes my best friends. Well, recently, my dog killed a snake. Well, that snake may not be any Anaconda but she snipped it into half...so, i had to give props to my dear old Waggie! Shes around 10 years old already and i do hope she can be with me for a long time. haha...love her like mad. btw, she is a predator-she has killed countless of birds, mice, rats, frogs!

And, the sad thing is that she is getting older from day to day. It seems Waggie has lost the energy to be the crazy dog i love. Yet, she is still 3C-crazy, clever and cunning! haha..

waggie-straight after a bath

as lovely as usual

The first half

the second half

Gym encounter

2009-04-07T21:19:00.005+07:00

In this post, I am gonna talk all about my exposure at the Gym..haha..(pls keep in mind that i am always the lazy -one) haha..
Pre-gym visit:

Before going to a gym, i took Calvin and Oh yes, I drove him to do some research. Among the gyms tat i researched were Pro Muscle, Muscle warrior and also Body Work Fitness Centre. Calvin was of course crazy about leisure and chose Pro muscle because it seems that it has better facilities(the only reason he liked it is because of the LCD Tv they had). I prefered the Body Work. First, its near. Second, Cheap!. Third, near 7 11...can get 100 plus quick!..and ohya, during my visit to Muscle Warrior, i was shocked to see HUGE i say HUGE men with these BIG muscles lifting weights....really scard the hell out of me..haha..

Post gym visit:
The next day, Hooray! went to gym....excited...our instructor was an Indian. At first we cycled for 15 minutes. Canggihnya that bike, can see hor far you cycled, can read your heart beat, can also read your speed. Between me and Calvin, of course my stamina is better! i cycled 1 km more than Calvin.

Then came the weight lifting part. I am weak in this. Its so tiring! cannot stand la...we had to do 12 times for each exercise den exchange between calvin for 3 intervals(3 X 12)., That Calvin was super fast and he did not give me anytime to rest. And guess what after some time, i felt dizzy and really saw stars jor. pening. almost fainted and i rested .

For that, i kena ejek teruk,overall, I am better in stamina and sit ups(which we did later), but Calvin is better in weight lifting(Calvin is Sandking lar)! but,overall gym was kinda fun...looking forward to next 'adventure'

Peel fresh!

2009-04-07T20:58:00.005+07:00

Brand new layout, fresh feeling and hope you guys love it as much as i do..haha..i will improve on the entire layout but i just hope that this new LOOK can bring new life! i took some time editing this layout from a Dior(Christian Dior) campaign ...with the help of photoshop and some advice from shao kang! thanks!

JPA full interview

2009-04-03T16:29:00.010+07:00

JPA interview today. The interviewers consisted of two guys from JPA and some engineer. All were Malays and this is Panel 3!!! There were 7 in my group:

1. Teluk Anson guy from sam min(back from NS)
2.Indian guy from KK.
3.PGS girl wore green+yellow kebaya
4. chinese girl applying for chemical engineering
5. ME!!!! from Sam tet!
6. Blazer librarian girl
7. AMC girl with pink kebaya

. So, this is my recap:

Selamat petang.....jika tanya dalam BM , jawab dalam BM, jika dalam BI jawab dalam BI, introduce yourself:
My name is Foong you Sheng. i graduated from SMJK Sam Tet. I scored 11A's and 1B for Chinese is my SPM. I am a school debator in my f4 and f5, i represented my school for public speaking. I have a passion for art and design. I like everything that involves creativity and innovation. I chose architecture as i always had the love and passion for Art. Being a Science student, i always found it hard to find the balance between art and science and i believe Architecture is the path for me. I wilsh to study in UK as i get inspired by buildings in Europe such as the Colosseum in Rome and The Eiffel Tower in Paris. I know Malaysia has the Petronas Twin Towers but i want to build buildings that are iconic like the Birds nest in China for the recent Olympics.

Mat rempit sekarang menjadi isu. Apa pandangan semua?
(i was 3rd to answer). Bagi menyelesaikan masalah ini, kita patut lihat punca masalah ini. Saya rasa keluarga kini mengabaikan anak-anak mereka kerena bekerja. Untuk menyelesaikan masalah ini, saya rasa keluarga lah yang memainkan peranan yang penting. kaunseling juga penting. Ibu bapa tidak seharusnya mengunakan alasan sibuk dengan kerja .

after some discussion....

Jabatan kemalangan ada mengadakan kempen bagi menyedarkan remaja supaya memandu dengan cermat. Macam ada kempen yang mengenai kesan kemalangan. mcm Kepala tiada...Untuk menyedarkan Mat rempit ini, kita harus membuat kempen juga.

What do you think about education in Malaysia?
Everything has room for improvement. Even countries like UK and Aus are famous for edu but i believe that everything has room to improve. Being a Science stream student, i feel that students should be given the freedom to choose their subjects. Like, my school only allow us to take all BIo, Chemis and Fizik. If we were given the choice of subjects based on our interest , that would be better.(why the look from the panel thinks that i keluar tajuk?? OMG)

lifestyle abroad. what do you think?
here, i started to kek gei. I believe that no matter who you are, you need to adapt like a chameleon in order to succeed. Its like I'am an Asian and i can bring my Asian values and practice it in other countries.(then i gek jor....)....I am an Asian right???(OMG)

if i can choose only 1 from 7 of you all to go abroad? who should i pick?
everybody picked themself. Someone said: we have to be selfish sometimes.

i said, this is like a horse race. May the best wins.

If i offer you the scholarship on Bio tech which is different from your choice, will you accept it?
No.I belive that everyone has their own passion and interest. For me, I am passionate about architecture and i will fight till the very end for that. In life, sometimes, there are many obstacles and challenges but i have to fight through it to achieve my dream. If that does not work out, i just have to choose another path. I believe in taking risks. If i want to succeed, i need to take risks. I am a teen right? Watching shows like American Idol i learnt from the contestants that if you have a dream, you have to fight for it. these people are willing to sacrifice everything for their dream and take risks. For me, i won't accept it as its not my interest. I do not want to waste my place for something i am not interested in. I rather give it to somebody who wants it more.

Men are generally more lazy than girls!!!! Give your comments.(what???)

I disagree. My friends are like so hardworking. it actualy depends on your interest in the end but lest say i have friends who enjoy studying History and excel in that. some men are lazy but we cannot say in general that all Men are lazy.

but itu hanya sebilangan. Those who are hardworking may just be a handful.
well, it depends on their interest in the end. If one is interested in engineering, he will be hardworking as it is his passion.

Studying abroad may change your lifestyle or some may experience culture shock. What do you think?
I believe that as along as we learn from other cultures and apply it , thats great. lets say as an Asian, I can practice my Asian lifestyle abroad and for that people could respect me for staying true to my roots. Its all about learning from others and applying it back in M'sia.

Using ICT in education. Give your opinion.
I believe that ICT is great but spending to time in front of the moniter may tire your eyes. Thats why its okay to have some entertainment as we can look for knowledge for 20 minutes and maybe listen to songs or watch a video for 5 minutes. Thus, we can be rejunevated and fresh and can learn more.

what videos do you watch then?
I go to You tube and watch shows like American Idol and dramas.

Thats all. Well after the interview, we all were relieved. i thought we worked well as a team. Everyone had the chance to give their opinons. But unlike some friends of mine and my fellow group, i was seldom interupted by the panel.Is thsi a good sign? Dunno and after we came out the girls told me:" You talked alot, of course la,...debator wor...say your English not good...you spoke well.....You and the san min guy spoke so much....when you gave your intro, i forget what to say jor.....i see you also scared to give my opinion."

i though i did Ok...76 out of 100. i wish i could be slower and more steady.

39%(fingers crossed)

2009-03-31T19:05:00.003+07:00

Starting from today, the JPA interviews have begun. Since i am applying for architecture, my interview in on the 3rd of April(Friday) which is also the last day of the interviews. Alot of my friends were telling me, "you can surely go though it well, you can speak, no problem lar you". Well, my biggest worry is myself. I have to be prepared and i cannot let this golden opportunity slip through my hands. This is a chance that i must seize for a change. I am after all a fighter, right? haha

What i try to tell myself is not to lose myself in this interview process. I want to get through this interview as myself, not acting or coming of as fake. Just let me stay true to myself and i do hope that i can fair well. I really do not want to blow this or i will regret for not giving my best. Maybe some people say that with my English speaking background and my participation in debates should allow me to sail through this easily. However, nerves may get the best of me.

Just hope that i do not get a tough topic to dicuss. I hope its about reality TV or like entertainment..haha.or maybe about fashion??haha...or Pets??(silly me) Okok...just calm down. After all, according to a research done, i have 39% of chances to get it. But, lets be realistic, I am a non-bumi. Thus, I just have to fight till the very last for my passion.

okok..how to begin:" architecture is the perfect blend of both Art and Science and thus i see this as a forte, a ninche for me..haha.." WIll this work? Maybe i should shakewith the interviewers also.haha...

Lemak+Cholesterol

2009-03-28T19:05:00.018+07:00

ST team from right:(Qi Hong, Wai Hoe, Yann Fei)

I guess this is the end of debating days for me as very unfortunately, Sam Tet malay debate team lost to St Michael's team. it was ST pk SMI . I cannot say that SMI team strong but at least they were stable. Listening to their Perdana Menteri(1st speaker), me and KKC thought that Sam Tet sure win . This was because SMI was all about extravaganza and over the top. Their "hujah" or points were weak. But, the nerves really got the very best of my team.

Though I had already left ST, but my love and passion for debate is still there and I did really hope the very best for them. I know that if they were not nervous they would absoluty KILL + slaughter SMI(our points were strong + i trained them hard). When the SMI speakers where speaking, me and KKC were rolling our eyes, SHOCKED as their points were like OMG!!!! I was confident but oh well, as long as my team did their best I am proud! These guys have mad potential, they just lack exposure!..haha..oh well....there's nothing i can do!

Our tajuk perbahasan was "Kebanjiran Pendatang asing menguntungkan negara" (we were pembangkang.) You know what, i rmb the SMI PM said " hujah barisan pembangakang bagai Cholestrol dan lemak.......mengancam kesihatan wor." (they were speaking in that OVEr the top Malay slength)..and MGS lost to Anderson!!!(apa ?? everyone thought that MGS were way beyond and ahead Anderson!!!) .haiz tak apa lar..!!!! Sam tet rules!!!

Lemak and Cholesterol?OMG...

i guess i just have to hope that lady luck stands by ST Chinese Debate team as they are up against AMC tomorrow in the finals!.. .,.good luck!

火火火!!!!!!!!!!

2009-03-24T23:11:00.006+07:00

Have been coaching Sam Tet Malay debate for over a week already and believe it or not, tomorrow is their chance to shine! They are against AMC which means a 50% chance of winning. Thank God that they are not up against stronger opponents such as MGS, Convent and Anderson. That would freak them out. Coaching these guys was a roller coaster ride. Of course there were ups and downs but i believe that they can make it till the end with the right guidance.

I was thinking if only i had this guidance and coaching, i would be like so much prepared for the competition last year. Well, its ok as i had already got over it and chanelling this new found energy to these guys. I may not be as a pro as my other fellow Chinese Debate friends but i really hope what i have done for them is enough for them to sail through the next round.

btw, the topic is " Program Realiti dapat melahirkan masyarakat madani ". Well, reality shows are like my forte..haha...so i hope my plethora of information in reality TV helped them. Though i can't see them tomorrow, all the best !!!

Guys, i want to see the fire in your eyes, the fire in your heart!!! i want passion!!!!-火

To:

Yann Fei(Perdana Menteri) : Remember my training, pause, give me intonation, give me more climax.

Wai Hoe(menteri Pertama): Remember Fire!!!!火!火!! don't make me draw Fire in front of the blackboard to bring out your fire.Be confident as when you have it, you really have it!..."Lock yourself" in the pro debator room!

QI Hong(menteri Kedua): BE Slow and steady, dun be overconfident...as slow and steady wins the race

The other two simpanan: Don't be lazy!!!!!!!

Stormy weather

2009-03-19T19:55:00.003+07:00

This week is about choices, whats next, what going to be the next step? This is what my blog is about: Aviation. Its all like booking a plane ticket blindfolded , and not knowing the next destination. China? sunny Hawaii? or exotic Brazil? haha..its going to be a tough decision to mark down our choices. After all, every road, every path seems to have its pros and cons. In other words there is a silver lining in every cloud!

Former F5 or F6 students who have received their results regardless how it turns out must make their choices. This does not exclude me as i too have a Big decision to make. And for those who had their mind on what they want to pursue, in some cases, it is not " whether you like it or not" it can go this way.."whether you can afford it or not?". Some are given various choices and great choices, but are picky. They can go to be like:" I don't want that..i don't want this".For those who had made up their minds, a 'nasty friend' (crazy ideas pop up). They seem to second guess of the choices they make and this is really troubling them. On the other hand, for those who are fighting their way to achieve their dreams, obstacles and various challenges seem to bother them and hinder them. This is just like taking a flight. It all depends on the weather. There can be stormy days and there can be sunny days. It all depends on fate.

Recently, my parents told me that they have about 40-50 K for my studies and they told me that they are sure that they would not be able to take me overseas without any other financial aid. Well, guess what this does not bother me. the only thing is that after using the 40-50 K for my studies, they have none left for their health. and i was like left breathless.

Life is not a bed of roses. Sometimes, you may have to board a shaky flight. Sometimes, it maybe a good experience. It depends on fate. Pray hard as i will pray for all of my friends. Despite the story weather, there will be a bright future as the pot of gold at the rainbow's end awaits you.

