Tuesday, March 31, 2009

39%(fingers crossed)

Starting from today, the JPA interviews have begun. Since i am applying for architecture, my interview in on the 3rd of April(Friday) which is also the last day of the interviews. Alot of my friends were telling me, "you can surely go though it well, you can speak, no problem lar you". Well, my biggest worry is myself. I have to be prepared and i cannot let this golden opportunity slip through my hands. This is a chance that i must seize for a change. I am after all a fighter, right? haha

What i try to tell myself is not to lose myself in this interview process. I want to get through this interview as myself, not acting or coming of as fake. Just let me stay true to myself and i do hope that i can fair well. I really do not want to blow this or i will regret for not giving my best. Maybe some people say that with my English speaking background and my participation in debates should allow me to sail through this easily. However, nerves may get the best of me.

Just hope that i do not get a tough topic to dicuss. I hope its about reality TV or like entertainment..haha.or maybe about fashion??haha...or Pets??(silly me) Okok...just calm down. After all, according to a research done, i have 39% of chances to get it. But, lets be realistic, I am a non-bumi. Thus, I just have to fight till the very last for my passion.

okok..how to begin:" architecture is the perfect blend of both Art and Science and thus i see this as a forte, a ninche for me..haha.." WIll this work? Maybe i should shakewith the interviewers also.haha...

Saturday, March 28, 2009

Lemak+Cholesterol

ST team from right:(Qi Hong, Wai Hoe, Yann Fei)

I guess this is the end of debating days for me as very unfortunately, Sam Tet malay debate team lost to St Michael's team. it was ST pk SMI . I cannot say that SMI team strong but at least they were stable. Listening to their Perdana Menteri(1st speaker), me and KKC thought that Sam Tet sure win . This was because SMI was all about extravaganza and over the top. Their "hujah" or points were weak. But, the nerves really got the very best of my team.

Though I had already left ST, but my love and passion for debate is still there and I did really hope the very best for them. I know that if they were not nervous they would absoluty
KILL + slaughter SMI(our points were strong + i trained them hard). When the SMI speakers where speaking, me and KKC were rolling our eyes, SHOCKED as their points were like OMG!!!! I was confident but oh well, as long as my team did their best I am proud! These guys have mad potential, they just lack exposure!..haha..oh well....there's nothing i can do!

Our tajuk perbahasan was "Kebanjiran Pendatang asing menguntungkan negara" (we were pembangkang.) You know what, i rmb the SMI PM said " hujah barisan pembangakang bagai
Cholestrol dan lemak.......mengancam kesihatan wor." (they were speaking in that OVEr the top Malay slength)..and MGS lost to Anderson!!!(apa ?? everyone thought that MGS were way beyond and ahead Anderson!!!) .haiz tak apa lar..!!!! Sam tet rules!!!

Lemak and Cholesterol?OMG...






i guess i just have to hope that lady luck stands by ST Chinese Debate team as they are up against AMC tomorrow in the finals!.. .,.good luck!

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

火火火!!!!!!!!!!

Have been coaching Sam Tet Malay debate for over a week already and believe it or not, tomorrow is their chance to shine! They are against AMC which means a 50% chance of winning. Thank God that they are not up against stronger opponents such as MGS, Convent and Anderson. That would freak them out. Coaching these guys was a roller coaster ride. Of course there were ups and downs but i believe that they can make it till the end with the right guidance.

I was thinking if only i had this guidance and coaching, i would be like so much prepared for the competition last year. Well, its ok as i had already got over it and chanelling this new found energy to these guys. I may not be as a pro as my other fellow Chinese Debate friends but i really hope what i have done for them is enough for them to sail through the next round.

btw, the topic is " Program Realiti dapat melahirkan masyarakat madani ". Well, reality shows are like my forte..haha...so i hope my plethora of information in reality TV helped them. Though i can't see them tomorrow, all the best !!!

Guys, i want to see the fire in your eyes, the fire in your heart!!! i want passion!!!!-


To:

Yann Fei(Perdana Menteri) : Remember my training, pause, give me intonation, give me more climax.

Wai Hoe(menteri Pertama): Remember Fire!!!!火!火!! don't make me draw Fire in front of the blackboard to bring out your fire.Be confident as when you have it, you really have it!..."Lock yourself" in the pro debator room!

QI Hong(menteri Kedua): BE Slow and steady, dun be overconfident...as slow and steady wins the race

The other two simpanan: Don't be lazy!!!!!!!



Thursday, March 19, 2009

Stormy weather

This week is about choices, whats next, what going to be the next step? This is what my blog is about: Aviation. Its all like booking a plane ticket blindfolded , and not knowing the next destination. China? sunny Hawaii? or exotic Brazil? haha..its going to be a tough decision to mark down our choices. After all, every road, every path seems to have its pros and cons. In other words there is a silver lining in every cloud!

