Life changes, quoted from Madonna's hit single 'Hung up' ,'time goes by..so slowly...so slowly'...distancing from Ipoh for my pre U studies opened my eyes that so much has remained, yet so many changes. So different, so vague. In this case, time and distance played a key role in these changes.

i see personalities evolving, friends feeling more comfortable under their skins, level of conversations brought to a new level, people maturing before my own eyes wheres others escaping into think air, distancing themselves from our lives, like smoke.

The portrait of our life has changed. Some used to smile so cheerfully, radiating light into our life, now yet fading into the darkness. Some remain there, playing significance.

the road not taken keeps blurring my thoughts, what if i took the other path? what if?...choices are made, paths has been taken. There is no turning back, only looking into the future could propel you forward.

i know why i was the only one chosen for this path. For God knows that i could handle it.
All i can do is to be thankful for be blessed.

Concrete jungle awaits me!

MUETS just over...and i am glad..well i have no idea how i scored but i had fun with my group..like we interacted...we helped each other..it was PURE discussion...eye contact was there...GREAT

i was candidate C and we had to discuss on how food manufacturers could increase the sales of locally food. My point was through promoting our food overseas.(via campaigns, Internet, food fair, ambassadors...)

haha..thanks 4 d wishes...thanks ZEE!!! ELIN!!!! and also Pn Norsiah, Miss Cheong for the wonderful tips...

unfortunately Candidate A kinda broke down ...she was too nervous..we all tried to help her but i hope that i wasn't misintepreted as overdominating bythe examiner..oh well...

byebye Sem 1..coz i am leaving the JUNGLE 2day!!!! heading to another jungle only that its made of concrete(KL)..haha...

Jungle meltdown

exam was officially over yesterday and since i have my speaking test on 21 Oct(7.30 am) i have to camp in the jungle(thats what Yash calls KMPh ...the jungle).

These exam period could be said as a turning point of my life-it made me stronger, tougher, more mature. Its very well said that it takes a total emotional breakdown to see the beauty in someone and i totally experienced it. Breaking down was something i never thought i could ever experience in a Giga-zillion years...but...who knew that a few sums could lead to a basket full of 'won tons'. I felt vulnerable, open to attack, i felt i had nobody i could trust , i wanted to talk to sumbody. It was 3 am in the morning-but i had my family standing by me.

Now, i feel great, its like a baggage, a burden, an evil spell being cast out off me. Believing in yourself makes you strong, knowing others believe in you makes you feel secure, beautiful, safe. Now, i take life as a journey that i can learn and enjoy at the same time-enriching myself.

My personal message to Maths & Chem & Physics:

I may not personally like the 3 of you but YO!!!! i am stronger and i can overcome you guys...so bring it on...coz i m gonna fight back in full throttle. Chem, i am gonna be like a buffer solution, add strong acid, add super strong base, I am gona remain the same! Maths, you can differentiate or intergrate as much as possible but yo....i'm gonna persevere as you cant change my perseverance. Yo Physics,..i love you ...so let it be conservation of angular momentum or isothermal, i am gonna overcome it all...as i have to believe..haha..

yo,,4 PSPM, i did my all..like i gave all i could and no matter what the end point(point where indicator changes color) its OK...haha...Nasib le!!!

gonna go to Kl on the 21st and reunite with my parents...
anyway, Happy Birthday to the empress!!! (Yen nee) and thanks Fan and Young for yesterday.

Ohya!!!!!! b4 signing off..Speaking test tomorrow...calm down,, speak slowly, intelligently, wisely and confidently and speak with your eyes !!!! haha....

Don't complain...itu NASIB!!!

its been a very long time like ages since i last blogged. Part of the reason is that i was like as busy as hell and partially because of the sloth inside me kinda took over. Well, all i must say is that life at KMPh was super-hell crazy. Like what i told Young, i have to find equilibrium-hectic studies+ crazy timetable, PRD responsibilities, Biro Pameran for CNY thingy, and my entertainment.

Lets talk about studies, imagine yourself attending classes daily from 8-around 5...and thats not all, you have to attend extra lectures daily that starts from 9.30-11.00. Don't forget the fact that you are living in a hostel, thus your laundry has to become a daily priority. Thats basically my daily life for about 2 weeks. Well, all i can say that for the past 2 weeks at Kmph i has been like hell busy

PSPM(final exam for this sem) is coming like really soon and i have to like study real hard for it..its like a MUST score exam. People there just expect "us" to excel. Sometimes can't we just be viewed at the same level? its like not every Chinese is amazing in Maths...come on...i still remember Pn Shariza(maths tutorial) once said " This is the first time a Chinese ask me this type of quetion"...i was like..ok...just for your information, i don't really like Maths and ...i don't usually score for Maths...so..take notice, ok??

nevertherless, Pn Shariza taught me alot about life. Well, she has these 'golden phrases' which are kinda amusing and true at the same time:

1. To do Maths, you have to hav 3 criteria. no.1, you need to have a brain. 'you have brains right?" no.2 , you need to have the knowledge, the skill. no.3, you need to have the speed, " To gain the speed, you need alot of practice."

2. If you don't study now i can assure you that you are gonna MAMPUS (suffer)!!MAMPUS!!(she says this in a scary tone)

3. I tell you, if you can't even do this, you tak layak masuk U!!!! Kamu tak LAYAK!!!!!(huh...???)

4. I never trust counsellors!!!! NEVER!!!! if you want counselling , ask it from your parents!!! NEVER trust those counsellors!!!!