Happy Bday to Jin+ Good luck to LZC as you march your way into NS!!!

友情

2009-03-15T23:07:00.006+07:00

Today while at Calvin's house and i kept pointing at Calvin's MSN messenger and asked:" who is that? who is this? no idea." and when we were having a conversation, he asked me:" Why do you have so little friends? Look at me......blah blah blah." This is a fact that i have acknowledged for quite some time. truly said compared to the baby face Calvin Nga, i seem to have less friends compared to him. I replied my friends consist of " F4, F5 and F6"(due to the fact that i am a librarian and i had quite some good friends made in the library )

I was then quite satisfied with my answer as it led to Calvin's immediate silence. Now, i would like to take it back and answer in this way:" Having only 1 true and genuine friend is way way way( multiplied a billion times) beyond+infinitive times better than having uncountable friends. Its true that you need to have lots of connections to survive in this world but to me, a true friend is what that colors my life, they are an inspiration and motivation. To me, true friends means the world to me.

lately, many incidents seem to help me open my eyes that widely ....i got to whiteness with my own bare eyes who my true friends were. At the same time the ugly side of some appeared. Competition can sometimes be harsh. yet , i am again grateful and blessed to possess all these "living treasures" ranging from gold, diamond, Sapphire to silver.

Today, i can say that i have a handful of true friends. It may just be a handful but its like a blessing to me. I never knew that how much i could be touched or overwhelmed by just something that seems so small. it can be just a word of encouragement or it can just be a short and simple comment, this is more than enough to move mountains in my world.
My definition of friends keep changing for the past years so may time mature me and make me wiser in my decisions and thoughts.

sincerity and genuine is what that makes a nobody becomes a somebody is your life
海内存知己, 天涯若比邻。 --------王勃《送杜少府之任蜀州》

真的很努力

2009-03-14T20:57:00.005+07:00

went to menjenguk old tuition teachers today. Went menjenguk Alex(my add maths teacher) and also Pn Chaw(Chinese teacher) . I found it great to see them again. Its been quite some time since i last seen them and be with them. Thus, i surely felt rather like at 'home' or in other words in my element. haha..

Alex is fine and like chat chat with tat Big guy for a while .btw..i bought Swiss rolls for the teachers!!! thank you all ar..!!....bt when i went to visit Pn Chaw..the emotions began rolling. I did not get an A for my Chinese. To be honest, i felt proud of myself..greatly satisfied as what i deeply know in my heart is to satisfied and grateful. I should not be greedy but i felt that i disappointed Pn Chaw in some way. I really worked hard for it..maybe its not enough.

i am not very interested in Chinese unlike some others but i do not like hate it. I still remember yesterday when Calvin phoned Pn Chaw to tell her that he got an A1 for Chinese...i felt the elation. haiz....when it was my turn to speak..i told her that i was satisfied...(that was what i really felt) but i kinda feel that i disappointed Pn Chaw. haiz...and when Zhi Cong told Pn Chaw :"其实友盛真的很努力......" , my feelings were mixed. I really felt a stir of emotions. i really amde an effort memorizing chinese essays and did some research, but it was not enough .it was like a raw feeling. I felt that i have let down Pn Chaw. And at the same time i really thank Lord that i have great friends such as Zhi Cong..who is always honest and stays true to me.

could i have done better?? If only i tried better maybe...haiz...I am really grateful getting B3 but knowing that i have let Pn Chaw down is the only thing that brings me down. Haiz...i hate myself for putting myself in this position! Argh..

SPM here i come!

2009-03-12T19:16:00.009+07:00

Today is the big day of my life. Its like the big reveal, the end of a long journey, its the finishing line and the results will be announced very soon. With my mum accompanying me to take my results, all i kept telling myself was to be grateful and satisfied. Well i went out about 10 after watching the finale of The Amazing Race Asia which Jo Jer and Zabrina who hails from M'sia WON!!!!...on my way, i thought of some Gospel songs to calm myself down"blessed by your name...."

i woke up rather early at around 7.30. SO, to avoid myself from thinking to much, i turned to my computer..haha.on9ing early in the morning...SO what did i do on9...blogged and then heard songs on You Tube..mostly inspirational ones like " I believe" and "Gemilang" to lift my spirits high. Well, then ah Leow and Bing Jian called me..chatted with them actually managed to calm myself down. After all, i am a chatterbox.

At the school hall, we like waited like mad for so long for our results. Anxious ...crazy ....OMG.....and it was only about 11.30 when i got my results. Well at first Mr Hee came out informing us of the very few who did so WELL in SPM that the reporters wanted to interview them. First named called.. scoring so well that he was the top in Perak this year is Ch'ng Dao Zen with 13 A1's. Then ...Calvin Nga(12 A1's) , Liew Xue Ming(12A1's)..well they really deserved it..then came the 11 A1's..kah wai..sheng fei . leow...yik hoe..yew yang...show de yang.leong chee fai....OMG..den no more.

This was the time when true madness rised to the peak. Each of the remaining few looked at each other..me at Hoe..den at zhi chong..sei gan...but the nerve freak was truly crowned to Bing Jian. OMG he har..really freaked out...so scard that he din get 11 A's ...OMG...must calm down...he really berharapan besar..and we all were like...TENangkan diri..then he even asked me for Pn Ooi(Bm teacher)'s Hp number and insisted that i lend him my phone to use...haiz..suan lar.....coz Pn Ooi's hp is 016..mine is 017 ..and that bing jian is Digi geh ..still wan to use my phone..really har...never mind lor..lend la...he so scard..hope that can tenangkan and make him feel better mar..

den talk har talk har.. quite some time passed. and to be honest, i told zhi cong...sudah lama cakap..cash banyak gone lor.....OMG..den only got to know bing jian also sama sama 11A. (10 A1 1A2)...haiz..tak apa lar..good for you..continued waiting.

After a while Mr Hee called out some names and called these people to come forward to take photo with reporter as these lucky guys got 10 A's and above. (Blah..blah..blah...blah...)after quite some time i heard my NAME..shocked..amazed..hooray..did i hear wrongly OMG lor..praise the Lord! went forward and mr hee said these names are the guys who got 11 A's.....haha..not bad lar..must have missed out chinese i guessed..nevertheless..happy and satisfied!!!! GRATEFUL!!!!...

i scored 11 A1's and 1 B3 for chinese. To me, its more than amazing jor.Its like a blessing...more than i ever expected.GRATEFUL+thankful..haha This is like a dream come true.....ENOUGH is enough..i am satisfied..haha...Mr hee asked those to take photos right? group photo ....but me and shao kang did not take and went to the canteen ..we both agreed that getting 11 A's is not a HUGE or AMAZING achievement...let the others have chance to shine..thanks ya shao kang for being with me that time..really appreciate it!

and of course some scored well and some faired alright. Some missed a few subjects and some went empty handed...well....just continue to GAMABTE ar..oh ya ..KKC got 11A's(campur A1 n A2) again, its my destiny to get B for chinese..i say its a family curse+sumpah as my sis also the same takdir..oh well,...i can live with it!

I am like crazy mad calm..can rest jor..haha....thanks for all my friends' support out there! Your prayers are answered !Mr Yip's(form teacher) retirement tomorrow..so all S1 guys must BERI MUKA!!!>.haha

The wait

2009-03-12T06:43:00.003+07:00

the wait has been almost crazy for me. i dunno why but the butterflies are keep flying in my stomach till now. To depart myself from this uneasy situation, all i had to do is watch TV and yes, i watched TV til around 2 o'clock. I also thought that by doing some sit-ups it may make me tired..so i did some ...all i wanted is to have some peace in my mind.

This, i managed to achieve until i laid onto my bed and OFF the lights went. Thoughts kept flooding into my mind. A plethora of questions kept popping out into my mind disrupting my earlier peace. And so i kept telling and pacified myself by saying" Don't be greedy."" What you get is what you are responsible of"" satisfaction!!! " I am a fighter". Well, believe it or not , i told that to myself a few times and i even looked at the mirror and told these to my reflection in the mirror.

Despite behaving bizzare, i need to realize the fact that this is a race against myself and not against others. Writing this post needs to remind me later that no matter how it turns out, fate has been decided but I MUST never give up on my dreams.

Its now roughy 2 hours before 10. In a matter of time, fate is gonna be revealed. All the best. Thats all i can say now.

I wanna be the Biggest Loser!!!

2009-03-10T19:44:00.006+07:00

watched The biggest loser today and i was like so inspired, i felt so touched watching the contestants fighting their way to have a better life, fighting for a change, fighting to be healthy. For your info, The biggest loser is a show where contestants are brought in from all over America to like join a competition in loosing weight. Yes they are overweight!!!! really BIG and they have a GReat heart+ determination. They are competing to be the Biggest Loser(weight-wise, eg:lose weight, lose inches..) and each week they go through frickin Gruelling workout routines and they have to stay to strict diets.

okok...enough of that...this episode was that the remaining 6 contestants had to compete in a challenge where they had to cycle non-stop for 4 hrs to get immunity, thus avoiding elimination!!!!!!!!! 4 hrs..?? WOW..really impressed, inspired, motivated me..

I've been on the bike before but i do it about 30 minutes each time. The longest was 1 hour....but 4 hrs??? AMAZING and remember these guys are like not the 'average' size.

so motivated, inspired by them especially Andrea(Girl you were amazing!). My conclusion" To be a fighter, think like a gladiator,empower the determination of Nicol David....and strive for VICTORY!!.

Fight till the end!!!

2009-03-09T12:24:00.005+07:00

to all SPM and STPM guys and gals:

Bro and sisters....This week(STPM out on Tues, SPM on Thurs) is gonna be blimey a roller coaster ride for us. So, we gotta stay really strong and fight till the very last end minute!!! yO!!! WE CAN MAKE IT!!!!(gotta chanel the Pets spirit!!!!!) Let us just harvest the fruits of our labour. We are gonna flourish....right??..haha...again my fingers are still crossed...hehe..

Lots of luck !!! May our guardian angel be by our side...OMG!!! Like kate always says in Jon and Kate +8....Holly Cow!!!!..haah

1st week of March 2009

2009-03-08T12:27:00.004+07:00

so, after sending my pc for upgrading i was left devastated...what to do without my PC. Well, the truth is that, i survived through it!!!! SO what did i thought of doing....well..this week was quite busy for me...accompanied my dad to KL to settle his VISA issues and went for lunch at Sungkai..watched lots of Jon and Kate +8(love Cara, Mady, Alexis, Hannah, Aeden, Leah, Collin, Joel)..and some Oprah,OIAM, the biggest Loser, the Nanny, American Idol, ANTM, 《情牽百子櫃》, 金玉满堂 !!!!! And i did some drawing.....lots to do...

Since my 爷爷 went to Hong Kong to visit his sister(another Great aunt of mine) we had to take care of my grandma...but the sad things is that my Dad and Mum fell sick on the same week which makes me the one hanging and folding all the clothes..haha..Lucky they are now as fit as a fiddle..and my sis came back after a week studying..haiz...lots of family time this week..haha

by the way...got the news that SPM results gonna be revealed on the 12th of March, thats why i made a small countdown in my blog..+this is no doubt make it or break it time..this is MAJOR!!!..haha...kinda feel the butterflies but this is life. What you see is what you get. Better try to not think so much about it...no more high hopes or false hopes for me. To keep myself occupied for the BIG day, i am teaching tution on Wed(the day before)...hope that makes me tired and worn out!!!...despite how my results turn out, i wanna go pay each tuition teacher a visit..thank them..

Ohya...last Mon celebrated Hoe's bday..Happy Bday!!!! haha...hope he enjoys his 18th bday!! Freedom!!!

these are the few days that i am gonna have some quality time with my dog Waggie and my family as i sense that after my results are revealed, a lot of preparations have to be done, and by that time, i may not have as much time to spend with them..i really love my dog as i take her as a part of my family...and i don't wanna miss a thing about her...love ya Waggie!!!

career..career...career...chatted with Samuel today and i got to know that he enrolled in One Academy 4 weeks ago. It is great that he finally enjoy himself in such a prestigious school doing Graphic Animation. Chatted a long time (1st time in a very long time) and got a lot of info about his life ....hope he enjoys what he likes!!!! ohya...drived with my Toyata(my 2 door car) and i found some difficulty in reversing..

Leow also came over at my house and chatted a lot...and i got to know some guys going off to NS soon and that also means the guys are coming back...and OMG..Megan is back in the top 12...haha...

so, is Graphic Design for me...??? Fingers still crossed...still have to wait and see how my results turn out....

Good luck for all you guys receiving their SPM and STPM results later this week!!!

Meet Anna.K.

2009-03-07T18:41:00.007+07:00

PC was sent to upgrade for almost a week and this time was perfect for me to draw! enjoy this portrait of Anna K. Did not really photo shopped it. Love Anna K. haha.. Do leave some comments...put a lot of effort...and i really missed blogging(ada hati tapi tak ada chance lar...ok??)..haha..i was actually picturing the Godess of love..hope it comes through her eyes..haha

Megan!!!!

2009-02-28T10:38:00.003+07:00

WOW...the result show of American idol was like such a shocker! My favorite girl this year Megan Cockrey was not voted into the top 12!!! How come can America let this happen?? This girl surely has massive killing potential! She has the Duffy, Adele, Amy Winehouse soul in her which is something so HOT right now! Her performance that night was not bad compared to the other contestants of Group 2. She had charm, she had personality and i see some star quality in her!