Former F5 or F6 students who have received their results regardless how it turns out must make their choices. This does not exclude me as i too have a Big decision to make. And for those who had their mind on what they want to pursue, in some cases, it is not " whether you like it or not" it can go this way.."whether you can afford it or not?". Some are given various choices and great choices, but are picky. They can go to be like:" I don't want that..i don't want this".For those who had made up their minds, a 'nasty friend' (crazy ideas pop up). They seem to second guess of the choices they make and this is really troubling them. On the other hand, for those who are fighting their way to achieve their dreams, obstacles and various challenges seem to bother them and hinder them. This is just like taking a flight. It all depends on the weather. There can be stormy days and there can be sunny days. It all depends on fate.

Recently, my parents told me that they have about 40-50 K for my studies and they told me that they are sure that they would not be able to take me overseas without any other financial aid. Well, guess what this does not bother me. the only thing is that after using the 40-50 K for my studies, they have none left for their health. and i was like left breathless.

Life is not a bed of roses. Sometimes, you may have to board a shaky flight. Sometimes, it maybe a good experience. It depends on fate. Pray hard as i will pray for all of my friends. Despite the story weather, there will be a bright future as the pot of gold at the rainbow's end awaits you.

Happy Bday to Jin+ Good luck to LZC as you march your way into NS!!!

Sunday, March 15, 2009

友情

Today while at Calvin's house and i kept pointing at Calvin's MSN messenger and asked:" who is that? who is this? no idea." and when we were having a conversation, he asked me:" Why do you have so little friends? Look at me......blah blah blah." This is a fact that i have acknowledged for quite some time. truly said compared to the baby face Calvin Nga, i seem to have less friends compared to him. I replied my friends consist of " F4, F5 and F6"(due to the fact that i am a librarian and i had quite some good friends made in the library )

I was then quite satisfied with my answer as it led to Calvin's immediate silence. Now, i would like to take it back and answer in this way:" Having only 1 true and genuine friend is way way way( multiplied a billion times) beyond+infinitive times better than having uncountable friends. Its true that you need to have lots of connections to survive in this world but to me, a true friend is what that colors my life, they are an inspiration and motivation. To me, true friends means the world to me.

lately, many incidents seem to help me open my eyes that widely ....i got to whiteness with my own bare eyes who my true friends were. At the same time the ugly side of some appeared. Competition can sometimes be harsh. yet , i am again grateful and blessed to possess all these "living treasures" ranging from gold, diamond, Sapphire to silver.

Today, i can say that i have a handful of true friends. It may just be a handful but its like a blessing to me. I never knew that how much i could be touched or overwhelmed by just something that seems so small. it can be just a word of encouragement or it can just be a short and simple comment, this is more than enough to move mountains in my world.
My definition of friends keep changing for the past years so may time mature me and make me wiser in my decisions and thoughts.

sincerity and genuine is what that makes a nobody becomes a somebody is your life
海内存知己, 天涯若比邻 --------王勃《送杜少府之任蜀州》

Saturday, March 14, 2009

真的很努力

went to menjenguk old tuition teachers today. Went menjenguk Alex(my add maths teacher) and also Pn Chaw(Chinese teacher) . I found it great to see them again. Its been quite some time since i last seen them and be with them. Thus, i surely felt rather like at 'home' or in other words in my element. haha..

Alex is fine and like chat chat with tat Big guy for a while .btw..i bought Swiss rolls for the teachers!!! thank you all ar..!!....bt when i went to visit Pn Chaw..the emotions began rolling. I did not get an A for my Chinese. To be honest, i felt proud of myself..greatly satisfied as what i deeply know in my heart is to satisfied and grateful. I should not be greedy but i felt that i disappointed Pn Chaw in some way. I really worked hard for it..maybe its not enough.

i am not very interested in Chinese unlike some others but i do not like hate it. I still remember yesterday when Calvin phoned Pn Chaw to tell her that he got an A1 for Chinese...i felt the elation. haiz....when it was my turn to speak..i told her that i was satisfied...(that was what i really felt) but i kinda feel that i disappointed Pn Chaw. haiz...and when Zhi Cong told Pn Chaw :"其实友盛真的很努力......" , my feelings were mixed. I really felt a stir of emotions. i really amde an effort memorizing chinese essays and did some research, but it was not enough .it was like a raw feeling. I felt that i have let down Pn Chaw. And at the same time i really thank Lord that i have great friends such as Zhi Cong..who is always honest and stays true to me.

could i have done better?? If only i tried better maybe...haiz...I am really grateful getting B3 but knowing that i have let Pn Chaw down is the only thing that brings me down. Haiz...i hate myself for putting myself in this position! Argh..

Thursday, March 12, 2009

SPM here i come!

