Ecydsis

2008 has been almost like a bless to me. People say that your days in your high school life would shape you, would influence you the most. 2008 being the last year of my high school days, being the last chance that i could enjoy school life, maybe being the last time i could see most of my friends. To me, 2008 marks a year where new lessons are learnt , new relationships are bonded, new chapters being unfold. 2008 is no doubt a year to remember.

People always say 'sweet 17' and it is after experiencing it that i understood the true meaning of being 'sweet 17' . Being 17 is like biding goodbye to those days you could act like a child, its like marking the beginning of adulthood, its almost like ecydsis where you undergo a tough and complicated process and shed of your old skin, growing a new one. Its a year where you finally understood the purpose behind those farewells, the meaning of friendship, the importance of finding your truly identity. High school life or secondary life is like a strenuous process in looking for my true identity, my true colours. Blue, Purple, Black...all those shades of colours represents a different self. Being yellow, I could be that cheerful, silly, bright. Being blue, i could be cool, calm. i rather see my self as a combination of purple+orange(silly, talkative, calm, weird, MCC)

2008 has been a year where i fostered great relationships. New friendships have been formed, closer relationships are formed. From the guy sitting right beside to me, to the guy from the next class, to the girls from tuition, to the gang of librarians, to friends from Form 4, having these friends being beside me from time to time is the greatest blessing i have to say for 2008. i feel that this year is a year where i finally found the true me. I had the chance to full express myself in class, i had the time of my life. I do not know why but this year i tend not to try second guess myself and just go for it. there were chances that i felt just really being myself without like thinking "should i do this or do that?" sometimes, i find it better to just go for it. Its my last year in high school and this is my last year to fully express myself as a going-to be adult. i find myself sometimes rather childish often playing roles of 紅孩兒,吸妖道士 in class. I would be like taking my water bottle and pretend it is my "labu"( a bottle like container where during the shows, the sifu use to suck in demons) and play around in class. haha.....those were the days i had most fun in my class. During chemistry, i had the most fun with my "labu" where my friends asked me to pretend my dear teacher as a 妖精 and 收拾 her. We used to have fun, real fun that i assume many friends would not understand.

2008 could be the year of fame and glory for me, but oh well. Being overconfident is the main reason of my failure. I was chosen for Public speaking, malay debate and malay forum. Out of those 3, oh well, i din't fare to well, however it won't keep me away from achieving my dreams. These experiences could only make me stronger. That moment when i stood on stage to present my speech during Public speaking is a time i would try to forget. Its not that i was afraid but its the overconfidence and insufficient preparations that made me stiff and fail.haha...it was a great experience though. At the end i was like teased all around by my friends as i like told them that i would 'bersinar' and 發光發熱 on the stage. And for Malay debate, i never expected so much drama and 'black' politics(with KKC in your team, be prepared for tonnes of drama, haha). Before the competition, we were already broken as a team=sure lose. Being a team with kkc in the Malay forum competition was the highlight of everything. It was like, we had chemistry, it was instant fire on the stage. Not to say that i am boasting but me and kkc in Malay forum=amazing.haha...too bad our competition was rather strong and there was a misunderstanding of competition rules that at the end led us to another failure..haha

2008 is the year i was introduced to an amazing person, one that fired spark lights , one that shined , one that is truly wonderful inside and out -曾沛慈. i guess my friends would already be quite familiar with 沛慈 since i always talk about her daily and believe me, i could go on and on talking about 沛慈 without stop. Shes tall, amazing, beautiful-having all the qualities that i look for. haha...when i say Pets(沛慈) is the best , my friends would be like 'go open your Pets shop la. i see a resemblance in me and her character wise. She has this MCC quality that seems so intriguing to me like a mystical fairytale creature.

2008 also means a year where i have to make decisions that could change my life. My career, my future path means everything to me. The end of school life can mean a new path to me. What is my next BIG step? Matriculation? Form 6? College? SAMS? its like a bundle of quetion marks. Am i sure achitecture is my path? after all, architecture is a blend of science and art which i could see myself surviving in. Is it going 2 be my passion? I tend to like skecthing art pieces and friends were like, join Project Runway...being in fashion? i am sceptical about it. It's not a bed of roses. Sketching a few designs is easy but being the next Marc Jacobs, CoCo Chanel? Between photography and fashion? Photography wins hands down but is it going to be my career?No. Architecture remains my passion for now. Maybe i could draw inspiration from fashion and photography in my future architecture designs. Just, mabe.

2008 has been an interesting roller-coaster ride for me. Lots of laughter, lots of fun. Everything has to come to an end. Thinking back, school life is something i would always remember, cherrish. My life as a high school student. it seems so interesting that everything seems to pass by so fast. Life nothing more than a brief candle. Friends are leaving and entering my life at the same time. Doors are being opened and closed at the same time. Knowing that some of my friends will be pursueing their studies in no time and leaving marks another end of another chapter. Will this set us apart? Apart from that, to my friends who have been sent to National Service, i miss you guys dearly. You guys are undergoing a life-changing experience and i do hope that i could experience the same thing as well. Good luck to you all.

Ecydsis- a process of growth, change seems in parallel to what i am experiencing now. Au Revoir 2008.....