Her smile can melt everyone's hear! She may look like Kristy Lee Cook(contestant of AI 7) however, she is not that country girl, she is a SOUL girl!! really loved her. Her interpretation of Corrine Bailey Ray's "Put your records on" was refreshing, current and relatable. And the most important thing is that she has ORIGINALITY which defines her as who Megan is as a recording artiste. She definitely made the song her own putting that extra twist.

GAWD...she has tatoos on her arm but...that should never hinder her to continue to rock the Idol stage! AMerica! Vote for RAW talent!!!! Hope she gets a spot in the top 12!+ she is one of Simon's favourites!!!

Thanks Mishanova for singing Trains' "Tears of Jupiter"!!!!Love that song!

h20 no you did not!!!!

2009-02-27T11:26:00.011+07:00

okok..how to start..Well, today is my driving test!!!..Gosh hard to express how i felt. I went to Sepakat driving institute at around 7.50 and i got my number-D4 02. That was gonna be my number for today, whether its gonna be my lucky number ...i just don't know.

i was just nervous. Like a cat on hot bricks, anxious of what is gonna happen later.

Well, i though that there was nothing much for me to worry, aftell all so many people whom i know have passed before me..calvin, japheth, my sis, zhi cong+many others.....its gonna be simple woudn't it be. And + if i passed, i can drive whenever i like! Won't it be fun? i was always wishing that i could be like my sis or kok wan when i can drive whenever i like....if i wan to go yumcha..anytime...nows gonna be my golden opportunity and i sure don't want to ruin it!

while i was sitting on a bench waiting for everyting to get started, i heard the girls(they are too taking the test) talking and chatting so much..say scard this scard that. Believe it or not, hearing them gossip may be irritating for some but it seems calming for me...kind feel that I am not the only one alone! them people came filling the place and all i could just do is to wait, wait patiently foe the tiem to strike...and then, my instructor Mr Beh appeared! Clad in a dark green polo shirt he walked towards me and greeted me..i was unsure wether he was greeting me or the
others cause i am not his only student..but all that he told me was." 做好點來!!!! " (in Cantonese) Those words were calming and since i didn't fair too well in my pre test, this was my time to shine!

DING!!!!!DING!!!! Finally The JPP people arrived. In smart and neat uniforms they seem to march back into the office...the pressure in on DUDE...after listening to a brief talk...the driving began!...i was lucky to have spot Xue Ming and Ng Kah Boon at the institute..I am not ALONE...Hooray!(calvin had LZC and tham to acompany him and so do I!). Gosh i was nervous..i was the 2nd to drive..went to toilet about twice..whats up with me..i have to calm down..i need somebody to slap me on my face and make me awake(kiddin)..the GAME is finally starting.

02!!!!!!! 02!!!!!!!!!!!!! That was what i heard...thats me right???.yaya...haha...silly me..marched my way to the car that holds my destiny! baby, here i go...Off i go to the slope...and waited for the JPP guy..waited and waited..(being 2nd is mind breaking!!!! ) but i have to put it all together and bring the house DOWN..!!!

and OFFFFFFFF i go...ba ba ba ba ba ba ba...1, 2, 3...i finally gao dim the slope!!!!..next 3 point turn and parking...off i go...again..ba ba ba ba ba...and i waited at lorong 1 for further instructions given to me before i could continue...so i waited.. while i was waiting i noticed that a lot of my peers are looking at me..staring wide-eyed....at me...gosh...had to pull it off and i thought of a way of calming myself down(I'm yours-jason Mraz did the job)..

Finally it was my turn..did the 3 point turn..siap ..next was my parking..and while i was reversing..and GOSH>>OMG i sei foh...tried restarting..again sei foh.OMG sei lor..i fail jor ar...Game over ar..OMG

I thought this was the end..but they called me to finish it..so siapkan itu and went to the officer...and Praise The Lord..I passed??? wow a miracle really happened...gosh..this must be my day!!!!!!!!!!!!!! now the last part..go gai gai ....waited...haiz...so happy+nervous at the same time(really a roller coaster ride) . then my "charriot" came. Bright and shiny...this is make or break time...the officer asked me to get into the car and asked me to wait....so as i wait, i started looking for some water to quench my thirst...drank some water..and then..the office appeared..

" Mengapa kamu minum air saya??" GOD!!!!!! what did i do???????? .i imediately apologized.i mistaken is bottle of water as mine....silly me..OMG..went down to get him another bottle of water..so MALU...H20...no you didn't!!!!!..

okok..calm down and continue with my test..while i was waiting, i tried remembering the steps i had to make....okok..and DROVE..gai gai..i remembered my friends told me to not drive to slow..so kept around 40-55km/hr the whole journey..okokok...i just wished my changing gear could go more smoothly..but everything seems fine..and i saw BUFFALOS!!!!!....

End of gai gai and I passed! Thank the Lord lor..and my friends for supporting me all the way!...driving was ok but ....gotta be more calm..i can be a bundle of nerves easily...so this is the END..no more SEPAKAT..well until i get my P license ready..but..bye bye...

ROADS of Ipoh..Here i COME!!!!! I have officially departed!!!!!!!

Gotta Drive to Pass!

2009-02-26T15:28:00.004+07:00

tomorrow is going to be my driving test. Fingers crossed. Please let it run smoothly..i really don't want to be the one hu failed the test. Gosh..embarrassing lar..so what i got to do know is to calm down and stay focus.

I still can't believe that i am really gonna go for my driving test tomorrow...i can't imagine what would happen if i screw it!..haiz..make it POSITIVE..thanked my instructor Mr Beh in the end....i really hope that it would be the last time (tomorrow) i do back to my driving school(meaning i passed!!!) i really hope the parking and the slope thing+ everything goes absolutely fine!

Went to seek some advice from LZC and Calvin(thanks !!!)....after all, they went for test last week and they have been in my shoes before! Hope their advice helps me to like prepare myself. Now...i just hope to calm myself and fair well. i don't vye to become the BEST but i just wanna pass...for God's sake..i wish i can do well...

Since this week is EXAM week for the kids...i just have to picture myself as a student taking another test. Trust me, i rather take a SEJARAH paper rather than this driving test..hehe..

Anyway, today is Leow's bday! so HAPPY SWEET 18!!!!!!!!!!!!

gotta trust myself, if DUmbo can fly, i can DRIVE too!

Believe!!!!!

2009-02-20T19:31:00.003+07:00

i guess i should not have given up so easily. After all the Chinese saying goes this way " Failure is the mother of all successes!". No pain, no gain. There is no free lunch in this world. This is what i learnt from TVB dramas.

I agree. How could i let this little setback break my desire to drive. there is no point giving up that easily! Yes, i was defeated but now i have reigned. I am going to prove them all wrong! i can drive! and i can do that well too!!!! All i can do now is to believe in myself.

After all, Pets had to battle her way through one after another obstacle during her participation in One Million Star! I'm just gonna channel this spirit into me! I just have to calm myself, lose the nerves and start believing in myself!!!!!.

STAY PINK POSITIVE!!!

PISSED!!

2009-02-19T15:13:00.007+07:00

today's driving lesson went so well at first. No 'sei fohs'. Everything went well as planned for the first time! and then, it was time for my pre-test.

I dun really understand why they gave me a different car to drive. It was newer car and the engine was much stronger. It was something that i did not expect and did not know if i could control. After a few tries i kinda managed to calm down my nerves and got on track. However, things did not seem to end well when i had to park my car.

It was like i was kinda brainwashed but thanks to all the people at the driving institute including all the other instructors(about 2 of them like gave me tips and motivated me somehow...thankS!!! for now), i managed to finally do the parking right in the end. It was only after a few attempts till i managed to do that. i did not understand why...i never hit a pole ever before until today during my pre-test!!!! was it the nerves? was it the different car i was using? maybe that contributed to my downfall. Everything just didn't didn't went well as i hoped it would. Never mind, i stil managed to pass my pre-test in the end!!!(the examiner passed me in the end)

Just when i thought that everything was ok, HE appeared!!! Everyone(_and i do mean really everyone there!!!_) was there to help me except from HIM. HE did not know anything about my driving skills and there he was to FAIL me and put me on for more lessons. At that moment, i almost felt hatred was overtaking me! i could not believe it! Who was he to give me extra lessons when he did not know anything that happened while i was driving!

I was angry(first time in a very very long time...)...despised by what he HE had done to me. I felt like it was he made me a fool out of myself. i felt BETRAYED!....thinking again...why waste my energy on somebody like that...thats pointless...i just felt torn apart!...speechless.

i knew i was not like very very ready at that moment and i should not put the blame on the new car or my nerves.....maybe i just need to calm myself or take an extra lesson..but for HIM to add 3 extra lessons for me...HE HAS NO RIGHT IN THE WORLD TO DO SO! i told him berfore that if i was not confident, i would tell him personally and add extra lessons by myself and so, for HIM to do something without even consulting my opinion...it was just wicked bad!....

i still feel torn apart because everyone wanted to help me except HIM...call em childish or silly ..whatever....really tak ada eyes to lihat HIM at this moment.i feel defeated! Well, thanks to HIM because i no longer have the will to drive!

PISSED OFF!!!

DIsney!!!!

2009-02-17T11:49:00.006+07:00

Recently, a lot of childhood memories seem to flood my mind. Is this what people call by nostalgia? Recollecting the broken pieces of the past is just like recovering those memories. As i remembered when i was a young boy, Disney Channel seems to always be a priority for me....(thanks to Astro!!!)

Welcome to the magical world of Walt Disney!!!!(the place where dreams do come true)

Back then, Disney channel and Cartoon Network used to be RIVALS (they used to be chanel 18&19 on Asto but that was way back then..)..haha..and i always supported Disney!!!! Thanks to an old friend, i recently remembered the shows that used to keep me glued to my sofa. There are so many of them.....almost uncountable...and among those shows I still remember are...Gummi Bears!!..Lizzie McGuire!!!...Kim Possible!!!...Thats so Raven!!!..Hercules!!!...Aladdin!!!..The little Mermaid!!!..Lilo & Stitch!!..Art Attack!!..Gargoyles!..Madeline(the French girl)!.PB&J Otter..Proud Family..

Love those shows aired on the Disney Channel!!!! esp the theme songs...Gummi bears!! Bouncing here and there and everywhere!!! love the bears..feel like cuddling them. However, i found out that most of my friends(almost 95% of them) seem to watch different shows when they were young...they watch those Crayon Sin Chan or Ultraman and also Doraemon?..i guess everyone has their own childhood..oh well!

From the Disney boy, i went to be fans of Pokemon and X-men and also Power Rangers...haha...This is life....I just love watching cartoons!!!!..love , love, love..

i love Disney!!!! and i always wished to go to DisneyLand(the westerners call it DisneyWorld)..and i did it when i was in form 3(If not mistakan)....DIsney..endless memories..my childhood 'friend' that grew up with me...love that channel ..and i have to thank the father of all the creator..Walt Disney himself!!!...loved the movies...Little Mermaid...Finding Nemo...Chicken Little..Kung Fu Panda+++Dumbo!!!!..who doesn't like Disney? he must be crazy..out of his mind!!!! Disney..the magical world of sweet memories..

Anyone who watches Disney would always remember that before any Disney movie, theres always a part where they have Tinkerbell(the fairy) spreading pixiedust all over the Sleeping beauty castle and FIREWORKS appear!!..those were the magical days of my childhood.

However, today Hannah Montana and Jonas Brothers are taking over the silverscreen! ..yeah! and also High school musical..i love HSM, they are great..yet...i do really miss the back old Days!

Happy V day!!!!

2009-02-14T19:04:00.006+07:00

Happy V-day!!!! to those who love or wants to be loved!!!!!

Today had tuition and i was so glad!!!..you two really did not disappoint me..The boy scored 14/16(earlier he scored 3/16) for his spelling!!!!!!!!! Hooray..so happy...really makes me proud and this made me realized in the first place why i enjoyed teaching them. Well, Their exam is around the corner. I really hope that they will do well ...but lets take One step at a time...haha..still working on the boys' sentence making...

Hope you guys do well!!!...had crabs for dinner..not bad lar..this V-Day. Heard my sis went for audition today..dunno how well she faired!..

watched American Idol??? i have a couple of favorites this year. Adam Lambert (the theater guy)and Danny Gokey(the guy whose wife passed away and was good friends with jamar) are frickkin AWESOME!!!!Have you guys hear Adam sing BELIEVE by Cher??..OMG..DAWG!!!! OR Danny singing Kiss From a Rose by Seal!!!...BLIMEY!!!!! Their voices definitely are blowing me away for know. As for the girls, loved Rose Flack, too bad she got eliminated so rooting for another SOUL girl...Jesse or Megan..haha. I love SOUL music....haha..people who sing with their soul!!! That Norman(the clown guy) really kinda freaked me..haha

Also watched One in a Million. Amylea(AF3 2nd runner up) and Pija(Mentor Winner) took part !!!!! Love Amylea!!!!! And there was also a Chinese girl who was quite good(soulful)!!!!

Good Luck and Happy V-Day ar!!!!!

All in 1!

2009-02-12T15:35:00.004+07:00

Since my friend left, kinda rindu....miss the time we ejek-ejek.....juts rindu lar...semoga dia sentiasa bahagia dan gembira. This is life, thats what i realised.....hope to hear more from you SOON!!! I would definitely not forget the days you brought laughter in my life!