Today is the big day of my life. Its like the big reveal, the end of a long journey, its the finishing line and the results will be announced very soon. With my mum accompanying me to take my results, all i kept telling myself was to be grateful and satisfied. Well i went out about 10 after watching the finale of The Amazing Race Asia which Jo Jer and Zabrina who hails from M'sia WON!!!!...on my way, i thought of some Gospel songs to calm myself down"blessed by your name...."

i woke up rather early at around 7.30. SO, to avoid myself from thinking to much, i turned to my computer..haha.on9ing early in the morning...SO what did i do on9...blogged and then heard songs on You Tube..mostly inspirational ones like " I believe" and "Gemilang" to lift my spirits high. Well, then ah Leow and Bing Jian called me..chatted with them actually managed to calm myself down. After all, i am a chatterbox.

At the school hall, we like waited like mad for so long for our results. Anxious ...crazy ....OMG.....and it was only about 11.30 when i got my results. Well at first Mr Hee came out informing us of the very few who did so WELL in SPM that the reporters wanted to interview them. First named called.. scoring so well that he was the top in Perak this year is Ch'ng Dao Zen with 13 A1's. Then ...Calvin Nga(12 A1's) , Liew Xue Ming(12A1's)..well they really deserved it..then came the 11 A1's..kah wai..sheng fei . leow...yik hoe..yew yang...show de yang.leong chee fai....OMG..den no more.

This was the time when true madness rised to the peak. Each of the remaining few looked at each other..me at Hoe..den at zhi chong..sei gan...but the nerve freak was truly crowned to Bing Jian. OMG he har..really freaked out...so scard that he din get 11 A's ...OMG...must calm down...he really berharapan besar..and we all were like...TENangkan diri..then he even asked me for Pn Ooi(Bm teacher)'s Hp number and insisted that i lend him my phone to use...haiz..suan lar.....coz Pn Ooi's hp is 016..mine is 017 ..and that bing jian is Digi geh ..still wan to use my phone..really har...never mind lor..lend la...he so scard..hope that can tenangkan and make him feel better mar..

den talk har talk har.. quite some time passed. and to be honest, i told zhi cong...sudah lama cakap..cash banyak gone lor.....OMG..den only got to know bing jian also sama sama 11A. (10 A1 1A2)...haiz..tak apa lar..good for you..continued waiting.

After a while Mr Hee called out some names and called these people to come forward to take photo with reporter as these lucky guys got 10 A's and above. (Blah..blah..blah...blah...)after quite some time i heard my NAME..shocked..amazed..hooray..did i hear wrongly OMG lor..praise the Lord! went forward and mr hee said these names are the guys who got 11 A's.....haha..not bad lar..must have missed out chinese i guessed..nevertheless..happy and satisfied!!!! GRATEFUL!!!!...

i scored 11 A1's and 1 B3 for chinese. To me, its more than amazing jor.Its like a blessing...more than i ever expected.GRATEFUL+thankful..haha This is like a dream come true.....ENOUGH is enough..i am satisfied..haha...Mr hee asked those to take photos right? group photo ....but me and shao kang did not take and went to the canteen ..we both agreed that getting 11 A's is not a HUGE or AMAZING achievement...let the others have chance to shine..thanks ya shao kang for being with me that time..really appreciate it!

and of course some scored well and some faired alright. Some missed a few subjects and some went empty handed...well....just continue to GAMABTE ar..oh ya ..KKC got 11A's(campur A1 n A2) again, its my destiny to get B for chinese..i say its a family curse+sumpah as my sis also the same takdir..oh well,...i can live with it!

I am like crazy mad calm..can rest jor..haha....thanks for all my friends' support out there! Your prayers are answered !Mr Yip's(form teacher) retirement tomorrow..so all S1 guys must BERI MUKA!!!>.haha

The wait

the wait has been almost crazy for me. i dunno why but the butterflies are keep flying in my stomach till now. To depart myself from this uneasy situation, all i had to do is watch TV and yes, i watched TV til around 2 o'clock. I also thought that by doing some sit-ups it may make me tired..so i did some ...all i wanted is to have some peace in my mind.

This, i managed to achieve until i laid onto my bed and OFF the lights went. Thoughts kept flooding into my mind. A plethora of questions kept popping out into my mind disrupting my earlier peace. And so i kept telling and pacified myself by saying" Don't be greedy."" What you get is what you are responsible of"" satisfaction!!! " I am a fighter". Well, believe it or not , i told that to myself a few times and i even looked at the mirror and told these to my reflection in the mirror.

Despite behaving bizzare, i need to realize the fact that this is a race against myself and not against others. Writing this post needs to remind me later that no matter how it turns out, fate has been decided but I MUST never give up on my dreams.

Its now roughy 2 hours before 10. In a matter of time, fate is gonna be revealed. All the best. Thats all i can say now.

