the last chapter

its been a long time and it seems its gonna be the end of the road. Somehow, i feel relieved that its all gonna come to an end. This odyssey as i call it has broken and mended me at the same time, moulding me into a person i vision myself of.

Things have been different-the way i act, they way i speak to others, my perception to others. Somehow, i still feel the naive child in me has not left but has only been exposed more to the outside world. There are many times that i felt like giving up, breaking down, letting destiny go by its way, but somehow, i mustered enough courage to go through it all. Bonds have been made, some strengthened, some lost its sparkle. Yet, i feel so grateful for all that God has made me go through.

i wonder what would happen if the circle of exotic of friends remained the same as i could clearly remember. Things may have gone to a different direction as i wished it would, but i still cherish the moments i went through with you all.

to a friend of mine:
There is something i wanted to tell you all along but i just don't know how to open up to you. I just wished that you were the down to earth friend whom i knew. i really wished so.

yet, there has been light and rejoice as my friendship with others blossomed. they have been a breath of fresh air for me, and i thank them very much for all the joy they brought to my life.

Who knew an exhibition could somehow relight the fire inside me to express myself creativity. creatively. It was my fuel that kept me inspired and gave me a vision. Viewing those photo albums, gave me some sort of accomplishment that we together had managed to go through all obstacles and visualized our dream. It was a success i do agree-something that is hard to hear from my mouth.

now its the final struggle , all i have to do is to have more faith and i will be able to make it through. I have to convince myself to believe in myself. i have to. will succeed. i know i will. What lies ahead my future is still an unknown . yet, i have to renew my doubt with hope and faith. I can ...

thanks Pn Shariza for giving me a word of encouragement the other day, what you said, really meant mountains to me, and for those who broke me down unintentionally, its alright, you won;t be able to knock me down.