Life goes on..right? So went for my 2nd,3rd and 4th driving lessons. haha...for the 2nd driving lesson, it actually rained...so got to experience driving in the rain!!!..then on the 3rd lesson i finally went gai gai out in the Real roads!!! And today(4th lesson), i again got to experience driving on the real road. Well, what i can sum up is that driving needs lots of patience and also you must be extremely alert and careful at the same time!!!!....Today i kinda gave myself a target. I cannot sei foh so many times jor...so i targeted 0 times.

unfortunately...failed to do so..so changed my target..instead i targeted to sei foh 5 times(the most for today)..and i met to my expectations. Hooray!!! Great....Today was kinda a weird day as when i drove, i saw a dead dog on B route...really pity the dog. Its' carcass was left on one side of the road and for goodness sake, its skin was like in such a poor condition. (so kesian)..gosh! I really sympathise the dog......treasure life as we live only ONCE!!!...i kinda looked at it the very last time as i drived pass it.....(love you Waggie!!!!)

AND!!!!..i saw goats and cows on the way..really bizarre la....haha...by the wat did i mention today that 2 L-licenced car overtook me???...really la..i was driving at 40 km/hr..and using gear no. 4 odi and stilll they overtook me....they must have been speeding!!!..Where is there Justice!!!! How come they can speed!!!!...haiz..

Earlier smsed with Calvin and Japheth and shared with them my driving experience..haha...very funny to hear their 'encounters'!!! Good luck ar!!!..

The night before and had tuition...the girl did GREAT but the boy..haiz...the boy...gave spelling..and he got 3/16....and he told me he studied...i believed him...he told me studied by just looking through without practicing by writing down...kinda frustrated with him!!!!..Hei...!!!!!!...that was what i wanted to say....haiz...kids...please lar...listen and do properly lar..ok? Your exam coming already and yet...

jaga DIRI..

2009-02-09T12:53:00.002+07:00

To all of you leaving:

Yo!!!...Take care+Jaga diri baik-baik. Hold back your tears and cherish all the moments you spent here with your family an d friends. Be strong and strive hard to achieve the unreachable, to be the best. Always remember that everytime you feel dark in a corner or lonely when the sky gets dark, look up into the sky and look carefully at the sparkling lights dancing around the sky!!!....and you will know that every sparkle every glimmer signifies a blessing from a loved one!!!...

Never be scard to encounter new obstacles, never fear to reach out, never fret to be alone as love will bring you higher and higher.

Flourish, grow, and make us all proud!!!

Locked!!

2009-02-07T16:19:00.003+07:00

Back from tuition and saw the kids...i don't know why but i kinda feel that i was infected by the boy. He had flu+cough according to him.And throughout the lessons, he would cough and cough...and it was kinda weird that i feel my throat kinda 'locked'. It was kinda soar and it was like a padlock locking and burdening my voice. If my friends know me well, i am known to be that guy that cannot SHUT his mouth!!!..this is really a nightmare!!!..menyeksakan!!

i got to know that the boy got infected even before CNY and when i gave him the same dictation for the third time, he failed miserably!!! the sad thing is that when i asked him whether he studied..he said YES...and when i found out how poorly he did..i asked him again...he said he haven't study(giving me those sorry look in his eyes)....haiz..what should i do?...continued teaching la....and i gave quite a lot of homework to both kids....i am gonna see them tomorrow....you guys better finish your homework ar!!!! and your tasks!!!!...hope they don't dissapoint me.....

i felt kinda bad while resting in bed today....should i have gave them that much homework? One part of me tells me.." being sick is not everything, being sick does not mean that you can ignore your responsibilities!!!!!!" The other part of me tells me" He is only a child...give him a break!!!..

I really feel like on a diverge path....confused....gonna see them tomorrow again...pls dun dissapoint me!!! Still feel my throat soaring....haiz...Tonight i actually had two different group of friends asking me out ...luckilly like turned them down...better not infect those people la...!!!

(p.s Hope Perak gains STABILITY!!! May Justice prevails!!!!++ hope my driving lessons go smoothly and hope that by next week, i can get my skills tested!!!)

Erican called!!!

2009-02-05T18:41:00.011+07:00

Today was driving lesson no.2!!!! and i had a blast!!

At first when we went up the slope, i experienced some 'sei foh'. Anyway...managed to pluck enough courage and determination to overcome those nerves trying to take over me. And in the end, guess what?...SUCCESS prevails!!!! I made it! BERJAYA juga! And so, we practiced again and again....and suddenly i saw my friends popping out from no where....is aw Wai Hung and Japheth...

Well, i dunno wether seeing those friends is either a good thing or my downfall...coz whenever i see my friend must like BERTEGUR SAPA ge ma..like...'Hai!!"...and i panicked..haha.not exactly panicked but like...nervous..den started to make mistakes,...haha....a few times jor...and then he told me to wave my hands out...maybe i was not used to that..i sui again...

In the end..of course....i managed to pass with FLYING COLORS la..haha..i also learned the 3-way driving thingi and BERJAYA juga..nt bad la..so how do i describe my lesson today?爽!!!帥!!! Geng!!..got to know that Japtheth and Alan will be having their tests next week!! Good Luck !

later leh the Erican (tuition centre) phone me and asked me to attend an intervew tomorrow!!..Happy!! . But to my dismay....tomorrow...not free+ada halangan(SOBS) ..so had to postpone the interview...Hope they will call me soon

***heard that Hoe is hearing Undang today....Hope you berjaya also ar!!
***The kids i am teaching are SICK...Get well soon..see you guys on Sat ar.i will pray for you all!!

CNY cake

2009-02-03T15:52:00.003+07:00

SO how am i going to mark the end of CNY 2009?..A cake to celebrate of course!!!!!! There is even a small God of prosperity!!...cute-nya..

I wanna stand under your umbrella!!!!!!!!

2009-01-31T18:46:00.010+07:00

I guess this is the end of the rainbow. Why do i say so? The CNY days are gone and normal life is all coming back to me. My friends mostly Leow, Ding, SK...and others are heading back to NS. Really will miss them....miss their laughter..their every move....Here i wish them the very very BEst!!!!

Since CNY is ending means February is coming and that also means i can also hear the raindrops fallin!!!!....why?...coz...rain is falling and i need my Ella..ella...ella...UMBRELLA!!. For Goodness sake..RIhanna, the sexy R&B siren is coming to KL...YEPEE>..for Malaysia...Boo to me coz i won't be going. haha..Dear Rihanna..Let me stand under your umbrella!!!!! Originally planned to go with KKC to watch the much anticipated concert of the moment but.. ..MALANGnya..tak berjaya...Never mind..Rihanna..GAMBATeh ar...!!..haha

Something very funny also happened....when my friend was introducing me and my friend to her sis....she introduced like this...this is laofoong..THATS me and then she said..this is BM......BM????....BM???..apa meaning wor..i did not know that my friend kok wan had this nickname....confused...

later baru saya tahu that this mandarin name is 國文 ..meaning BahasaM'sia also...so called him BM...very funy leh..hehe...

MY friends...you guys bring laughter into my life daily ..Rihanna..i don't wanna stand under your umbrella alone..i wanna stand under your umbrella with all of my friends squeezed together like sardines...i wanna be together forever...i want none of you in the RAIN..

YOU CAN STAND UNDER MY UMBRELLA...ella..ella..e..e...

CNY BBQ

2009-01-27T12:07:00.014+07:00

YO YO YO..happy CNY hor...

This CNY was a memorable one for two reasons:

1. Nobody went to my grandma's house to visit her!!!!!(v. few angpaus).
Coz usually leh alot of relatives go to my grandma's house.
2. I went out to my friend Shao kang's house for two days in a row. 1 night for
a reunion chat(something like a pillow talk) and the other night BBQ!!!!

Okay okay...having a reunion with my friends was really fun. Well, most that were there were from 5S1 so i feel more like a fish in its bowl of H20. There was shao kang, kok wan, kuan fei, leow, kah wai, calvin , kee min and ME ME ME!! Although we were like having a bbq too bad for shao kang because he tak makan chicken wings and have to bbq hot dogs oni...Oh well he had fun..haha...AND...

i was so proud of my chicken wings(1st attempt). We had honey and butter to like give that special flavor and mine mine mine was the nicest. Looked nicest..tasted AMAZING. I know i know ...self praise is no praise but when when kah wai said his wings were so nice , Zhi Cong told him "Ceh 老馮燒的更美!!!" haha..so happy

Talking to my friends like make me realise how much they have grown and changed. Sharing their tales , their lessons learnt, their experience is like flipping through their dairies. It seems hey all have matured a lot and like met a lot of people......so good...some sell jewelery at POH KONG, Some relate their NS experience with us, some say promoter v. tiring(stand whole day and need to tolerate with customers)...some even say at NS there got people interested in them...WAH....banyak orang banyak ragam...你們真的長大了!!...
(too bad the some others could not join along..esp bing jian..i know he sure rindu those reunion days...and i know he has a lot to say!! if he is there makanan pun can finish easier!!)

so we kinda split into 2 groups where some players PS while some gambled. Well, if you know me well..wel..gambling is not my thing but PS also not very sesuai me ..but i like watched they play PS and was like super excited and noisy..haha...i was like...FIRE la..AIYO..射射射...(i was very loud)...and my friends were like " u so clever..u don't play"..haha...

thats all lor..v. fun leh..shao kang..i guess your house will be our "tapak reunion". thanks hor.
(From the left)Thats kah wai,me....in my 'infamous' T-shirt...(coz i always wear it) and Zhicong

all also curi curi ambil only..

Back to school 2009

2009-01-24T13:31:00.006+07:00

yesterday was the last day of school so me and some friends made up our minds to go visit out teachers plus treat ourselves with a CNY movie"家有喜事2009"(v.v.v.v.v.v funny)...haha...

Me, Calvin, Hoe and LZC went . Well, there were only 4 of us because we were like the 4 free ones, not working...very free...those that were lazying themselves around, my other friends either working or went to NS, so left us 4 lor. Among these 4, i was the only one from 5S1..the other 3 were from 5S2 ..hoped had someone from S1 to acompany me but..oh well..terimalah takdir

since school under renovation, teacher's room is now at the lower 6 classrooms(right beside 5S1)...OMG..at the teacher's room really met a lot of teachers...first teacher i saw was Pn Ooi and immediately we went to greet her..of course Pn Ooi remembers us and the first thing she said was"你們為是麼來wor?" aiya..come visit you all cannot meh...well, me and Calvin wanted to like chat with her but apparently she was busy chatting with Hoe(and it seems secretive..so tak mau ask so much)..suan lar..Next

If not mistaken we met Pn Tong next ..well even though she only taught me in F3 but like visit her a while lor ..den saw Pn Koogilam and like talked to her like"teacher, how are you ar? Fine?" really missed her raspy voice....She taught me Mathematics and she was really great..

next leh, i went to ask where was Pn Arasu was..before that she was like kept reminding me"hei..i want the photos...i want the photos" . Anywhere she saw me she would remind me...hei..photos ar..photos ar....and my friends would be like" you sure forget gela..." AND guess what here i am to prove them wrong..i brought the photos to Pn Arasu. Satisfied? And from Pn Arasu only i knew that Pn Daisy was about to deliver her baby...well..Grats ya..next time only visit you Pn Daisy..hope your baby is fine and healthy..haha

guess what? sitting beside Pn Arasu was Mr Tuen. Although i don't really like Chinese but must pay some respect to him ma..like...greet him lor.."段老師,新年快樂啊" and i saw Miss Poh...my chemistry teacher...haha...very happy leh..she and Pn Arasu even belanja me makan cookie leh...so good har...touched...心動..hehe

also greeted Mr Foo..but my only regret is not greeting Mr Yip and Pn Krishna...sorry oh..din't see you guys...btw...heard Mr Yip (class teacher)retiring in March so , all S1 guys...must go back ar..pay respect to him ma..

Oh Ya...how could i forget about Pn Ezan...saw her and the first reaction when she saw me was like..."why you change like that jor"..what wor..i where got change wor...i as just wearing a T-shirt..jeans...watch and a hand ornament..so simple lar..like say i am a lala like that..haha...so adorable lar...and that Mr Mong although he never teach me before he saw me and asked me "你為是麼穿上兩個鞋子在你的衣服?"...For God's sake..thats the design la.haiz...you all really think i am a lala meh..haiz

The similarity i found from all of my teachers was that they asked the same Quetion."what are you doing now?"...teaching tuition....hehe...i like v. playfully told some of the teachers"If you have any children can recommend to me ge ar.."..haha..and Pn lee(debate teacher) replied .."OK ar..teach Chinese la.."haiz....too bad..there was 1 teacher even asked me to teach in primary school tim..not bad idea...but anywhere still has vacancy?..hehe

seeing all the teachers make me really miss those old school days...5S1..love those days..btw..my NS friends are back for CNY....Great..haha...wish you guys the best oh...have a good rest..

(Have to give kudos to my friend LZC for starting his blog..Great JOB http://leongzhicong.blogspot.com/)

CNY here...

2009-01-21T15:51:00.010+07:00

Ok..Chinese New Year is like around the corner and of course there were lots of preparations. Mum was like all nagging me to paint the gate...paint the table..clean the sofa.....well 1 thing at a time ok?...Cleaned the sofa and boy...my sofa looked OK...but guess what? i used like 6 pails of water to clean all the sofas and the water was like so dirty..alamak ...Never judge a book by its cover. And , to clean the sofa , a lot of scrubbing was needed and ...hope it stays clean as long as possible.