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

I wanna be the Biggest Loser!!!

watched The biggest loser today and i was like so inspired, i felt so touched watching the contestants fighting their way to have a better life, fighting for a change, fighting to be healthy. For your info, The biggest loser is a show where contestants are brought in from all over America to like join a competition in loosing weight. Yes they are overweight!!!! really BIG and they have a GReat heart+ determination. They are competing to be the Biggest Loser(weight-wise, eg:lose weight, lose inches..) and each week they go through frickin Gruelling workout routines and they have to stay to strict diets.


okok...enough of that...this episode was that the remaining 6 contestants had to compete in a challenge where they had to cycle non-stop for 4 hrs to get immunity, thus avoiding elimination!!!!!!!!! 4 hrs..?? WOW..really impressed, inspired, motivated me..

I've been on the bike before but i do it about 30 minutes each time. The longest was 1 hour....but 4 hrs??? AMAZING and remember these guys are like not the 'average' size.

so motivated, inspired by them especially Andrea(Girl you were amazing!). My conclusion" To be a fighter, think like a gladiator,empower the determination of Nicol David....and strive for VICTORY!!.

Monday, March 9, 2009

Fight till the end!!!

to all SPM and STPM guys and gals:

Bro and sisters....This week(STPM out on Tues, SPM on Thurs) is gonna be blimey a roller coaster ride for us. So, we gotta stay really strong and fight till the very last end minute!!! yO!!! WE CAN MAKE IT!!!!(gotta chanel the Pets spirit!!!!!) Let us just harvest the fruits of our labour. We are gonna flourish....right??..haha...again my fingers are still crossed...hehe..

Lots of luck !!! May our guardian angel be by our side...OMG!!! Like kate always says in Jon and Kate +8....Holly Cow!!!!..haah

Sunday, March 8, 2009

1st week of March 2009

so, after sending my pc for upgrading i was left devastated...what to do without my PC. Well, the truth is that, i survived through it!!!! SO what did i thought of doing....well..this week was quite busy for me...accompanied my dad to KL to settle his VISA issues and went for lunch at Sungkai..watched lots of Jon and Kate +8(love Cara, Mady, Alexis, Hannah, Aeden, Leah, Collin, Joel)..and some Oprah,OIAM, the biggest Loser, the Nanny, American Idol, ANTM, 《情牽百子櫃》, 金玉满堂 !!!!! And i did some drawing.....lots to do...

Since my 爷爷 went to Hong Kong to visit his sister(another Great aunt of mine) we had to take care of my grandma...but the sad things is that my Dad and Mum fell sick on the same week which makes me the one hanging and folding all the clothes..haha..Lucky they are now as fit as a fiddle..and my sis came back after a week studying..haiz...lots of family time this week..haha

by the way...got the news that SPM results gonna be revealed on the 12th of March, thats why i made a small countdown in my blog..+this is no doubt make it or break it time..this is MAJOR!!!..haha...kinda feel the butterflies but this is life. What you see is what you get. Better try to not think so much about it...no more high hopes or false hopes for me. To keep myself occupied for the BIG day, i am teaching tution on Wed(the day before)...hope that makes me tired and worn out!!!...despite how my results turn out, i wanna go pay each tuition teacher a visit..thank them..

Ohya...last Mon celebrated Hoe's bday..Happy Bday!!!! haha...hope he enjoys his 18th bday!! Freedom!!!

these are the few days that i am gonna have some quality time with my dog Waggie and my family as i sense that after my results are revealed, a lot of preparations have to be done, and by that time, i may not have as much time to spend with them..i really love my dog as i take her as a part of my family...and i don't wanna miss a thing about her...love ya Waggie!!!

career..career...career...chatted with Samuel today and i got to know that he enrolled in One Academy 4 weeks ago. It is great that he finally enjoy himself in such a prestigious school doing Graphic Animation. Chatted a long time (1st time in a very long time) and got a lot of info about his life ....hope he enjoys what he likes!!!! ohya...drived with my Toyata(my 2 door car) and i found some difficulty in reversing..

Leow also came over at my house and chatted a lot...and i got to know some guys going off to NS soon and that also means the guys are coming back...and OMG..Megan is back in the top 12...haha...

so, is Graphic Design for me...??? Fingers still crossed...still have to wait and see how my results turn out....

Good luck for all you guys receiving their SPM and STPM results later this week!!!

Saturday, March 7, 2009

Meet Anna.K.





PC was sent to upgrade for almost a week and this time was perfect for me to draw! enjoy this portrait of Anna K. Did not really photo shopped it. Love Anna K. haha.. Do leave some comments...put a lot of effort...and i really missed blogging(ada hati tapi tak ada chance lar...ok??)..haha..i was actually picturing the Godess of love..hope it comes through her eyes..haha