A cool Alien.

Kinda feel strange sometimes. I feel alienated at times. I feel like a weirdo. it seems that among my peers, I am the only one that don't really like to go out to 'wek'. Is this weird for a teenager? Seeing that my friends enjoy sleepovers, hangouts, and movie times makes me feel like " why do they like those activities so much?".

Don't get me wrong. I am not a hermit crab but i prefer staying at home , enjoying doing activities that i like, playing with my dog, taking walks at the garden or field. I like going Yumcha at a nearby kopitiam, enjoying my drink , being in an atmosphere that calms me and chat non stop .Its just a laid back life i prefer rather a crazy-fun life. Its not also that i don't like outdoor activities but i prefer like walks at the park? haha..or maybe mountain climbing(mostly nature related).

I miss alot of my friends. Some are away from me , others are drifting further from my life. I do really miss the days where i get the opportunity to chat with them and just talk crazy stuff with them. Like i said: Those were the days!. It seems that i feel drained. There seems nobody for me to like go "hey....!!! or YO YO YO, wats up dude..".I really like walking to tuition. though its a long and hot journey, but i get to chat with my friend(non-stop). I don't get easily excited over things but i do always try to find out more of my friends updates. Everything seems to be drifting away, further from me.

It seems studying life is gonna start ....and all of them are seem drifting away. Why do i suddenly feel that way? Its not lonely but kinda empty? how to say....its like seeing how colorful my friends life are but my life seems dull and grey which i kinda enjoy. And this makes me think " am i that different??" Sometimes i feel being myself can get myself alienated. Well, if i am seen as an alien. i want to be a COOL alien!

like cj7 i wanna zap people..haha..

what up with me? sometimes i kinda want to take up my handphone and give them a call and go like" YO!!!!..whats up ". But....haiz...haha..sometimes either no cash or tak ada guts to do so. Am i actually shutting myself from the outside world?