Ok..what do you think about when you say CNY? Angpaus rite? Dad also called me to help my grandparents to prepare the Angpaus for them. You know la..old people ..so helped ...but now i realised that inserting money into those angpaus aren't that easy if the angpau packets aren't those sticker type angpaus. Wait a minute if you don't get the picture.I wil show you. It was rather time consuming. So watched show(Oprah) while doing so...

The 2 Ringgit Angpaus.l

5 ringgit angpaus

on your right is the v. ma fan angpau(need to insert like a pocket to close)
on your left the angpau is the sticker type angpau..way better

Driving lessons today..haiz

2009-01-17T12:57:00.004+07:00

today was my first driving lessons. Did not know what to expect. all my friends went through this process and guess what ? this is my time. My instructor was this Mr Beh. Apparently, my whole family(father,mother, sister) was under him. So....haiz

Ok..he first taught me how to change gears...ok...and we were like up n down and up and down..ok..again..change from gear 1 to 3...now...3 to 2....later leh he taught me about the clutch?...the brake pedal and the oil pedal(duno what it is caled)????

Those went quite smoothly..so we went driving lor...drive...drive..ok..change gear must step the clutch then adjust the gear den only step on the oil pedal.(must be gentle...haiz..) And at the same time when you step the oil pedal must not step on the clutch....should be something like that la....i did not know leh when step oil must be so gentle...i always step den got BOOM BOOM sound..haiz...ok lor

later we went gai gai..made some turns..great..mastered it then he took me to the slope. Slope i heard from my friends not that easy wor...that loh kee min duno fail jor how many times...ok..my turn...and boleh lah...i did it.

okok...den tried a few times...ok..berjaya..den leh he ar...went up the slope ..this time different jor...need to put the head out of the window and adjust till you reach the yellow line..sei yeh lar..got so many yellow line..which yellow line you are talking about, + i duno wheter its the same like the previous one..and i panicked..forgot everything and here i started to 'sei foh'....haiz

duno how ar...thats the end of my 3 hours of driving experience...sei mou..(apparently, calvin nga also experienced the same problem=same same la..lega hati)

Fridge dilemma

2009-01-13T19:36:00.007+07:00

Guess what i have been doing these days...apart from some cleaning and lazying around in the house, i cleaned my refrigerator. OK, my fridge was like giving these 'Chinese sausage' smells and i was like...yeeeee....i hate Chinese sausages so i was like....'Dad ar don't buy and keep those Chinese sausages lar'. I may not like Chinese Sausages but the smell=terrible.

SO , my fridge was actually spoilt. not cold .Tthats why have smell lar...so, sent to repair. And, the bad news is underneath my fridge...guess what...dirty, lots of dust. And whos supposed to clean it? Me. And when tyhe fridge was ready...i cleaned it too...so happy that i have a clean fridge now...

love my life now....free and easy...hehe
I guess my frige is up for display now..hehe

Before

eww...and i cleaned it

After

and its so nice..right beside my computer...

freezer..so proud

guess who the cakes is for..

Teaching

2009-01-07T21:26:00.004+07:00

just back from my first tuition class. haha...it was ok lar...kinda find it enjoying. The girl was adorable and the boy seemed rather afraid of me. Do i look scary meh? Did not know what to expect but i know now that i have to work had and they too have to do more to brush up on their language.

at first i planned to give the girl(standard 2) to name animals. There are pictures of animals and all she has to do is to name them.(etc: owl, camel, octopus). I though she should have knew these animals but guess what, she did not know the names. So had to teach slowly..later asked her "You know where a camel lives in?" she again tak tau. So i explained what a desert was and told her about Africa. Apparently, she did not know what a desert was.Haiz....explained slowly. Aren't i dedicated?..haha...later i taught her about the earth and the four directions :North, South , East ,West. i did not teach wat i initially planned but it just came spontaneously. Taught her some grammar too.

So, for the boy i have him some grammar exercise to do. He tried very hard. Unfortunately, it was wrong. I had to start from "He, She, It" have "s" . "I" "You" "We" "There" no "s"...all the basics. He is in standard 5 and he better work harder.hehe and i believe under my guidance, he shuld be doing fine. I like read with him to improve his pronunciation.

At the end of day, i reminded them to remember what i taught them as i was going to test them on Sat.....I seems so cruel but they have to put more effort.

However, teaching seems fun. Time flies. Enjoyed it....haha...So any recomendations?

Working hard.

2009-01-06T21:43:00.004+07:00

Just helped mum to hang the clothes. OMG, tomorrow is the day, the day i will start my first day at work as a teacher. There are butterflies flying in my stomach now, nervous like a cat on hot bricks. Oh god, what to do. Teaching a standard 5 boy English and a standard 2 girl Malay+English may seem as easy as ABC but....i don't really know how to start.

What did i learn when i was in their shoes? Do they still learn ABC in standard 2? or 'suku kata' like b a ba, k a ka....haha.....English,what to teach first? Maybe start with some vocabulary? Should i give them dictation ? or even make them to memorize idioms..haha...a good teacher always plans his lessons before hand. As i was like clueless of the current syllabus for standard 2 and 5, went to Popular bookshop to do some research and BOY i was shocked.

i did not remember doing essays for my UPSR. All i remembered was making sentences using some words provided. Now, they have to make sentences and write an essay. Really shocked me. Plus, they are like doing some sort of EST essay where they have to make their choice given 3 goods and their information. How am i going to teach.

i was thinking, what if they were like not listening to me? what could i possibly do to control them. i ought not to treat them so seriously but how? Still planning their lessons but seriously considering the contents of my lessons. I may even plan to give the standard 5 boy an essay to read each lesson and make him memorise some vocabulary. Searching for some of my old books but will those books be too out-dated? i guess not. Oh well.

that day my father met Alex Wong(my Additional maths teacher) and that Alex ler...very busy body geh ask my father about me. Ask this , ask that. When he know i teach tuition say ' Good, Good'..haha....at least he still remember who i am. After all, i was quite a good student. hehe. During his tuition classes i remembered being scolded by his neighbours as i was making too much noise. haha..Those were the days. Although i do not like to do Maths but i really miss his tuitions, better visit him during CNY....

wish me good luck for tomorrow. Need to practice speaking more English now or not tomorrow malu.

I am ANGRY

2009-01-04T18:37:00.004+07:00

I was happily watching the Mariah Carey 'Emancipation of Mimi' concert and i heard my sister shouting at me. Apparently, my hand phone was ringing and i left it in my bedroom. Oh well, i seldom receive phone calls or SMSs these days so i don't really keep my hand phone by my side as always.

When i answered the call, what i heard was, "I am angry." Fikiranku bergelora, jiwaku terapung-apung. What did i do to make this friend(Jin) angry with me?.....sei lor...that was what i thought....what i did....and my friend was like..."i was so angry...angry, so cari orang untuk merungut."

i was thinking what did i do wrongly this time. So, asked her "I din't say anything wrong, did't do anything wrong, why be angry with me?"

So, luckily i got to know that she was not angry with me and was angry with another person. Then why say " I am angry?" really menakutkan. I like ejek her balik "Hey, next time if you angry with another person say 'i am angry with a person' and don't be like i am angry la, makes me misunderstand that i am the cause of your wrath.haha......' ...just like that...

Haiya, speech can either break you or make you. Be careful of how you present your speech. Hehe....anyway, Astro has been amazing for this new channel 808(Fiesta) featuring concerts of amazing singers(Boyzone, MC)...really v. seronok to watch these concerts....hehe.....hope this channel can stay free forever...don't take it away from me....I beg you, keep me entertained.

p/s: Jin: Don't be angry har...just play play

starting to Work

2009-01-03T14:04:00.000+07:00

Just got news from my mother that i will start working next Thurs. So working as what? tuition teacher la..and i will be teaching English. The boy i am teaching is in his Standard 5 and the good thing is that his home from mine is just a walking distance.haha......

haiz...hope to get my driving license fast so i can cari more makan. Must speak English to this boy, sei la....always speaking rojak, now berkarat tim..need to look for those old english books to brush up first.

Will be teaching every Thurs and Sat for one and a half hours.....i am not sure of my pay..but oh well, at least tak payah begitu bosan..hehe

omg, what to wear...don't want to look to uncle..haha....aiya...working jor..feel so grown up. Now must seriously teach properly, don't want to teach that poor boy wrongly. i am responsible. Aren't i?

Ecydsis

2008-12-31T09:54:00.001+07:00

2008 has been almost like a bless to me. People say that your days in your high school life would shape you, would influence you the most. 2008 being the last year of my high school days, being the last chance that i could enjoy school life, maybe being the last time i could see most of my friends. To me, 2008 marks a year where new lessons are learnt , new relationships are bonded, new chapters being unfold. 2008 is no doubt a year to remember.

People always say 'sweet 17' and it is after experiencing it that i understood the true meaning of being 'sweet 17' . Being 17 is like biding goodbye to those days you could act like a child, its like marking the beginning of adulthood, its almost like ecydsis where you undergo a tough and complicated process and shed of your old skin, growing a new one. Its a year where you finally understood the purpose behind those farewells, the meaning of friendship, the importance of finding your truly identity. High school life or secondary life is like a strenuous process in looking for my true identity, my true colours. Blue, Purple, Black...all those shades of colours represents a different self. Being yellow, I could be that cheerful, silly, bright. Being blue, i could be cool, calm. i rather see my self as a combination of purple+orange(silly, talkative, calm, weird, MCC)

2008 has been a year where i fostered great relationships. New friendships have been formed, closer relationships are formed. From the guy sitting right beside to me, to the guy from the next class, to the girls from tuition, to the gang of librarians, to friends from Form 4, having these friends being beside me from time to time is the greatest blessing i have to say for 2008. i feel that this year is a year where i finally found the true me. I had the chance to full express myself in class, i had the time of my life. I do not know why but this year i tend not to try second guess myself and just go for it. there were chances that i felt just really being myself without like thinking "should i do this or do that?" sometimes, i find it better to just go for it. Its my last year in high school and this is my last year to fully express myself as a going-to be adult. i find myself sometimes rather childish often playing roles of 紅孩兒,吸妖道士 in class. I would be like taking my water bottle and pretend it is my "labu"( a bottle like container where during the shows, the sifu use to suck in demons) and play around in class. haha.....those were the days i had most fun in my class. During chemistry, i had the most fun with my "labu" where my friends asked me to pretend my dear teacher as a 妖精 and 收拾 her. We used to have fun, real fun that i assume many friends would not understand.

2008 could be the year of fame and glory for me, but oh well. Being overconfident is the main reason of my failure. I was chosen for Public speaking, malay debate and malay forum. Out of those 3, oh well, i din't fare to well, however it won't keep me away from achieving my dreams. These experiences could only make me stronger. That moment when i stood on stage to present my speech during Public speaking is a time i would try to forget. Its not that i was afraid but its the overconfidence and insufficient preparations that made me stiff and fail.haha...it was a great experience though. At the end i was like teased all around by my friends as i like told them that i would 'bersinar' and 發光發熱 on the stage. And for Malay debate, i never expected so much drama and 'black' politics(with KKC in your team, be prepared for tonnes of drama, haha). Before the competition, we were already broken as a team=sure lose. Being a team with kkc in the Malay forum competition was the highlight of everything. It was like, we had chemistry, it was instant fire on the stage. Not to say that i am boasting but me and kkc in Malay forum=amazing.haha...too bad our competition was rather strong and there was a misunderstanding of competition rules that at the end led us to another failure..haha

2008 is the year i was introduced to an amazing person, one that fired spark lights , one that shined , one that is truly wonderful inside and out -曾沛慈. i guess my friends would already be quite familiar with 沛慈 since i always talk about her daily and believe me, i could go on and on talking about 沛慈 without stop. Shes tall, amazing, beautiful-having all the qualities that i look for. haha...when i say Pets(沛慈) is the best , my friends would be like 'go open your Pets shop la. i see a resemblance in me and her character wise. She has this MCC quality that seems so intriguing to me like a mystical fairytale creature.

2008 also means a year where i have to make decisions that could change my life. My career, my future path means everything to me. The end of school life can mean a new path to me. What is my next BIG step? Matriculation? Form 6? College? SAMS? its like a bundle of quetion marks. Am i sure achitecture is my path? after all, architecture is a blend of science and art which i could see myself surviving in. Is it going 2 be my passion? I tend to like skecthing art pieces and friends were like, join Project Runway...being in fashion? i am sceptical about it. It's not a bed of roses. Sketching a few designs is easy but being the next Marc Jacobs, CoCo Chanel? Between photography and fashion? Photography wins hands down but is it going to be my career?No. Architecture remains my passion for now. Maybe i could draw inspiration from fashion and photography in my future architecture designs. Just, mabe.

2008 has been an interesting roller-coaster ride for me. Lots of laughter, lots of fun. Everything has to come to an end. Thinking back, school life is something i would always remember, cherrish. My life as a high school student. it seems so interesting that everything seems to pass by so fast. Life nothing more than a brief candle. Friends are leaving and entering my life at the same time. Doors are being opened and closed at the same time. Knowing that some of my friends will be pursueing their studies in no time and leaving marks another end of another chapter. Will this set us apart? Apart from that, to my friends who have been sent to National Service, i miss you guys dearly. You guys are undergoing a life-changing experience and i do hope that i could experience the same thing as well. Good luck to you all.