5. Bukan saya tak mau ajar kamu, but if i teach you everything and show you all the steps, you are not thinking!!!! SAYA YANG jadi PANDAI, bukan kamu...saya yang kekal pandai..kamu kekal tak sama...use your brain and think , try solving it..!!!!

6. YOU are not thinking!!!! you cannot depend on me!!! saya tak mau pelajar macam itu.!!!! think!!!!

7. Don't keep complaining!! do something about it!!! kalau kata lecturer tak baik, itu NASIB lar,, NASIB...

Thats typical Pn Shariza whom i deeply respect. She may be harsh but what she says its like super true. Despite my dislike for Maths, i will have to prove her wrong....NO pain, no gain, i can no longer wish for my fairy god mother to sprinkle magic dust on me nor i can no longer ask for my Genie in the bottle to grant every wish....i gotta work hard!!!! for maths..hehe

During this brief and short holidays, i have to work very hard on my studies, its my only option to score 4 flat. Its everything for me. Despite all the stress and fuly-pack timetable, Thank the Lord that i have Gossip Girls to accompany my hollidays...haha


GOSSIP GIRLS IS AMAZING!!!! love it SUPER..haha...BLAir...serena..chuck..nate,...dan..small J..haha...

XOXO i know you love me

i thank those who were there for me. May those cloudy days pass by as a new day approaches. May i find that happiness and joy that once filled my soul. I have to persevere, thats what i can do. Things do happen for a reason as for that, i will stay strong as this is a world of the survival of teh fittest.

h1n1 strikes!

KMPh quarantined for 1 week!!!!..before this i thought i wanted a longer holiday, well it seems that tinkerbell must had sprinkled some pixie dust or maybe i made my wish as a meteor rain passed by...my prayers were answered somehow-an extra week of holidays.yo!!! Som, what how did i spend these holidays??

hmmm...really did nothing much aside from slacking and slothing around.studied a little...and a movie every day, so far, i have re-watched 3 Harry Potter movies and completed one of the X-men trilogy. Watched alot of TV also..somehow, i know that not before long, i have to click myself into study mode again and i bet my timetable will be flooded!well...enjoy life first lar..

i still rember last Sat at around 12.00 while i was watching One Million Star and i received a call from Young about KMPh being quarantined. Did not believe it at first . Suddenly, my phone was flooded with messages like"Kmph quarantined , kena H1N1, balik pada 9-Ogos"...wow...and i kept ringing my fellow college mates...kept receiving SMS...really kinda crazy la..

"Pn Sharaizah, KMPh kena quarantined 1 minggu kah?? H1n1??"
"ya, kah? cikgu tak tau ar."
"yalar..menakutkan lar...ada banyak kawan call lar..cikgu tak tau kah?"
"cikgu call office lar..nanti beritahu Foong.."


later..


"Cikgu, benarlah..sidah disahkan memang quarantined la!!!!"
"yalar...saya pun baru tahu..haha"
"cikgu kesian lar..1 minggu lar..macam itu,,saya dah sedia banyak maths nak tanya cikgu lar..sudah bersiap sedia ...after they cut our holidays or give extra class..kesian la.."
"kesian..hahaha...tak apa lar..hahaha...(she kept lauging)"

oh well...i guess i'm going back the next SUnday instead. Well, btw, this is my beauty maths project..thanks to May, i kinda got the idea of stealing ideas from Monopoly and convert it into a maths board game! well i may not be creative..but this is call innovative right?

this game is kinda not that complicated..kinda like if you landed on the yellow, pink and red papers, u have to answer simple maths quetions..(wanna play??)


i also got news that my art piece i sent to CHina for a competition has won a prize..(thats inner news)..haha...dunno la..fingers crossed.

ps: Jin: u har...bahagia jor pun tak tau kongsikan..syabas
KMM: Good luck oh!!! add oil
fellow KMPhians-gonna see you guys soon...
Sk&BJ: Happy belated bday !!!yo!!!

Ipoh-my home

its gonna be the end of my 2 weeks sem break at ipoh. Sadly, i have to pack my bags and head to Pahang on Sunday....2 weeks is just not enough..

Kmph..haiz..i gotta go back and eat 'nasi goreng belacan...nasi goreng cina...curry..curry again.."..i gotta do my own laundry again...need to wake up early again..need to do assignments again..need to go back to my room again...haiz...picturing myself walking past the corridor of my hostel..haiz..the smell...the bathroom...will never be the same ...Ipoh...is the true place i can call home.

well, the bright side is that i can meet with my friends again. It's been a long time that i haven't heard and seen Ravi, Zhen Hong, Shoba...and many others.. I can picture my tutor assignments pilling up...OMG...its well quoted that 'Homework leh..can never finish geh"

Going back...Malam Dinamika is coming soon..kinda excited about my tea giving ceremony..haha..and ohya! haven't even completed my maths tutorial..all the Matrix: Cramers Rule ..ERO...driving me crazy..and Beauty Maths...OMG...

Ipoh..the place i call home...i will really cherish the time i am here..Ipoh food memang best!..gonna cherish the time i spend with my family members..

gonna go yumcha with May, Ruo Chien and others at Foh San tomorrow, +sis is coming back tomorrow..kinda looking forward to that.

Why must SEM break be so short..