Today, i finally realized the reason behind those vacancy and emptiness behind those eyes. Speech could either break you or make you. SO, it was actually my fault that kinda grew to a dilemma. Respect and you will be respected. I realized that me n him are special. We have our own stand and opinions, and for some reason, we are both bulls, both very strong i character. Yet, i believe that i sense his sorrow somehow...i mean not like that serious but i sense emotions that i believe my other friend do not sense. Maybe its because we have been sitting beside each other for such a long time. (less than a year)...its not time that matters it is that mutual understanding. He is a rare being i believe, hard to understand...i may not understand him completely but somehow my sensitivity makes me realize how much pain(not exactly....erm...sorrow..no...sadness.ya) i have caused him.
Ignorance can be a bliss or blessing. Sometimes knowing something 'extra' special can be blessing and cursing at the same time. Its like a roller-coaster ride. We will experience its flips and flops. Knowing so much yet so little about him puts me in a difficult situation. I am like this middle and sometimes i meet situations that i exceed my boundaries but all that i do (which i believe) is for the sake of good.
Its never to late to apologize, its never too late to confess. "sorry seems to be the hardest word to say". Forgiveness is all that i hope for. True happiness is all that i wish them, my friends. I once told my friend, i told her" i believe that he is one of those friends that will be always there for me and i would never find a friend like him anymore". He is more than a friend , more like a brother, my guardian. I wish the best for him.
Yikes, tomorrow is my Chinese paper and yet i have time to write a post. Sei lo....Chinese..never mind i will do my best......hope i don't menempah tiket ke arah kemusnahan...wat about arah kebahagiaan...haiz..made many significant phone calls today. significant indeed.
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