Ecydsis- a process of growth, change seems in parallel to what i am experiencing now. Au Revoir 2008.....

War and Beauty

2008-12-27T21:14:00.000+07:00

Through TV shows, we learn, we learn the language, we learn new words, we learn values, we learn the drive of life, we get inspired. War and Beauty is an epic drama that revolves around the struggle of power and the emperor's favor between concubines of the Qin dynasty. This drama was aired nationwide in 2004 and has received nothing more than rave reviews. Recently, this drama has reaired on TVB Xing He(Channel 314) and has brought back endless memories to me.

Featuring 4 of TVB's top actress, Sheren Tang, Charmaine Sheh, Gigi Lai and Maggie Cheong, this is no doubt considered the true drama that defined the drama of the century, inspiring others, captivating the audiences with the spectacular scenaries of the ancient Forbidden City and convincing acting. These four actress each played a different lady from completely different family backgrounds, each telling a story of her own, each having their own motives, each having both beauty and brains. Beauty can be used as both a lethal weapon to protect oneself and also as an extra asset to charm others. Using their beauty and brains, what all these four women aimed for is to climb to the top and gain the emperor's favour. Each using different tactics, including treachery and trickery to gain their aims. Betrayal, hatred, backstabbing are the most appropriated words to describe these four concubines' journey in the Forbidden City.

Everyone has a different story. Lets take Sheren Tang's portrayal of 如玥 an initially favored concubine who eventually fell out of favor with the Emperor after losing a power struggle with the Empress. Not everyone is born with a cold heart. Not everyone is cruel at first glance. In order to survive in the Forbidden City, she understood that only power could take her all the way to the top and most importantly save her life. After entering the doors of the Forbidden City at the age of 16 , she had to fight her way through different obstacles to gain the emperor's favour. After her first miscarriage(caused by the Empress), the once gentle and soft hearted girl turned into a cold and bitter lady. Using her intelligence and power, she was both demonic and threatening to other concubines. She was like this lethal beauty and she has those almost demonic stare . I have the give Sheren a thumbs up for being so convincing as this powerful figure.

Yet, this epic story is truly a touching one. Some may see it as boring compared to shows with lots of drama-Moonlight Resonance. To me, this drama is not completely all about the drama. Its about the true meaning, the message its trying to portray. Whenever these concubines plot against each other, its just so exciting and scary at the same time, keeping me thinking- can this end up to me? Is all this backstabbing really happening in the real world? The truth is, all these is truly evident in today's concrete jungle where the lust ,envy and greed prevails. I admire their strength to survive. after all, this is truly the survival of the fittest.In future, friends may betray you, use you and by that time, there is nothing much you can do. Trust, to me among friendship in any single relationship is dominant. However, i do not believe that lies and treachery can bring you any where. You may have it all-power, money. Yet, is this all worth it? i hope i do not see that in any part of my future.

And to add, the wardrobe of those concubines are exquisite i have to say. Every pattern, every single motif is like a marvel to me. Chinese culture is amazing. War and Beauty is truly a remarkable drama.haha

It is not humans who are complicated. It is humans themselves who make things complicated. Live your life the fullest as you only live once.

Skin rashes

2008-12-26T20:05:00.000+07:00

back from Penang today after celebrating Christmas there. I was watching 'the nanny' when i told my mum about the rashes on my back. My mum panicked at once.....shes always like that. Dad was like worried it was a skin infection or disease and took me to see the doctor.

it was rather worrying going to the doctor. who know what those rashes are, or what they mean. Its like...scary. What if it was skin disease or worse-skin cancer. sei lor. Skin cancer...prepared myself for the worse. haiz....is life so short? what am i going to do next. that was what that popped up in my mind along my journey to the doctor.

so had a 1 to 1 time with the doctor. The doctor checked me and guess what? Its not cancer, but its kinda like a skin disease -can be cured geh. He told me that it had been spreading behind my back and believe it or not, the doctor said it started 1 year ago. Really shocked me. One year ago? The Doctor gave me pills and some cream to apply and told me that it might take some time for the rashes to heal but it will heal. So, let it heal.

this makes me realise that when ever you feel unwell or unsure about your body, never be afraid to consult your parents or your doctor.

Health is wealth.

Embrace yourself, embrace the new you

2008-12-24T11:55:00.000+07:00

Embrace yourself, embrace the real you. A recent gathering with my school mates made me really open my eyes. The guy i used to know is no longer here in the room. The person i see today is a new person, changed exterior wise to embark a new journey.

Ending school life is like telling yourself that you are free, liberated from those school rules that inhibit you from dying your hair with rainbow colours or dressing up like a superstar. To me, ending school life does not make such a difference to me as i am rather this conservative, casual, simple guy. My style consists of just a pair of cool jeans and simple T-shirts. Thats me.

Fashion sense can be drawn from inspiration. You could look through the magazines and be like "hey, i want to look just like him". You could have a celebrity you adore and want to be a duplicate of that celebrity. To me, fashion is more of being comfortable, showing the correct image you are trying to portray without being explicit, showing your personality and feeling good of your attire. Sometimes, i truly agree that less is more as simplicity is sometimes the best medicine to a fashion disaster.

Changing your image can range from changing your hair, spectacles or even your attire. I find Asians(mostly Chinese, Japanese and Koreans) in particular are more like street fashion. its like, the way they dress, they present themselves are like more street, punk, rock. You could walk along the streets of Tokyo, Hong Kong or even Kuala Lumpur seeing teenagers with those spiky hair dyed in different shades of colours, wearing heavy accessories and trendy spectacles. Fashion is always changing. As Heidi Klum from Project Runway cleverly quotes ' in fashion, one day you are in, and the next day you are out'. Those words are true as today leather pants might be the what 'hot' but tomorrow, maybe metallic may be the new leather. Get it? That is why i prefer the more laid back type of dressing. looking simple, timeless, elegant(not in exact for me) and comfortable.

what i would like to say is that every era has its trends. Like the 60's is all about the Big hair, those polka dot skirts, those heavy and disco like accessories but you won't want to look like your era. what you would like to look like is like your age. Dressing up like your era is like looking back at the old photos and be like " Did i look like that back then?..." Its all about the timeless effect that i am trying to say. Nevertheless, dressing up is all about being yourself, thus before buying anything, think again. "Is this the image i am trying to portray? Am i going for that street fashion look?'. Fashion is after all a way of expressing yourself.

who does want to look like Prince charming or Cinderella. Yet, finding the right style for yourself is crucial. finding the right attire, the right look can make you feel from zero to hero. It can make you feel great as if you have finally broken free from your silky cocoon and break free, metamorphosing into something beautiful, gorgeous.

A friend told me that he after getting his first salary, he was going to get himself a D&G Mens' fragrance to award himself. And i was like..what?....OMG...why wear perfume when you are only 17? Its like...speechless. And for your information, D&G stuff can cost you your life.

Simplicity is beauty to me. Looking simple yet thoughtful about your attire is the hardest thing to do. My friend urged to send me for a makeover when we went for tea. Well, lets see how things go first ....

Undang test...

2008-12-23T15:55:00.000+07:00

undang(driving) test today and boy, i was a bundle of nerves ..so takut coz my other friends did like so well. DBJ ar...LKF, LZC all get 48/50. DYS n LJY get 45/50. If i fail reli like malu lor. i can only get 8 wrong to pass the test. Dilemma. what to do? i was always known as the rather MCC person . My friends tell me people see me also know i get easily tricked. haiz...and the worst thing is, i forgot what i studied jor....all the point demerit and stuff...sei lor..

went there early(ard 7.45) and luckily we got there early coz by around 8.15 the place was starting to get full. Me, Calvin and Japheth were waiting for our turn. While waiting we were like hei must tolong each other ar....colour blind ar...canot wrong ar..must help ar..saling membantu amalan mulia. the funny thing while waiting to take the test was that after our registeration, we had to take like a passport photo there. And calvin was up first. The thing was that Calvin leh he sit like sudah serong. Then leh the aunty siiting behid me keep on ejek him say his posture posture posture. So funny, and Calvin was like making those faces to us. Aiya..so funny. Later when the camera was ready to take his photo, tak berjaya. You know why? they say his specs to glaring, canot take the picture...haiz....wat camera lai de...calvin keep ejek-ejek

my turn to take the photo, lagi cham. First time, fail coz my eyes were like looking at another side. Retake lor. Then ,time for exam. We had to first complete a colour blind test and latrer start our undang test. The problem is that i forgot jor many iof the road signs.....sei..and while i was doing the test, i kicked the wire of the pc. My moniter blacked out...what lar..so malang

got some assistance and continued the test. at last waited for my results..takut fail but luckily got 45/50...ok la...although not as ood as my peers, but at least passed. That calvin and Japehth got 50/50. And that calvin keep like 'chuan' me. Sei yeh lar...

and befor we leave, we have to get back our IC's and to do that, we had to like rectify our fingerprints. We had to place our thumb on this small machine to do so. The things is that i tried about 6 times also fail. Last time also the same thing happened. Dunno la...weird....my Thumb too big isit? or i used to much strength? Don't bother

Now i can take my driving lessons. yeppee..can be closer to drive....my dream car....the two door Toyata...

The girl with the Big voice

2008-12-19T19:29:00.000+07:00

Talent shows such as American Idol and X-factor have been taking over the world, spreading fever, causing hype among teenagers and people all around the globe, setting a new mark to define what music really is. These shows have not just born talents that marvel us but it also unifies us, making us realize how wonderful life is. Oh yes, thats how we feel when we listen to a song that defines and represents us-a signature song that truly connects to our inner core, a true melody that touches even the coldest heart, a lyric that melts you instantly.

Leona Lewis, Kelly Clarkson, Carrie Underwood, Shane Ward, Jaclyn Victor have rose to become household sensations, sending sparklights whenever they sing. Its truly a sensational moment to hear them LIVE(if given the golden opportunity). It would be like a dream come true.haha....they say that when one sings with his heart, no matter what song is it, he will send goosebumps throughout your body, touching you. We are after all human beings and we have our own feelings and that is what that sets us apart from others, machines, robots.

Who knew that a single shot at a competition could become a true dream true. Today who else haven't been 'Bleeding love' or haven slept well since the "Breakaway". Its like a dream, an almost impossible feat to achieve and yes, these people with those Big voices managed to WOW us. This is their moment and today, most of them haven grown into music stars of tomorrow.

Leona, dubbed the lovechild of Mariah Carey and Whitney Houston remains one of my favourites today. Her sweet personality and pure voice charms me. She is one who i believe who sings with her heart. Discovered through talent competiton X-factor and mentored by Simon Cowell and music mogul Clive Davis, there is no doubt that this diamond in the rough is sparkling brighther than ever. She just makes us keep bleeding, keep keep bleeding love. Her recent appearance at the closing ceromany of the 2008 Beijing Olympics marks her as an international star, a singer who still has endless potential.

Another iconic singer that i must mention out must be Jaclyn Victor. i have like writen about her for so many time in my esays. Even for my SPM english essay, i wrote about her(for essay title: a person who ahve worked hard). Striving to be the best, Jaclyn has kept her standard high. Her voice tells it all. At the finale of Malaysian Idol, i still remember her amazing, breathless rendition of" Gemilang "(Glory) that sent instant goosebumps throughout the audiences of the Arena of Stars and also to the audiences sitting in front of the television. It was like the birth of a star, she was like the savior to the Malaysian music industry- our hope. Her glorious last note, that endless burst of energy that star quality makes her truly uniquly versatile. Till today, i still get the goosebumps when she sings Gemilang. Its just"Gemilang, realiti...." The lyrics...oh...makes me feel great. When i do my exams, i usually like set a song in my mind to create a mood and this is like my absolute favourite song to play in my mind.

a true song can lighthen up even during the darkest hour. A heartfelt performance could touch millions of hearts. what that makes a singer or song so original so perfect is the soul. Every song has its soul, its tale, its story. Some singers have the Big voice, some singers could reach those high notes and do those whistle registers, some have voices like acrobats that marvels us, some just have a pure voice. No matter how good technically you are vocally, if you forget or ignore about the true soul of the song , in the end people would just be like WOW for 5 minutes. After that, people would forget about it. In the mean time, a sincere intepretation of a song may not require the best voice but is more than enough to penetrate through one's soul, creating what i would call magic. That is why sometimes i favour singers who tells a story with his song rather that tell the world how good a singer he is.

recently, i was surfing through the internet and found two new talents. Alexandra Burke(winner of X-factor season 5) and Charice(a 16 year old singing sensation who hails from the Phillipines and have dueted with Celine Dion and Andrea Bocelli). Alexandra was dubbed the next Leona based on her strong vocals wheares Charice's vocals have been receiving nothing more that praise. Ti an extent, Alexandra's rendition of Hallelujah has been receiving rave reviews.These two are forces that the world has to be reckoned off. Who says that the world is only big enough for Britney Spears or Madonna? these singers ought to be watched out.

Alexandra Burke

16- year old Charice

Sing with your heart, sing with your soul. That is what that make music so universal so special. It is a tool that is capable to spread love, to spread joy, to brighten up your day. Imagine yourself in a corner of your room listening queitly to the song that tells the story of your life. that moment would be precious.

undang

2008-12-19T11:31:00.000+07:00

went to listen undang on Wed with calvin. I din't know what to expect. Is it going to be boring? You mean i can't talk for 5 hours?really OMG. Actually we previously plan to go to listen undang in a big group. Oh well, now left us two. Whats next.

so, we went to the centre and the 'lesson' started. So , apparently, there were 2 instructors. Great. First, we were given these colour blind test or practices and each of us were given different sets to do. So we started doing lor. Then, calvin leh like bisik-bisik, say he cannot differentiate wor. Din bother him. Then he asked me to like exchange papers with him. He din't want to fail the test. Still din choose to bother him. Then leh while the instructor was not noticing leh he exchanged my paper with him call me to do for him. That sei yeh la. Smile, smile , smile over there. What to do, do for him sia.Who knows he is Colour blind?

Listening undang was like so sien. Luckily, i had company. At the driving institute, we met Japheth so got lagi seorang teman to chat with. So, throughout the 5 hour long undang talk, we chat quite a while and there was nobody to scold us. haha....but we did pay attention lar...but some topics really boring ge mar....esp those car maintenance..haiz

during our break, even saw Kan Wye Yip and Xue Ming. They just came back from undang test. Then continued with the talk. Luckily leh change jor instructor. Even though he speaks a little t0o fast, at least he was loud and can keep me awake. Not bad lar...

after out talk, we had to like book when we had to take our test. Japeheth and calvin insisted to take their test on next Tuesday which i did not agree to. I wanted to take my test on Saturday.(later got to know bing jian also taking the test on Sat). Their excuse wor..scared cannot finish reading, scared fail wor..excuse....

my conclusion for that day was listening to undang was not that terrifying after all. If you have teman , at least got people to talk to. Even the instuctor say, "boleh tidur..".Ohya, just remembered that sei Calvin Nga leh in the classroom sit like almost going to fall, then the instructor like pointed out " duduk baik-baik, nanti jatuh"...he har..so malu...haha

so taking the test next Tues...waiting...

Sweet

2008-12-18T20:14:00.000+07:00

my childhood pictures i was talking about...me and my sister...haha....those days were so innocent..sweet. Looking at this pictures makes me realize how much i have changed. There is nothing to be embarrassed about, just embrace it.

Fond memories

2008-12-14T19:04:00.000+07:00

have you looked through old photos of you and asked yourself" Is that me?"...well, there is a lot of quetions that arise when you look through all those photos. You could be like "Don't want to see those photos, i want to forget about those past" or you could end up like "i look so cute...look...look...". It depends on each other after all each photo, each represents a memory, a piece of your past and a piece of puzzle that makes you you today.

Done a lot of cleaning these days and found lots of old photos of me. My parents took so many photos of me when i was a baby...those were fond memories....i was so chubby when i was in primary school(forget the past). what i really like is when i was a child like during those kindergarten years...so sweet memories.

In those pictures, my sister was also there aside me. She was so pretty. That is why i keep telling my friends my sister leh actually has that 'pretty gene'. It is just her crave for food and laziness that kinda shed her beauty. Even though she is not model material(in terms of body size), she is very beautiful geh. Back then when i look back at those old photos she was always hugging me...wah....i so bahagia ge ar..haha..

my parents wanted to take a lot of pictures for us so that we could keep these memories forever. Now, my mum is like explaning 1 picture at a time as i write this post. She keeps like...why aren't you happy of your photos?..why arent you smilling?....That is you lar...Well, sometimes you can smile in your heart. Sometimes i prefer to keep things inside me...if only there is someone i can share ..haha...lucky i have this blog.

looking back at those baby photos of mine..i always could not run away from that baby fat....haiz...i also did not know when i was a baby, i actually had this mohawk...haha..later post some of those photos lar...

All these photos make me realize how fortunate and happy i am. Its like you don't need millions of cash to keep yourself happy. Never neglect your family.haha...i will try to not 'gek' them...haha

J'dore

Vying for improvement

2008-12-12T09:42:00.000+07:00

modern art feel

its the intensity

Art

2008-12-10T20:29:00.000+07:00

Art is and always will be a part of my life. Its like i breathe, eat and sleep with art. Its all about illustration and illusion, creating this mystic feeling, capturing beauty in a single glance.

classic

Keeping this picture like a beauty shoot, something like a cosmetics campaign

tried editing using Microsoft Picture Manager to give this dark and mysterious touch

Art has been a passion for me. i was free so drew something. Its kinda frustrating ti not be able to capture the true essence,the sparkle, the true and raw beauty of Hillary Rhoda. I kinda copied this from a magazine. Need to improve.

Do comment, i hope to improve.

Lets narrow it down...

2008-12-10T15:10:00.000+07:00

There is recently a lot of concern about my future. My friends are like working, some are intending to further their studies overseas,some learning to drive, some are going for scholarship interviews. Everyone seems occupied with their own future lives. Why the rush?

Its as if we have to choose our paths now. Its like a decision we have to make and i better make the right decision. So after much consideration, i have finally narrowed it down to three careers. Lets see...

Lawyer...well i won't say i have the gift of the gap, but i can talk a lot. Frankly speaking i am known to have the 'big' mouth, so my voice is kinda like louder i guess? there are times i try to like whisper or control my voice but can't seem to work. Its like high frequency? the person i find in common having this dilemma is Calvin Nga. haiz....we can both speak like having microphones all the time. Ok..back to being a lawyer, i like thought of like being those contract type of lawyer? You know those that help to prepare contracts? It seems to be quite a lucrative business i guess?....a lawyer..not bad geh..can consider.i am sometimes very outspoken also like i have my own opinions and i would stick to them.Its like having your own stand. The bad thing is that i have to like memorize a lot of laws. Haiz....and you know when you watch those TVB series when those lawyers kind of are helping those criminals to fight justice? what if i become like one of them? next..

Architect...a job that i think is the balance between art and science. One needs to have like good imagination and determination. Well its kind of the only job that may allow me to express myself creatively at the same time professionally. Its like i can be inspired and use this inspiration in architecture. Lets say Birds Nest? Its like so such an iconic place now. Its like the building of the century. I want to be an architect like that. Like designing modern/ art/ inspiring buildings that i could be proud of. yet, being an architecture means i many need to be like under the sun all the time. Its not that i dun like the sun but i dun like to sweat when i am in like proper clothes. You know, dressing smartly the sweating???....does not make sense to me.

Business/management...watching shows like The Apprentice really like built up the interest in me . Its like kinda tough yet its kinda attracting. The like challenges and this may be the right field for me. Yet, its still hard to choose the exact field i want to be in. being in the corporate world may not be as easy as it seems. The backstabbing...the competition..the stress...can i take all this in?

Really hope to get a scholarship to help me to fulfill my dreams. i really want to make it overseas, its the experience, the different environment i am vying for. That is why sometimes i really admire those people who can study abroad. So lucky.oh well, God has a path for me and if it takes me to go through hell to get it without like bercanggah with my integrity, i will go for it. I am a fighter.

so still deciding now. Any opinions..haiz

Cleaning..

2008-12-09T13:37:00.000+07:00

Whole day packing my house. Its been two days already. Started yesterday. packed all the unwanted books, packed my bedroom, packed everywhere and it goes on....need to keep my house clean and its not easy. I have to like paksa my sister to help clean up.

"No . No . No. No going out". That was what i told her. Haiz...tired but....must go on. Bye-bye my PJ clothes, selamat tinggal Mathemathics and Chinese. Very suang when i threw away my chinese books....so happy, a sense of relief.

plan to like makeover my house. at least can be more nice and presentable lar. You know, when guest come, you won't feel embarassed....haha...or like..don't come to my house right?

anyway, phoned Erican and enquired about the French courses they offered. RM 600 for 20 hours. OMG....now have to seriously consider first. dunno how LZC's undang went today? poor guy, he had to listen alone for 5 hours.

Mengarut(part 4)

2008-12-08T18:52:00.000+07:00

last day at Penang was like...haiz...

So, to start my day, me and shao kang took a short walk around Macallister Road..jalan-jalan saja. Later leh, me , kkc and zhi cong went like sight-seeing around Little India. If not mistaken that region was recently declared as the World Heritage Site so pegi tengok-tengok lor...

Little India-wah..sure very geng. what i pictured was Beyonce-type ladies like dancing their heels off to the beat of the fresh, vibrant and hip Indian music. Trust me, i was ready to like go Bollywood. i was like sceptical at first. Little India wor..how would it be..? are all of them going to be in Sarees(traditional Indian costumes) welcoming us? Maybe they would like put a necklace of flowers around our necks...(oh no...to0 Hawaii...)

When we reached, too bad a lot of stalls not yet open. Its like 11.00 jor lor. never mind, nothing was going to stop me from having some fun, so i like .."ah...nanananana...lalala.."(to lift up the Indian spirit in us) until i was stopped by KKC.haiz..can't i just have some fun?

Talking about Little india, we were honestly a little disappointed, nothing like what i expected. The vibrant colors...nothing..oh well..i expected to be Indian-fied. i was ready to feel like..."o...your Hips don't lie...shakira. shakira"...haiz..tak ada pun...

well, the architecture surely din't disappoint. Those buildings were like a mix of what i would say olden English and contemporary asia. Its like almost a unique fuchsia, almost like ice kacang , mixed with different ingredient, colourful and at the same time tantalizing and you get this unique flavour... really inspired...haha.
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cantik old buildings

there, my friend KKC even went for fortune telling. RM 5 . It was like haiz...the lady see cards only mar...then say this say that. actually, i was interested, curious to like listen to what she said. Honestly speaking, i did not feel comfortable. There were like these idols everywhere. I actually regretted like taking that casey(kkc) there. i am christian(thought like not that devoted) i should be taking him to church, motivating him to be like believing in himself but there was i taking him and allowing him to hear this 'karut'. so sorry yer..casey(kkc the lala)

well, the highlight was at the end when we were on the way home. we took this bus and we actually like missed the stop??...then leh i kena marah...haiz..actually, i wanted to walk back but they all lor...lazy...wanted to take a cab(RM 12 ar ar kor...walking distance only mar , +zhi cong no money geh)....went to have our lunch at the famous , Sisters' Char Kuey Teow. It was like the best meal at penang for me. It smelled well and it tasted amazing. Imagine yourself , after walking like miles having a plate of hot char kuey teow...walau....sedapnya..really a must-eat..

the sad news was...we all were left no money. RM 0 . For the lunch and the taxi, we gave jor all our money. You see, i had RM 5, kkc had RM 4 left..then Zhi Cong..lets not mention the word money to him..i still remember his innocent smile. First time , no more cash in my wallet. Luckily, we walked back..

then ar...sat a bus back lor...reached Ipoh around 4. then need to rendam my beach clothes, sudah like basah+busuk.

okok...can write emo back jor..

end.me and my char kuey teow

Save your life(part 3)

2008-12-06T22:28:00.000+07:00

starting of part 3

before that i just remembered that the night before when the others were asleep, i noticed something. Well, not exactly noticed, to be precise heard or listened. What came through my ear canal was these disturbing noises-oh yar....those were snores. i realized that the guy sleeping beside me snores and the somebody on the bed opposite mine also snores. haiz...what to do..toleransi lor...and throughout the night, kuan fei kept coughing, feel so sorry for that guy like kesiannya...so i like gave his a glass of water, wish he is still ok now, forgot asking him....

the next day, we actually went up to Penang Hill. I was like informed like there was this canopy walk however a tree like feel over and now the canopy walk facility is kinda under repairment. So, what we did was took this tramps up the hill. Its actually me 2nd time taking a tramp, the first time was when i was in Hong Kong where i took a tramp up to the Peak....well, talking about the tramps there are more like the 'snails' of all transports...slow like hell....red colour de...actually was quite excited like..yepee...can go up the hill....nice nice nice..but..haiz...

after buying the tickets to board the tramp, we waited for the tramp to arrive...waited waited...den saw something red from afar coming closer and closer...excited...yes..yes ..yes...oh no...guess wat like almost 10 seconds also haven move 10 cm..(seems like)...haiz...apa lah...never mind lor..Msia still boleh right?..maybe going up the hill could be like fun?...keep myself positive..

okok...so we all(14 of us) squeezed into this tiny space and great only 14 of us. then leh, we saw people waiting outside waiting to like come into the tramp also , there were like 2 monks . At once, we sprang into action. all i heard was..."hey hey hey dun sit stand stand stand act as if our space full jor...ei laofoong dun stand so far...stand nearer , create illusion....wei wei wei..." and thank lord the tramp was occupied by only us...so went up Penang Hill.....what to do what to do up there..

welcome lor....penang Hill

The tramp-slowpoke

the view...ok lor

the ride up there leh took about 15 minutes gua....ten leh what we could only do leh was see the view of the whole of Penang wor...could see Komtar..har...like this only ar...really ar...haiz..well besides the view , we saw monkeys but the main 'attraction' was seing 2 of those 油炸鬼(ding and mok) taking photos together. aiyo, memang tak ada mata tengok. From the second reached Penang like took duno how many photos jor....haiz..tak mau cakap banyak about them coz leh, i noe my friend Hoe would like ejek tem in his blog..so save some space..haha...

down at the hill at the hill ler got a snake tamer ....gt also alot of sunglasses stalls(Gucci, D&G, Chanel, just name it and you will find it)

Next, we went to Kek Lok Xi, actually leh that time we already like separated into two groups, some took a taxi there, me and some others took a bus there. we leh took some laksa(a trip to penang without tasting laksa is a BIG no..) . According to my friend wor....say that the laksa stall we went is the best wor...phua chu kang meh best in JB and singapore..haiz....ok lar..quite nice..
well. i'm just not a laksa lover like...don't really like those mint leaves....thats me

later we climbed up kek lok si. we actually had to like climb up the long and winding stairs of Kek Lok si leading us to these magnificent temples. I'm Christian but i'm still Chinese at the same time. I just enjoy looking and admiring the handwork and intricate craftsmanship of the temples. Its like a mini China. i instantly felt the Chinese vibe running through my veins. its just so natural. i was inspired. I noticed that a lot of the ancient architecture was actually inspired
by like Chinese mythology animals-the "chi ling", the "dragon" and the "phoenix". its like a mix of ancient meets culture. its like such a wonderful feeling. The colors were like wonderful, mixing harmoniously and blended beautifully with the magnificent patterns and motifs of the temples. So Chinese. This is truly art.

i was truly inspired. the Chinese lanterns, the ceilings, the colours, the motifs, the vibe, it was like an electrifying experience. you could almost feel how the chinese onced lived their lives in ancient China back in those ancient dynasties. i do wish that if given the opportunity in future, i could like even explore the Forbidden City(inspired recently by War and Beauty reairing at TVB Xing he)

our laksa stall

Kek Lok si

inspiration

blur jor loh......

tortoise

Along the steps of Kek lok si were like stalls selling various things ranging from cheap beach clothes to Buddhist accessories. There was also a pond where there were like tortoises(reminded me of that kura-kura from Kung Fu Panda).

After Kek Lok si leh all of us were like already aching and tired jor...tired sia, kkc even said of going jungle trekking wor..wan meh...OMG...haiz...we al ar said go back YMCA only decide. Well, on the bus, we met some cute Swiss tourists with like theree boys. Those boys were adorable wearing those kopiah(calvin nga say only without feathers) wor..i believe they look more like Crocodile hunters...haha....i salute you Steve Irving. you know, the funny thing is that me and my friends actually took turns to take pictures with the boys....so funny...say cheese....and there was 1 lady on the bus very scary , when we were like going down the bus , she told the boys " You cute little cowboys..ni hao'"yer...like a witch lor her tone..死金魚婆....crazi leh.

apparently, we were all to lazy to go for jungle trekking so that evening, we took a bus to Batu Feringgi and it took almost an hour to reach there however it only cost us RM 2.00(超級值得)...at the beach leh all become crazy jor...first thing was jump in water. i was actually the first whio went inside the water. Love the sea, not afraid of getting wet, well, i can be really crazy sometimes...haha...i admit it..

we were all in out beach outfits...what to be afraid of....in the water at first all were like segan-segan, takut-takut getting wet, so slowly by slowly, we like pulled one by one into the water...haha...untill all got wet...all basah..al like wet chicken...haha...in the sea my friends complain say the water so salty so bitter...hu cal u drink wor..haiz...apparently, only me and KKC knew the Art of swimming so we swam lor....

in the water, i felt like super...its like a fish inside its territory, its like a comfortable zone where i can like be bebas, without any sekatan, without any limits....-freedom.

after having our swim, me and some friends took a 香蕉船(banana boat). well, i was in front...the others i am not that sure....i was kinda leading the boat...must be seronok...hehe..thought of who was going to drop into the water, siapa so malang leh...no matter who drop also never mind..sure seronok..( we even had life-jackets for safety)...

When the boat driver was ready, we were like wow...Bernoulli principle...we shouted.左...左...右...you all har...sei yeh....i 左右. canot differentiate ge ar.. say left right lar......left..left right..right.,....we thought he was kinda warming up at first but there was no climax....haiz..nobody fell...what lar you...waste money..tak seronok pun, what i remembered was hearing Calvin Nga screaming 救命啊..

after tat banana boat ride leh,since nobody basah we decided to like overturn the baot so that all of us can be like drop into the water so left left left and fell into the water...some of us apparently really cant swim and me and kkc had to like help them. However, we are not exactly strong swimmers like....the life jackets kinda jadi like sekatan also....never mind as long as we tried...its not easy to be a life-saver...a trick not easy to master

haiz...we played till quite late that night..after dinner went back to hotel..we walked from the bus station back..i chose to walked alone...din't want to walk to close to them ...thought of something in my mind....i wanted to walk alone....(explain further in my emo post)..haiz...you won't understand....

wanted to think to myself..wanted some peace

end.

Drama(part 2)

2008-12-05T14:37:00.000+07:00

its part 2 ...

i am not sure what time we actually reached Penang and we reached at Sungai Nibong bus station. There, we became clueless after all, our 導游(KKC) is not here. Even though i have been to Penang for so many times(countless) i really clueless where to go. So, phoned my sis who studies in USM(penang) and who oftens takes the bus. Then after receiving her 'consultation', we actually took another bus the so called(Rapid Penang) to Komtar where its like main bus stop where all the bus meets. well, we waited for actually quite a long time and this was actually the first time i am taking a bus like i mean from a bus station. waited..waited...waited....the thing i don't like about taking a bus is take i have to wait for its arrival..oh well....there were we asking bus after bus..."pakcik ada pergi ke Komtar?"...and when we found the right bus, guess what it was a disaster. not to say the bus was unclean but the problem now is that we have loads of luggage with us. Like, its like a great burden. we all cramped like sardins and i was in the middle of the bus. and the worst part is that i was just standing in front of the bus door. ...

Actually leh, i don't find sebarang prob standing by the bus door until the door finally opened....we had our luggage on the floor and it was like scattered everywhere like on our feet. and we had to only depend on the bars to hold on to. when the doors opened, it kinda tersekat because of our luggage...OMG and there were people going up and down from the bus...it was
hell....all i could do was to squeeze here and there when the doors open and guess wat calvin was standing near me. great. At 1 time, the door suddenly opened, me leh (with quick reaction) faster squeezed to 1 side and poor calvin, i accidentally stepped on his feet and left all the luggage on his feet, making him mobile. There he was, his feet was like tersekat between the doors and the bus door could not close...like Alamak....and the bus was like making all these crazy noises...so sorry har....i will never stand near the door anymore...scary lar...and like true Calvin Nga attitude he started membebel....sorry lor...dude.

the next thing about the bus was we swayed here and there, back and forth, left and right, hard to find support. after all this is all inertia. the funny thing is that on the bus, there was one lady hu like pushed ah leow or something and guessed what came ont from his mouth ??..."Pangsai"(means doing the Big business in Hokkien) and we were like oh no..penangkees speak Hokkien dude..you shouldn't...he was so afraid and that blank stare he gave us told us all....haha..funny lar

from komtar, we boarded another bus to YMCA at Macalister Road. We could only check in at 3 so after settling our luggage, we went off to lunch. Kita macam rusa masuk ke kampung, arah kita tak tertentu , yang tinggal hanyalah naluri yang membawa kita ke arah makanan....walked for quite some time....and people were like grumbling....hey should walk tat side lar...ei...walk wrong jor lor...hey this ei that..haizzz....those are my friends...byk cakap...passed by many beautiful mansions ...reli cantik geh..even SK say this is like the Tiger lane of Penang...orang kaya raya tinggal di sini.

oh ya...before i could forget while we were happily walking, suddenly a truck kinda transport passed by and all i heard was a loud crash. the kenderaan leh was too tall and the momentum was to great resulting a large impulse....destroying the telephone wires....wah..geng lor...the sound...and the driver went away...then my friends shouted RM 5o RM 50...oh yar..star offers RM 50 for like photographs showing situasi yang berbeza...took a picture..

finally reached our tempat makan. its like a mini version of a hawker center like selling 'loh mee'...mamak rice...won ton mee..haiz....i ordered 'loh mee' it should be a Hokkien dish right?...coz my friends were like debating where this dish originated 4rom. well, its like mee with this thick dark gravy, i used to often take this when i am in penang, so take peduli lar mana ia datang dari, sedap jiu ok liao.and my other friend ordered won ton mee...har???...haiz..their choice lor..

okok,climax come jor

when we were about to leave, zhi cong sudenly panicked, we could feel the suspense in the air, something was not right, what was it,,,he lost his Wallet...we trried looking everywhere, every single corner asked everyone about it..kinda feel like 法證先鋒...(Forensic heroes)...asking millions of quetions...where did you last see your wallet? tell me, are you sure?...but he was a bundle of nerves, poor zhi cong he kept telling me "you all ar always lose things during trips, i told myself leh that i would never meet such incidents"...haiz...poor guy..

the funny thing is that when kah wai gave the coffee shop aunty (waitress) his phone no. so she could contact us if they found anything and guess wat was her reply...

"i din steal...i duno...i din steal....dun give me"(speaking in that Pure M'sian rojak english)...haiz...duno want to laugh leh or mourn leh tat time..haizzz

at last we decided to like split into two groups , 1 group following zhi cong back to YMCA to check whether his wallet was left in his luggage, the other group to wait at the coffee shop. 3 of us(kah wai, me and Zhi Cong headed back to YMCA).....after a long walk...finally reached YMCA but for goodness sake, the wallet could not be found. we all reunited back to YMCA re planning what to do after this

KKC finally arrived at YMCA....and boy, if u see the way he came into the room your jaws would be kept open for 3 seconds...1,2, 3...he was coming through those doors in Gucci sunglasses as if he was a movie star, really OMG..cannot believe this moment , always knew the lala blood was running through his blood...oh well..

The other guys decided to take a rest and me and Zhi Cong well, went to the police station to lodge a police report.and haiz..that was a long and winding road. Zhi Cong..so kesian lol....two unfortunate events in 1 day...whats next?..

when we were at the police station, i like joked hey, want to take a picture?...come on lar..take la take lar....then i saw a shadow marching towards me "apa you buat di sini? ini kawasan larangan . kamu tahu saya boleh dakwa kamu? siapa yang benarkan kamu tangkap gambar di sini."

this was the third unfortunate event, me kena marah my police officers for taking a picture in front of the police station...and guess what , i managed to take 1 picture.haha...still moody..apalah kena marah by police officer wor..malu lor..den this time it was zhi cong's turn to ejek me balik...haiz....

to menyembuhkan luka saya yang mendalam, saw a pet shop and went in , saw some cute shih tzus and took a picture with it. this time, i wisely asked can i take a picture???...haha..

on the way me and zhi cong sang a few numbers like

我懷戀的懷念的是兩個pendrive...(我懷念的)
每次到了檳城不見錢包不見還有不見兩個聽見老馮在說話他說你要勇敢你要堅強(火柴天堂)
愛上一個不見錢包的人(愛上一個不回家的人)

that time he was ok jor...he started singing geh, so i followed on...haiz...we sang more than this...

that night, we went to Gurney Drive..or (wan zai gok ) if you prefer. its like near the sea and there were hawker centres for us to Ho chiak...wow..finally a chance for us to have a taste of true Penang flavour..i wanted to try everything from Char Kuey Teow to OoJien(friend oysters) to Otak-otak(its fish wrapped in banana leaves and it tastes like kampung)..haha.....enjoyed my food..but i was still not satisfied after all Penang is like a Food haven and for God's sake...is this on..come on...Give me more...haha...the kuey teow was ok(not that up to my expectations)...otak otak was fine(too full to like really enjoy it) and the Oojien was seriously not that great......hey i have a tongue of royalty..haha

During our meal leh this petite gal who claims she hails from Ipoh as well tried to like asked for donations to raise money to buy milk powder for kids....me having a heart of generosity did not hesitate to lend a helping hand, sprinkling some powder of hope and happiness to this kids...but this soon turned to a real drama..later

ok...there were like 14 of us and we had to split into 3 groups...this gals kept going from 1 table 2 another and two tables offered to donate wheres 1 table declined, so kah wai leh (the 阿大) went over the table and like did something (duno what, i was happily eating) and they donated..
for your info, each table donated RM 25(costly for a student, oh well, we are generous aren't we)..after that leh...XXX from that table came over to kah wai like saying hey, give me back my money like arguing...saying what this money ar you force me to pay, from what he said, he intended to donate i forgot how much , then kah wai took another note from his wallet and gave it to the girl...so this caused another drama...boy...we really had a drama...

this confrontation finally ended with kah wai returning money to XXX...this situasi is so hard to like even see.....haiz..wan meh, i know kah wai should not had done so to like make them donate but...in my opinion, its not about economy background or whether you can afford it anot, its about donating and then like asking back for the money?...its just charity...plus..its just not a very big amount..(ok the amount is not important) its the integrity that matters....its just my opinion...

after all this drama, we leh jiu went to Gurney Plaza to shop...i went scouting for some gifts for some friends....managed to buy something...haha

that night back at the room was kinda weird for my bed-mates(hoe, zhi cong, calvin) we all could not sleep haiz...susahnya....and we all like played around...haha...i kinda like put on my earphones like playing some music in my head like mimicking around....oy yeah,oh yeah doing those elvis moves...hey 1, 2, 3....and hoe and calvin were like gossiping leaving zhi cong there laughing at my actions..haha....we had quite some fun...

but i still could not sleep, i am rather notorious for that so instead of menganggu orang lain i tried to like fins my position, or in other words my comfy spot to like roll around..at last slept on the floor..haha....but very cold lar....went up the bed again...chilly cold...very cold.............thats all for day 1...overall its ok...lots of drama...but the real reason why i din;t like have a blast is because what that lies inside me....its me who is refraining myself...haiz...

part 2 ended...
at Sg. Nibong bus station waiting

that irresponsible driver..

eating first meal in Penang

so cute.....

The police station i kena marah

Komtar

Gurney Drive

Otal-otak...why so dark

shao kang...

poor zhi cong

the Oo-jien hawker....seems skillful but the product is ok saja

walk you home..haha